Going cold turkey

[Deadfiend]

Thank you to eveyone for your help, I did kick CT, no use, other then one drinking bing whith made me feel worst of course, and ya it was hard, and I felt like I was in hell, I sarted getting better but it took a month, really 2 months to "feel" right. Now I know it can be done with out help form other drugs or taper, not saing that eveyone can do want I did, but I know it will not kill you, every thought you might wish I would at times, lol..Now eveythings better, work, family, no drugs. Now I just deal with the pain cause I think years of use to cover it up I feel a odd need to feel it. Sorry not to keep you all poste but have not been on for awhile. Once I had made up my mind 100% that was all it really took for me. I might not be the best person to be around or talk to at times, but thats also part of life I think. Once more thank you all.

[fauxflavored]

damn. you kicked 115mgs cold? thats heroic.

[HandMeSomeOpiates]

Thank you to eveyone for your help, I did kick CT, no use, other then one drinking bing whith made me feel worst of course, and ya it was hard, and I felt like I was in hell, I sarted getting better but it took a month, really 2 months to "feel" right. Now I know it can be done with out help form other drugs or taper, not saing that eveyone can do want I did, but I know it will not kill you, every thought you might wish I would at times, lol..Now eveythings better, work, family, no drugs. Now I just deal with the pain cause I think years of use to cover it up I feel a odd need to feel it. Sorry not to keep you all poste but have not been on for awhile. Once I had made up my mind 100% that was all it really took for me. I might not be the best person to be around or talk to at times, but thats also part of life I think. Once more thank you all.

Dude, you are the fucking man. I was bitching about my little w/d's I was getting from 3 month 60mg methadone binge and you came off 115mg with NOTHING? After I read your last post I promised myself not to ever bitch about my little methadone habit again(a promise I'm sure will be broken). That's hardcore shit bro. 115mg! No taper?! Wow....just wow. You are the fucking man and deserve a great life my friend. You just fought satan with a butter knife and won. Amazing.

[Matt M]

That is awesome man. I am scared shitless of that ever happening. Were you working at the time? How long til you could eat, sleep, and get out of bed. I think its fair to say you are stronger than myself.

[Omerta]

HAS TO BE A LIE! lol jk. Real hard i bet. I went CT from subs, which wasn't TERRIBLE. And i used high grade weed to get to sleep. Could not imagine doing this, gj.

[HandMeSomeOpiates]

I keep hearing how methadone is the worse w/d of any opioid, but honestly I don't think so at all. It sucks very bad but comes on very slow and is no where near the gut wrenching, dry heaving hell that is heroin w/d. I think most people say methadone is worst because of the longevity of feeling shitty. I've came off every opiate in the book and heroin takes the cake by far. Methadone W/D is much more easier to control/deal with IMO It just take for fucking ever to start feeling normal again.

[RifRaf]

Yea, I'd definitely say, for me, Oxycontin is the worst and the "least" bad of any was Suboxone. I've kicked Methadone twice, the first time was pretty rough but only took 19 days for the physicals to subside which is pretty good for Methadone. The second time took about 45 days, but I was at 180mg's a day then. Compared to Oxycontin or Heroin it wasn't as bad, I didn't vomit and the other stuff, although there, wasn't as potent. Suboxone was weird, I actually slept every single night, it was only like 3 hours or so but still I am used to no sleep. And I didn't get nauseated in the slightest. I only went at that for 12 days when I was in jail but I would definitely say that when I get low enough on Methadone this time I am switching to Sub's again.

[alowishus]

I keep hearing how methadone is the worse w/d of any opioid, but honestly I don't think so at all. It sucks very bad but comes on very slow and is no where near the gut wrenching, dry heaving hell that is heroin w/d. I think most people say methadone is worst because of the longevity of feeling shitty. I've came off every opiate in the book and heroin takes the cake by far. Methadone W/D is much more easier to control/deal with IMO It just take for fucking ever to start feeling normal again.

I still say the worst kick is PODS; 2nd is sub's fer shoor.
BUT everyone is different and the length of time you were hooked and using counts as well - CT'ing a month of daily pods vs CT'ing 5 yrs of daily pods is not gonna be the same hell; it'll be hell - but just a different level of HELL.

Another part of it, I always forget, is as I was kicking the sub's or the pods I was also kicking a very heavy very long benzo habit as well.
Now that is just plain hell all by it's self...

