Today be it folks!!

[HeidiW]

Well Opiophiles, today is my day of reckoning. I don't feel that bad. I'm just trying to stay at peace with myself and my loved ones right now. What REALLY sucks balls, no internet access in the joint. I'd be seriously missing you guys, as ALL of you are like blood family to me now. Some friends came by last night and brought some beer, I just couldn't bring myself to drink. I'm not sure why. Well for one, I don't want to be walking in there hungover. This judge knows me very well. He's not too bad, really. It's the DA and my probation officer. They're another story. They want me me to go back for the 6 years I absconded and for the new convictions I've taken.

I wish they could see that I've really changed. I'm NOT the same person. I don't go to the mall anymore so I can have every pair of Lucky jeans, Polo shirt, and bottle of expensive perfume I can get. I don't go steal to see if I can do it, or have store security follow me around. It just ain't worth the hassle it brings.

I'm not gonna preach to the choir, but for all you young opiophiles out there, please THINK before you pull bullshit like I have for the last 15 years of my life. As I type this, I'm looking over my shoulder and I see my beautiful young son sleeping on the couch. The look on his face, I could kill myself right now. Sometimes I think I'm a selfish motherfucker for bringing him into my fucked-up life. However I also feel he's a gift from God, to save me from myself. I can't figure this shit out anymore.

If something unfavorable does happen, Nick and u-100 have my prison #, name, and addy. If y'all don't hear from me by 5pm tonight, well, it's been fun.

Love to you all, and, wish me the best.
Heidi

[Euphoricgirl]

Oh Jesus cowgirl, that truly sucks. Like you really needed all this shit. You are right, your son is a godsend and needs you right now. You will be my in my thoughts and prayers.

[Nate]

You seem like such a good person Heidi, you've been nothing but good to people on these boards. I wish those people could see what kind of person you really are. You have definetly changed from how you said you were, withou a doubt changed.

I wish you the best of luck today! My thoughts are with you (and im not just saying that). If anything bad happens, just be STRONG, never give up! Thats the Heidi we all know!

[superman]

damn girl... that's the shits. you know we'll all miss you.

I wish you all the best, and more.

[flipside]

Good luck Heidi....check your PM's

[AZJunkie]

So sorry lady....wish you the best.
Sucks when the piper comes for payment when you're right in the middle of trying to do "the next right thing".


I was clean 4 months when Johnny Law came knocking for a case committed a year previous. I can relate.

[aj11]

good luck sweetie
give em hell

[Babydollangel]

Well Opiophiles, today is my day of reckoning. I don't feel that bad. I'm just trying to stay at peace with myself and my loved ones right now. What REALLY sucks balls, no internet access in the joint. I'd be seriously missing you guys, as ALL of you are like blood family to me now. Some friends came by last night and brought some beer, I just couldn't bring myself to drink. I'm not sure why. Well for one, I don't want to be walking in there hungover. This judge knows me very well. He's not too bad, really. It's the DA and my probation officer. They're another story. They want me me to go back for the 6 years I absconded and for the new convictions I've taken.

I wish they could see that I've really changed. I'm NOT the same person. I don't go to the mall anymore so I can have every pair of Lucky jeans, Polo shirt, and bottle of expensive perfume I can get. I don't go steal to see if I can do it, or have store security follow me around. It just ain't worth the hassle it brings.

I'm not gonna preach to the choir, but for all you young opiophiles out there, please THINK before you pull bullshit like I have for the last 15 years of my life. As I type this, I'm looking over my shoulder and I see my beautiful young son sleeping on the couch. The look on his face, I could kill myself right now. Sometimes I think I'm a selfish motherfucker for bringing him into my fucked-up life. However I also feel he's a gift from God, to save me from myself. I can't figure this shit out anymore.

If something unfavorable does happen, Nick and u-100 have my prison #, name, and addy. If y'all don't hear from me by 5pm tonight, well, it's been fun.

