The most vivid, intense, meaningful and powerful dreams I've had were during the early stages of withdrawal. The stage where you are sick but still able to sleep without waking up every few minutes. i.e., 12 hours after last dose, going to bed knowing tomorrow you'll be waking up sick. The dreams that happen the night before.
Last night I had dreams that were so full of deep imagery and meaning, it blew my mind. Very dark, dystopian scifi future stuff. I dreamt I came down with an alien disease that morphed my body grotesquely and gave me amphibian-like features. My skin changed color, the structure of my face and body morphed, and I had these disgusting black and green splotches with thick black hair growing out all over my body. I was being treated in this fucked up scifi hospital with other people like me who had varying stages of the disease, and in the dream I had to come to terms with the fact that I would forever be disfigured in this way, and forever be a societal outcast. The dream revolved around experiences at this "hospital", and generally feeling like I was literally in another real fucking world.
When I'm about to withdrawal, I always have dreams like this that blow my mind. In some ways, these dreams are pleasant. But, they are also very unsettling.
Upon waking up from this particular dream, I immediately related it to my addiction to opiates. I mean, I do not look healthy. In some ways, I have disfigured my body. This condition does cause me to be a societal outcast in many ways. and obviously, my health suffers. It immediately made me think... "is it always going to be this way?" and "wow, this is so fucked up." It was as though the dream was some sort of cosmic/karmic reinterpretation of my current life, in some alternate reality.
I'm sure this dream doesn't sound too profound or fucked up. The intensely vivid imagery is what made it so profound to me. The dream was indistinguishable from reality.
Does anyone else have these "withdrawal dreams?" I'd be interested to know, because I haven't seen any threads here about it, and it's something that I have noticed and come to love/hate.