If you could start all over would you do drugs?

[Leave it ta Beaver]

I wish I could start all over, Ive said it numerous times before!!

I pretty much let drugs ruin my life. Allmost 30 w/ nothing to show for, have no real life, pretty much just existing!

So I voted yes, Drugs have gave me nothing but a false sense of euphoria wich never last's & basically made me a misfit/black sheep of the family, have no real friends, but still I run back to drugs (there basically my only friend) All the hell It has brought me it's crazy that I come back to 'em!!!!

I've been using some sortta drug since 14 & do not know what "normal" is anymore, never been clean long enough!!!

I've also have said I wish I listened to all those who warned me growing up!! Allway's wondered what if???????????

[The_Highwayman]

I don't know if I psted on this thread already but I want to have some input, and I apologize if I contradict any previous post to the thread...

I would say yes, only because I could and would drive myself crazy playing the What if? game...yeah I lost a lot in my addiction, but in my recovery I gained a lot, and FOR ME herin was a choice that seemd the lesser of two evils at the time and I choose it, so I don't know what I would have done otherwise...going through what I did I hope made me a better person...

Also, as I am clean, I do my best to stay from smack and even thoughts of it as it creeps into my head but if I never touched it I may have found other solutions to my pain, that would have costME more...

[HandMeSomeOpiates]

I would just smoke weed, opiates rob you of too many things.

[Maintenance Man]

If I could go back I would probably still have smoked weed, but I never would have done acid - acid flung me into the depths of opioid addiction. I would have killed myself otherwise; I suffered over a year of LSD psychosis with psychotic tendencies/OCD related to acid to this day - none of this even slightly apparent before that trip to Hell - and heroin saved me from myself after that acid. The LSD single-handedly fucked my life up. I was fine with just weed and the occasional drink or percocet before that - maybe once or twice a month, if that, but daily weed. After the acid, all weed does is give me panic and flashbacks. .

If I would have never done the LSD, I would have never got addicted to opiates. I found the rush magnificent, but more I liked the escape from myself. If I had never done the LSD, I never would have found the need. If I could do it again, I would have sought therapy for drug-induced PTSD and hopefully got some benzos and never been in this mess.. I would never have felt the need to pick up an all-absorbing addiction if not for that fucking acid, but who knows, I might have picked up a habit further along the line for other reasons altogether.

I as well have never accumulated more than three days' straight clean time since I was 14 years old, whether it be weed, alcohol, coke, heroin, suboxone, or benzos. I can't cope with life without a chemical to do it for me; it's why I sought out weed in the first place..

In summum: if I could go back, I would NEVER have tried that fucking acid trash. I feel that this would have averted the opiate habit as well.

[underide]

If I could go back I would probably still have smoked weed, but I never would have done acid - acid flung me into the depths of opioid addiction. I would have killed myself otherwise; I suffered over a year of LSD psychosis with psychotic tendencies/OCD related to acid to this day - none of this even slightly apparent before that trip to Hell - and heroin saved me from myself after that acid. The LSD single-handedly fucked my life up. I was fine with just weed and the occasional drink or percocet before that - maybe once or twice a month, if that, but daily weed. After the acid, all weed does is give me panic and flashbacks. .

If I would have never done the LSD, I would have never got addicted to opiates. .

Those statements of yours ^^^ that i have put in 'bold', i honestly don't know how you can say that
I'm no psychologist, but if i were to take a guess i would say that you simply blame a lot of bad shit in your life, if not ALL of the bad shit in your life on LSD.

Sure, maybe LSD messed you up a bit, but honestly I really don't think LSD is the problem at all
I think the problem is that you're simply unable to just MOVE ON and forget about it and use the LSD/psychedelics argument as a cause for everything bad that has ever happened to you since
Seeing a Psychiatrist might really help you, man.

We all have problems, and i'm sure most of us here have far worse problems that we're either still facing or have faced in the past
But reading post after post of your anti-psychedelic crusade, i think that it's simply convenient for you to blame all of your life's problems on that bad experience you had with LSD.