Love to you all, and, wish me the best.
Heidi

Just know Im thinking of you Heidi. Unless its just 'that staw that broke camels back' sort of thing, I just dont see you doing hard time for the damn candle...and yes its ashamed no one cares how the years turn us into different individuals, making different choices. I know how you feel about seeing your kids and hating yourself for choices you make ! Having to tell my baby girl she couldnt have a badydoll and she did so well in school, cuz mama needed her medicine, damn near broke my heart. ill NEVER forget the look of hurt in her eyes. AND i want to change cuz of my kids...and I KNOW im selfish for having children !!
it causes one fucking big ass guilt trip that is for sure !!! knowing you could do more and spend more on your child if it werent for other choices....thoughts of this will damn near kill your soul..
Im glad this stress is about to be over for you. And I DO beleive they will somehow see your not the same person anymore...i just know its gonna work out....your babies need you !! God hears my prayers and ive had you in them constantly for the last week or so !
If it shouldnt go the way i KNOW it will, you can count on me stayin in touch..i KNOW how much those letters mean when in the joint..but dear, i dont think your going threre !!
keep us posted asap and check pics in your pm box when ya get back home tonight, with this shitload of stress out of your life and heart and can breathe again...hell the waitin would be torture for me for sure !
Looking for you to post here ASAP when ya get back tonight :)
love and hugs,
Jennifer
ps---never forget no matter your mistakes your a good mother with lots of insight to help your children not travel the same path...by keeping the lines of communication open with them, they wont repeat mistakes. Ive found honesty in most cases to be the best policy...in this matter at least.

[HeidiW]

Alrighty folks, I'm here, and REINSTATED! You all just don't know how happy I am right now.
My Mom even went to court with me and Michael, to testify as to how how I've changed, if needed.
For those that don't know, I've been estranged from my Mom for over 7 yrs. It's only recently that
she and I are 'trying' to mend fences and let bygones be bygones, you know?

Anyhow, I was NOT getting sentenced today for the candle. I got sentenced on that last Friday.
Due to my criminal history, I took another Felony conviction for a fucking $3.00 candle.

The hearing today was was for a Probation Violation on Community Corrections, aka ISP, (I'll See Ya in Prison:mad:). The original conviction was for 2 counts of Felony Forgery, 1 count Felony Making Use of a Forged Instrument. In laymans terms, forging checks on my own account after it had been closed at the bank.
My sentence was on July 23, 2001. Then, I left KS after 9-11 to California. This, I HAD to do. If wouldn't have gotten the fuck out of here, I would've probably not stopped cooking dope or ever gotten off the shit.
When you bail out of state of probation or parole, they call it absconding.

Due to me and Tom's fucking up and losing everything again last Winter, we had no choice but to pack up and move back home to KS where both of our families are. BIG mistake, as I had 3 warrants in 3 counties.

I"ll continue the story later, Heidi

[AWOL]

yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaw !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



off to run "errands", be back later. Glad to see you posting heidi :):):):):)

[blenderqueen]

man I did that exact same thing ( the check on closed acct parat) & got theft by deception & only misdemeanor charges whcih I was able to have dropped t o summarys afater completeing drug court.:confused:
some dickhead gave me 25k bail though for it. ahole. I am just glad you are home & posting that rocks!

[Genon]

Alrighty folks, I'm here, and REINSTATED! You all just don't know how happy I am right now.
My Mom even went to court with me and Michael, to testify as to how how I've changed, if needed.
For those that don't know, I've been estranged from my Mom for over 7 yrs. It's only recently that
she and I are 'trying' to mend fences and let bygones be bygones, you know?

Anyhow, I was NOT getting sentenced today for the candle. I got sentenced on that last Friday.
Due to my criminal history, I took another Felony conviction for a fucking $3.00 candle.

The hearing today was was for a Probation Violation on Community Corrections, aka ISP, (I'll See Ya in Prison:mad:). The original conviction was for 2 counts of Felony Forgery, 1 count Felony Making Use of a Forged Instrument. In laymans terms, forging checks on my own account after it had been closed at the bank.
My sentence was on July 23, 2001. Then, I left KS after 9-11 to California. This, I HAD to do. If wouldn't have gotten the fuck out of here, I would've probably not stopped cooking dope or ever gotten off the shit.
When you bail out of state of probation or parole, they call it absconding.

Due to me and Tom's fucking up and losing everything again last Winter, we had no choice but to pack up and move back home to KS where both of our families are. BIG mistake, as I had 3 warrants in 3 counties.

I"ll continue the story later, Heidi


Hey Heidi! - Sounds like great news!! Woooooo Hooooooooo PARTY TIME!!! CHEERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Take Care,
Gen