Well well well, it's your favorite fox again with an update on life, love, and the foxy green skies above.
Just woke up this morning- it's like it's Christmas. Got my "bupe" refill (I've been waiting ALL week for this, let me tell you!!!) And yeah, I've heard it all.. "sub's don't get me a buzz, blah blah whatever..." well... go a week without them because you doubled your dose for the first 2-3 weeks and then come talk to me about what subs do and don't do. The funny thing? I've heard ceiling doses are at like 32mg- but I'm going to call shananagins on this one...
here's the thing: when I get my foxy dose at the beginning of each month (beginning? More like end of the first week... because of FUCKING INSURANCE... the script' was written for the 3rd! How's that for "wrong"??) ((oh well I guess it's alright- I shouldn't bitch because I know a lot of people can't even afford it, I pay 30.00 bux, no matter what, but it has to be a FULL 31 days ON THE DOT- no matter WHEN the script was written for, it doesn't matter... my doctor is understanding... he said when I was admitted to his "program" <when I answered all his dope questions honestly> that I was one of the WORST dopers he's seen.... I digress...))
The POINT that I THINK I'm trying to make is THIS: when you've switched to other opi's OR if you've "tapered" your dose down to less than a quarter of a pill a day, and THEN you get your sub's- the shit fucks you up. NO I'm not a lightweight. I was doing $50.00 to $100.00 worth of GOOD H all weeK (How good? See the thread about how this dope killed my friend,) ... and I was doing it because i stupidly ran myself out of meds (know that story? LOL!) So... yesterday was my last "dope day"... heh.. Took a shot early because of "precip wd's" stories (WHICH I think are bullshit- I've never got none of that, but then again I only re-started using oxy's and h for a week, so ... it MIGHT be true if you are on other opi's for a lot longer, spec. the 'done....) but WHATEVER.....
I love my subs.
I don't care what ANYONE else says about them. YES you become tolerant very quickly on the SAME dose, no matter how high or "low" (heh) that dose is. But FUCK IT... when you're like me, and your shit literally looks like a roller coaster ride in the way you take it, BUPE DAY is almost as sweet as Christmas. Seriously.
A lot of people put it down. YES it's not as good as H. I wouldn't try to spin that HERE. But you know what? I like it better than the 'done. THe 'done makes me feel like a zombie- and it's like, the more I take, the more zombie I feel. It doesn't make me "happy"- the BUPE does. I know that this is still a very new and very strange drug that not even the research chemists and the docs understand- but i understand THIS: when I get my script' and it's been 12+ hours since I've been using OTHER opiates OR if I'm on a very low dose (1/4 to 1/5th of a pill or lower) for a week BEFORE bupe day....
you know what? A couple shots of jim beam (I'm sick- I like "the wait" - it's part of the thrill- even if I have it IN HAND I will wait until as long as I can possibly stand it...) so basically a can of red bull.. like 4 or 5 shots of jim beam...
the bupe. And when it's "the day" I ALWAYS take 32mg (I'm 'scribed' 16mg) and it fucks me up. It fucks me up enough to come here and type THIS shit out. And you know what? I really don't care what OTHER people say.. I know what this drug does to ME. And i love it. No "swim" - I come on here and can LEGALLY talk my shit about the 'bupe. it's lovely. So here's to all the cops out there:
I'm taking my PRESCRIPTION opiates, WITH alcohol, AND redbull and I'm getting
Foxy tails to that.
I love america.
You're not "legally" allowed to take drugs... unless it's "their" drugs.
America... here's to "your" drugs!!!!