Sure, it's easy to say - "Oh, LSD messed me up, that's why i started taking opiates and that's why i got addicted and still am addicted to them"
But to me it sounds like a complete cop-out...a lot of horseshit, basically

And to be honest with you, i have used similar excuses like that in the past too, (and probably still do, even if i'm not intending to) to justify my addiction to opiates - oh, i was dealing with a crippling depression, my folks split up when i was young, etc..etc...
But i realize now that while all of the above things might have contributed to my emotional state, the simple fact is - I JUST LOVE DOPE. it's as simple as that. To blame it on a bad experience with LSD - that's just utter nonsense in my opinion
And i'm willing to bet that is the case with you too - you're making up excuses for something that has happened a long time ago
To blame it on a bad experience with LSD - that's just utter nonsense in my opinion

Seek help, do some soul-searching, pick up a hobbie (other than dope)
And please, do yourself (and the board) a big favor and move on already


(and please don't take it as me trying to be a dick to you - i just think that i know where you're coming from and you cannot look past one simple fact and just MOVE ON)

[nodrover]

If I could go back I would probably still have smoked weed, but I never would have done acid - acid flung me into the depths of opioid addiction. I would have killed myself otherwise; I suffered over a year of LSD psychosis with psychotic tendencies/OCD related to acid to this day - none of this even slightly apparent before that trip to Hell - and heroin saved me from myself after that acid. The LSD single-handedly fucked my life up. I was fine with just weed and the occasional drink or percocet before that - maybe once or twice a month, if that, but daily weed. After the acid, all weed does is give me panic and flashbacks. .

If I would have never done the LSD, I would have never got addicted to opiates. I found the rush magnificent, but more I liked the escape from myself. If I had never done the LSD, I never would have found the need. If I could do it again, I would have sought therapy for drug-induced PTSD and hopefully got some benzos and never been in this mess.. I would never have felt the need to pick up an all-absorbing addiction if not for that fucking acid, but who knows, I might have picked up a habit further along the line for other reasons altogether.

I as well have never accumulated more than three days' straight clean time since I was 14 years old, whether it be weed, alcohol, coke, heroin, suboxone, or benzos. I can't cope with life without a chemical to do it for me; it's why I sought out weed in the first place..

In summum: if I could go back, I would NEVER have tried that fucking acid trash. I feel that this would have averted the opiate habit as well.

I don't understand MM; I thought hatred of marijuana was your life blood + passion. Now you say that if you could go back in time, you still would of used it? .........Am I missing something?

[SHELLEY]

it's just about something to blame for his miserable excuse for a human existance
doesn't really matter what, or how many times he goes back and forth
as long as it's not his fault and his misery is blamed on outside influences, he's good

hey, anyone have an example of a thread that MM has posted in
where he doesn't piss and moan about how terrible acid and weed are?
any of em? is it even possible?
is there anything else in his life to even speak of besides things that ruined his "life"?

[jo-jo]

I would do drugs...I'd just start when I was younger.

[Narkotikon]

If I could go back, start life over, and keep the knowledge I have now, then yes. Probably. I'd just not do some of the things I did, and pretty much stick with opiates. I wouldn't have tried other things though.

If I had to loose the knowledge I have, and just go back completely naive, then no, I probably wouldn't do it again.

[Dan Steely]

I had a ton of fun with acid x and beer for 20+ years. I'm glad I didn't get into the opi's till later in life. I think I would have missed out on a lot if I had started when I was young.

[Eric5989]

I'd like to say I wouldn't, but I know me better than that. At least i'd avoid the times i've gotten ripped off

[nuts4roxies]

i would still do drugs but not start as young i let drugs become a huge part of my life at 11 and they still have a strong grip i would also learn self control before i started again

[30_Units]

hindsight's always 20-20, but I'd probably do it exactly the same. Maybe try and give more of a fuck when it came to driving fucked up, but that's pretty much my only regret.

