Forum: The Worst Kick, Ever

SO, when I kicked in jail, I obviously had nothing, not even any comfort meds. Jail kicks are bad, of course, but this one was especially bad because I had been using a LOT of PST for a loooong time. I literally started to get delirious around ...

tried to kick on my own, failed. i was so in control i thought, 3 days in and all it took was 10 seconds for my mind to decide to give in after so many hours of great willpower. great thing is my insurance covers everything, even the airfare,...

I've been an opiate user for about a decade, and a daily user for about 6 years. I've been addicted to pretty much any opiate you can name at one point or another. I've somehow been able to hide this addiction from my friends and family for this...

Hello wonderful folks of Opiophile! I have been around lurking but haven't posted much lately. I have had a wild few months. My boyfriend moved in with me. Right after that happened, my unemployment got cut off and it has been a wild scramble...

I am not able to get my rx until Monday at the earliest. I have had a lot of breakthrough pain so I used more hydromorphone than I should have (and also thought I had more stashed away, but I didn't...lesson learned). I've been taking about...

So.... pretend that you are describing a real kick from dope or methadone or oxy or fent to someone who has never experienced it. Talk about th e physical, the mental mind fuck, the depression, the malaise, the whole bannana. Make them feel...

This summer was fun. Die to med changes I managed to have Fent, Dillies, OPs, Percs and some Trams! Not all at once but in s short window. II was on Op 20mgx3 till April then it went to 40mgx3 when returned home for summer break. (i Teach/dual...

Welp, time has come. I'm out of sub, sad to say. I got on it back when I quit speed even though I had NO opiate habit, it helped me repair my life, it really did. I just lied and told the doc I had a 100mg/day oxy habit, took some trams and he...

I've been at this clinic for 4 years. 7 in total and these place have changed so much. The Dr at my clinic was a glourified drug dealer. And when I told him so he didn't take it well. Well now here I am cold turkey off 120mg. Its been 4 days...

how would going for .5 mgs of klonopin to 0, campare to going from 8 mgs to .05mgs? came from 8mgs to .5 mgs with no taper, it took a year to adjust after 12 years of use. now im going from .5 to 0. i dont plan on swiching to any other benzo to...

So, over the course of the past year. I've been flirting with my benzo usage. Trying to keep it to a minimum. Trying to tell myself "its just for sleep". Lying to myself "I got it under control". It's like the next level of this shit, for me. So...

So your sick of my story I'm sure but this is the 4th time I've kicked long term maintenance the first 3 being MMT, twice CT in jail once at home. This time rather than going to jail my Dr., a great guy, passed away very unexpectedly 2 days prior to...

I know part of why the body sweats at night is because that is generally when we're in bed, covered, and thus retaining excess body heat in a condition where the body doesn't know how to be regular. But even still, shit still seems to go awry even...

Let me first start off by saying the reaction I’ve gotten from you all truly is more supportive than my immediate family, this is one of the reasons why I LOVE this site..This thread will probably fall under TL;DR so if you were born after 1990 you...

There is nothing more immediate than a shot of dope. Most people live their whole lives never knowing there are secret intricacies into the alteration of the chemicals in the body, most people will never wake up smelling that ghastly death-ridden...

so i'm thinking of maybe someday, doing me some (self-satisfied,' no doubt) writing .. I have this protagonist-way-antagonist in mind, that is just a very unappealing creature, you could only pity (like he often does himself albeit always beinng...

Well.... I just took my last 80mg of OxyC before I start my kick. My habit isn't anything too crazy as of right now but this week I've been waking up pretty sick. My wife and daughter are out of town for the next 4 days so I'm deciding to go...

I'm on my second day of ct pst w'ds. I've gone a day or two without before and been pretty sick. Seems like at least once/month I go a day or two without and about 24 hours after my last dose the wd's kick in. Stomach, rls, headache, anxiety etc. ...

One of my least favorite symptoms of opiate withdrawal is being so damn cold all the time. I have to work in a pretty chilly environment, and I can't stand the constant goose bumps and coldness. I feel like my body can't regulate it's...

Feeling better/normal when kicking? I've kicked around 4 times in the past two years, going CT off black tar H, and only this time did I use Subs to counteract the WD symptoms. I'm currently detoxing my system and while I'm lucky I don't have...

What a glorious roller coaster of a ride opiates are... Here I sit kicking again, its odd the only comfort im getting is by reading other peoples stories of kicking and what not. I guess like others have said it brings you comfort to know your not...

FRENCH VALLEY, Calif. (KTLA) --A mantrying to detoxify from painkillers allegedly crashed his van Sunday into another car, stabbed the other driver with a cordless drill before turning the tool on himself. The man, identifiedas Garrie Apengren, 38,...

What is your longest kick ever? forced or planned, done willingly?? etc. For me, one month, 30 days, thats it. I'm trying again, and I seriously dont know if I can break 30 fucking days. Being sober is driving me bonkers! I know I will be...

First off sorry if this is in the wrong area but it seems best to ask here rather than elsewhere. Feel free to move this thread. So here's the thing I've on 100mg morphine ER 3x daily and roxy 15's 4x daily for a few years now. Now I have...

someone stole my script while it was in transit back to me from endo pharma when i was trying to get my opana when i had no insurance. they used it, and now it's my word against the pharmacy and the doctor's. i can't get anything until the 24th and...

What is your worst w/d experience? Just thought this might be interesting. Hope i put it in the right place. GOR

The pain, THE PAIN!!! 2:30 AM and God my stomach feels like it's infected with an alien. Off of suboxone about 1.5 weeks and god my stomach hurts. It never goes away. I tried papaya extracts because I heard they help with indigestion. I have...

This is bad, I've been advised by a friend who's been through this to go to the hospital and I might if it doesn't conitinue to improve.. Most know I'm on a benzo taper, but I've never been THIS bad so far. I'm also trying to cut out the drink,...