Did a stupid thing

[Sister]

This post is a little similar to the earlier "dreaded dr. ?". I have been in pain management for 1-1/2 years. When I first went to the Dr. he gave me scripts for lyrica, and lortab 10-500 and to take the lortab 3 times a day.

I had been going to pm for a about 5 months when I had to get my top teeth pulled and get some dentures. It was very painful breaking those things in and the dentist gave me 2 scripts for lorcet 7.5. The amount of pills was 12 each time. Also I was in the trasition phase of switching from CVS to Walmart and I ended up filling one of the dentists script at CVS & one at Walmart.

Well, OMG! I went to my primary care dr. to get something for a cough. He came in an chewed my ass out and told me that I had been abusing pain pills and he could get in trouble if he gave me anything for my cough that had codeine. We started a verbal spat back and forth about whether or not I had a problem. He said you have been to every pharmacy in town to get these filled, blah blah and I had not been to every pharmacy in town. He showed me a letter in my file that showed different dr. with their names blocked out and what I was filling and how much I was getting. I was in shock at this point and didn't think to ask him where that report came from. ( I think it was probably the texas monitoring program.)

Anyways about two weeks later I went to my pain dr. I have to see him every two months to get refills. I want to mention that at the pain dr. I went thru 6 shots of esi's and radio frequency nerve ablation (?) In my neck. Talk about painful! So at this visit I am scared to death of what he has to say because I know he had to have gotten the same report my primary care doc did. He didn't mention a word about it. Said on my next visit he was going to put me on percocett because of tolerance issues.

Well that has been nearly a year ago and he has never switched me to percocetts and I have been scared to death to ask for something stronger but dang 3 lortabs a day aren't working anymore. Do you think I should have the nerve to tell him that. I am worried he will bring up that report if I do.

Any advice will be appreciated. I know some will want to chastise me for being such an idiot and I don't blame them.

BTW I still go to the same primary care dr. and he couldn't be any nicer. He knows that I take a shitload of meds, bi-polar meds an various maintenence meds. I am a walking pharmacy!