Near Overdose?

[is_today_monday]

During all the time I've been using, I have never had this happen;

Last night, I prepared a shot of MS Contin, 100mg. It's by no means a large dose for me, usually, having shot that much, and a lot more, on many occasions. Usually I'm lucky to feel 100mg. Anyway, I had the shot, and I had barely pulled the needle out before I felt myself blacking out. I put all my strength into not passing out, packed away the fit, and staggered out to the couch, only just making it. I was having an incredibly difficult time trying to stay awake, and was certain I wasn't going to wake up again.

I did, obviously.

It was terrifying - my body just wanted to drift off into a heavy sleep, but I knew that if I didn't force myself to keep my eyes open, then I could possibly be in trouble.

I'm on 12mg Suboxone each day, and yesterday morning I had double dosed so I wouldn't have to go in today for dosing (I was going out of town for the day before the clinic opened) - I think the 24mg Suboxone + 100mg Morphine overpowered me like nothing I've experienced on opiates before. I'm an atheist, but fuck, I was definitely saying a silent prayer to the universe to let me come out of this still breathing. I even swore I would never use on top of my bupe again...

... in true form of an addict though, I did, about 15 minutes ago.

Sorry this is getting a bit long, but I have a question too - For my entire morphine experience, I've always had that wonderful pins and needle, warm rush. I find though, that if I bang it on top of bupe, I get an unpleasant rush, the pins and needles being more like hot rods being pressed again my scalp, and then other parts of my body - it it actually painful.

Has anyone else ever experienced this, either by itself, or when using on top of Suboxone?

I'm grateful to be here today!