[Suboxstitute]

No, I wouldn't. It wasn't worth it. I thought it was but I was wrong. For me.

I started a lot later than many . . . . probably most of you. It cost me, indirectly, a really well-paying job where I felt I was making a significant contribution to my employees and to my family (but I had begun to hate it, so that loss may be a silver lining in some ways - still a huge loss financially and self-respect wise, though).

Almost cost my marriage. And now, I've just got the "bored on bupe blues".


So.
No.

and this is not a judgement on anyone else's decisions!



Sue

[AnitaFix]

I think I would still inevitably try drugs & probably get hooked again.

It's kind of my personality & all the borderline symptoms that come with it.

I like the package they shipped me in personally, but the nuerochemistry at factory preset?

Dont think so sir. I would wait until I moved out to start using rather then at 18-19, you know
finish college etc,. not be such a burden on everyone like ma folks. thats the biggest regret.
ODing 3+ times? oh no, no biggie..

[losangeleslifer]

I definatley would not have takin that first hit of crack at 16. Wasted too many years and to much money on that shit.

Everything else was an experience.

[Oakleyskier]

i absolutely would fucking not.

[underide]

If only.....
Obviously everything is always clearer in hindsight

But anyway - would I ??

Given the chance i'd probably just stick to mudwrestling =/
Oh, and living vicariously through others as well as smoking weed "without inhaling"


(totally O.T. - but one midleaged junky told me today that you can die through injecting an air-bubble under your skin (i.e not intravenously)

[The Paregoric Man]

I absolutely would, in fact if I could go back and change anything I'd get on opiates earlier. It would have avoided the wasted years on depression and the waste of psychiatrists and SSRIs and anti-psychotics(ugggh!) When I think about how much farther I could have been with opiates it makes me sad, and the years I wasted worrying about addiction.

[Dan Steely]

I had a blast trippin many times over the years, usually at shows. Ton o fun. Coulda done w/o the weed I guess(makes me dumb). Never liked coke fortunately.

Opi's are a pain in the ass but they're the perfect drug for an older guy to chill with. I think I would have missed out on a lot if I got into them younger though.

Beer was fun young and it went great with the trips. Doesn't do a thing for me since I started w/the opis.

[OxyBlowBall2]

yeah i'd probably still do drugs. i think i could probably go without staying up for four days on speed in high school and all the coke binges and probably would have have just not used as much but yeah i'd still do them. i'd just be a little bit smarter about how i used them and would avoid the benzo/alcohol blackouts where i hooked up with co-workers younger sisters and whatnot. they sure did make my life a whole lot more interesting.

[More Feen]

Yes.

M F

[squareone]

Fuck no!! If I could do it all over, I would be a scholar.

[wisegal]

^ dude, you are so young that you CAN do it over.

So can I, and so can any other person on this board.

[jcmanny]

No. Fuck no.

[HydroApe]

I certainly would have curtailed the MJ and Alcohol in College a bit more.
As for the Poppy I don't know If I'd have a choice.
I haven't read all the replies here and this has probably been said:
If burdened with the same pain issues I'd probably do it all over again.
I need pain relief, and I don't think I'd ever have the ability to separate correct/responsible use from addiction when in comes to Opiates.

[squareone]

^ dude, you are so young that you CAN do it over.

So can I, and so can any other person on this board.

lol... " do it all over" even though I'm only 18. your right. Its hard to stop because I know the feeling. But if I had the chance to turn back the time, I would turn it down.

[duck]

I truly don't think I would.

I am a really passionate person at my core, I was born with an inherent drive to search and explore and learn. I may not be the most extroverted person, but I have always been diligent and truly fascinated with the world.

Opiates have all but destroyed this in me.

[Logistics]

Yes, I would do certain drugs. No, I would not do opiates.

I would smoke herb and take psychadelics, but keep it to that.

[tui]

I'm actually stunned the majority voted yes.