[HandMeSomeOpiates]

Another part of it, I always forget, is as I was kicking the sub's or the pods I was also kicking a very heavy very long benzo habit as well.
Now that is just plain hell all by it's self...

Damn sonnn!!! Yeah, that benzo kick was the hand that pulled you to HELL. I am scared to take benzos daily for more than a week. Fuck that noise....

[Der Alte Krieger]

I was looking back over this thread from the start and I was thinking how we all were making discouraging comments to the OP right at the time he needed encouragement the most.
I kicked a big Methadone habit in jail, not really knowing how bad it was going to get. If I had of had a bunch of people spooking me about how horrible it was going to be I don't know what I would have done. The same thing I did, I guess, but I would have been a lot more frightened than I was.
I'm not bad mouthing anybody at all but I thought this was worth mentioning.
In my experience with WDing I always try to remember that you most likely won't die from it so the only thing to fear is fear itself.

[alowishus]

I was looking back over this thread from the start and I was thinking how we all were making discouraging comments to the OP right at the time he needed encouragement the most.
I kicked a big Methadone habit in jail, not really knowing how bad it was going to get. If I had of had a bunch of people spooking me about how horrible it was going to be I don't know what I would have done. The same thing I did, I guess, but I would have been a lot more frightened than I was.
I'm not bad mouthing anybody at all but I thought this was worth mentioning.
In my experience with WDing I always try to remember that you most likely won't die from it so the only thing to fear is fear itself.

Good looking DAK, very good catch.
And a great point - which you are certainly right on about...

[HandMeSomeOpiates]

I was looking back over this thread from the start and I was thinking how we all were making discouraging comments to the OP right at the time he needed encouragement the most.
I kicked a big Methadone habit in jail, not really knowing how bad it was going to get. If I had of had a bunch of people spooking me about how horrible it was going to be I don't know what I would have done. The same thing I did, I guess, but I would have been a lot more frightened than I was.
I'm not bad mouthing anybody at all but I thought this was worth mentioning.
In my experience with WDing I always try to remember that you most likely won't die from it so the only thing to fear is fear itself.

No doubt DAK, I totally agree. Something we should all remember.

[Der Alte Krieger]

No doubt DAK, I totally agree. Something we should all remember.

I'm glad nobody took what I said personaly, but its something that I've noticed before and thought I'd make a thread about it. Since it came up here I thought it was a good time to mention it.

For instance of what I'm talking about it, I had never kicked Subs before and was wondering what I had in store for me, so I did a search on it. One person would say it was the worst kick ever and the next person would say it was a breeze and the next would say it was the worst kick ever. And with each opinion my level of anxiety would soar and plummet. So that right there shows me/you what a big factor fear is in enduring this scaley crocadile we all wrestle with from time to time.

Fear is the weapon that terrorists use and how they get their power. And God knows we don't need to be called terrorists, on top of everything else.

Since emotion is such a big part of WDs I was just thinking we do one another a disservice by offering a discouraging word or two when someone is in such an especialy receptive mood.

[Deadfiend]

Thank you all, and DAK even thought I am not on here as much by far as I just to be, I really think that everyone was trying to help in somway, but ya, some made It seem insane to do, but now I know, and konw is half the battle, right?And no I had just been layed off, so I had to pick get another rightawy, or stay at home and kick, so I kicked. And things are so much better now even in my mind I don't feel 100% normal again, but I got to ask myself what is normal after useing for about 20 years.
And Matt M " How long til you could eat, sleep, and get out of bed"
Is hard to reamber all of it, I was fine for the frist few days of course, I thing on day five or so it started to get bad, than I stoped eating after that, other then liquid diet for a week or more till somone maked me eat, and I would sleep here and there for a hour or a half, that part is still not right unless I were myself out.
But I just wanted to say Thank You to all you guys, been on here for a long time, and I know I was asking for help and I really do think that you all did in someway, or in you ownway.
Ya it was like being in Hell for awhile, but the way I see it I put myself there.
Once again Thank You All.

[jonsonville]

i dont think telling someone that jumping off a 5 year 115mg mdone habit is going to be hell and to try avoiding it at all costs is detrimental at all. in this case, it had to be done, but telling him its going to be rainbows and lollypops would be way worse. you are the man for kicking a habit like that on your own, the only way i would be able to do that is in jail.