Xanax really fixes my personality disorder.. it's too bad

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Just like it is with every addictive and dangerous drug, they fix our depression and anxiety disorders.

I rarely take xanax, it's hard to find and when I come across it, I usually give it to my friend who loves it and "gets high" from it.

Today I had an exam, and got the results back from another exam, which were particularly grim, and I had taken some adderall to study, so I was a complete nervous anxious panicking wreck by about 2:00 PM. My heart was racing, I was afraid my future was over, and I was just feeling like total shit.

I come home, pop 2mg of xan, and my problems just seem to melt away.

My anxiety about school goes away, letting me figure out the best course of action to solve my problem and move forward.

My social anxiety goes away, letting me write a very professional and persuasive email to my professors explaining my concerns.

Time just seems to pass more pleasantly while on benzos, my normal OCD and S.A.D (social anxiety disorder) tendencies are greatly muted and controlled,

I'm able to interact with people and talk without fear and inhibition, I can start conversations with complete strangers, and generally act like the person that I always wish I could be while in social situations.

It's unfortunate that xanax is an addictive evil substance that would just leave me chained to it's dangerous seizure inducing withdrawal.

I wish it didn't have to be this way.

It's really too bad that the drugs that really help us cope with our problems become our problems.

Opioids are such a great anti depressant and anxiolytic, but look where they leave us, constantly fiending and in fear of withdrawal, shelling out hundreds of dollars a day...

It sucks that I can't take xanax for my anxiety beacuse I'll end up dependent on benzos, the last place I want to be.

Ah, life, so unfair.