Bingeing Blues - goddamn methylphenidate

[Michael]

Well im not the type to start a topic generally, But circumstances have led me to seek outside advice.

first off, a little background; My poison of choice is IV homebake, but that's been scarce of late due to an acetic anhydride shortage,

I used to add a ritalin or two to a cook to spice it up on occasion, as its plentiful and cheap (always safely filtered) and never considered them anything great. But since the shortage I've been using ritalin alone, to fill that void

Here's where I get problems:

Ive resisted the opiate monkey, yet somehow fall victim to endless fixing and dragon chasing with ritalin!
I can see how shitty it is, but cant really get out of the cycle.

One little taster of a new script before work turns into 10 shots, an allnighter and going til there's none left,

so after I developed a rit sweettooth, I visited a GP to reinstate my script of 60x 20mg a month, for about $3

Should I just can the script, lock the box and accept it's my kryptonite?

Need some opinions other then my families, my non-user friends or my own