not too happy with myself

[Dan Steely]

Iknew it was coming. didnt make the slightest bit of effort to avoid it when i had the chance to. i used to be kind of a heavy chipper which actually worked pretty good. even a couple days off a wk kept tolerance down and wd at bay. not this time uggh. i am so mad at myself. my life is fucking awesome. ive got shit to do now igotta do it feeling like shit. i am hooking tomm. and i actually have 25 mg left, but i am gonna save that for when i hook so i dont look like the retard that i am. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

[OhJoy]

It's inevitible, we all end up there. It's the price we pay. :)

Don't beat yourself up.

[StillChippin]

yes inevitably, it must. Im still chippin but i dunno man, this weed is not cutting it, i dunno if its boredom or what i just crave feeling "too good" :mad:

[Dan Steely]

cant be happy every day.

[Nate]

I hear ya man, been there. I wish i could just got back to chippin like when i first started enjoying opaites, but no i went i ruined it for myself, and its very very unlikely ever going to be the same. Ah well... hang in there, it'll get better.

[poonwhalla]

cant be happy every day.
you answered yourself every high has a low blah blah blah.

[Euphoricgirl]

Sorry to hear it Dan. I have that coming soon myself. Just sitting here looking, I have 7 days left till refill and enough to last maybe 3 days. Do I make them last? Of course I do, but will I??? Think not. :(

[Dan Steely]

E-girl, make that shit last. Spread it out. Plowing through my stuff thinking I could quit cold was a big mistake that I wont be making anytime soon.

[nick]

Right bro,no point crying over split milk.It's what you do now that matters.


Much good luck.

[Dan Steely]

I'm actually feeling really good about things right now. Its refreshing to wake up feeling like a real live human being. I forgot what it was like. I'm not clean yet but I'm nowhere near high. I'm committed to the taper I'm working and I know I'll make it. :) Thanks for the good wishes.

[Rhonda]

Dan just do what feels right for you. If you can get by without taking anything thats great. Then when you have some more it will feel even better because of the anticipation! Theres a saying that absense makes the heart grow fonder, LOL