2 days in Hospital . . .

[HeidiW]

After a suggestion from Jacky, I decided to post my whereabouts for the last two days. I have been out of my Methadone pills for about a week due to my sick junkyself firing them all up too soon. About 7 a.m. Monday morning, I woke up with HORRIBLE chest pain and couldn't breathe. My fiance called 911 and I was admmitted to the hospital. It turns out I went into cardiac arrest. My heart had stopped beating for 2 minutes, and I had the paddles put on my chest and shocked a few times, I'm really not sure. Part of this is genetic, my mother had a heart attack at 29 and a major stroke at 34. (I'm 28.) The Doc also suspects this was brought on by withdrawals from my Methadone and Percocet. Now I have to carry a bottle of Nitro-Glycerin. I guess my blood is clotting up and causing problems, most likely from 13 years of IV drug use of all sorts. I'm not knocking it, I'll probably be doing dope until the day I die. It was a rather shitty way to get my favorite drug, Dilaudid. The Doc was giving me 2mg IV every 30 minutes, if needed for pain. And of course, I took full advantage of this, right up until I was discharged.
I'm really not sure what the point of this post is, I just hope none of you have to experience this. I guess my point is, don't let yourself get dopesick. And if you do, seek medical attention. They told me I would have died had my old man not called the paramedics. I got lucky, again.
They miraculously gave me another month of my pain meds. However, I have given them to my fiance to disperse to me as they are prescribed, 5 methadone and 3 percocets every day. No more, no less. As much as I love getting high, I have a 2 year old son who needs his mother at least somewhat functioning.
I hope this doesn't piss anyone off, I only posted this thinking someone could possibly learn from it.

[ontario_opiophile]

Fuck, Heidi. I never run out of medication and I hope I never will. Luckily I don't shoot up so I guess i'm not as prone to running out of medication and getting obliterated all the time. I probably would inject If i had a syringe around but I never get out of the house so meh, i just avoid it. Thats really shitty, i'm sorry you had to go through that. Hospitals suck balls, I'm in there every week or so but never because of withdrawals. Methadone withdrawals are horrible and it pisses me off that doctors think they aren't as bad as heroin withdrawals or any other withdrawals and they are MUCH WORSE!!! anyone who's been on that can vouch for me. I was on Oxycodone everyday for like half a year and I withdrew in about a week with minimal symptoms when I was healthy. Now I can't even go a day without medication or I feel like i'm going to die. I have major health problems and withdrawals could send me into cardiac arrest as well and/or give me other problems. I hope I never have this happen to me. If I ever did run out the hospital wouldn't even help me even though I have serious health issues. That is just scary.

I have nightmares about running out of painkillers. My mind is pretty preoccupied with withdrawal and i'm terrified of it. It's fucking awesome you didn't die. Be careful, and carry that Nitro glycerin around with you everywhere you go and don't hesitate to pop one if you feel anything weird coming on. I know how it feels to walk around and be a ticking timebomb, not knowing when you could drop dead. How are you now? Has the withdrawal problem been fixed? I really hope it has. Make sure your fiance holds onto your pills. I know it sucks not to get high but it's good to just take what you need to get by and fill up your opiate receptors a little bit. My meds have to be locked in a safe because I can't be around them or I will be nodding for months. I have my family keep them from me so I don't get fed up with being so sick and overdose or something.

Feel better, T***** aka John Doe.

[rebo]

We as users and ex-users are subject to all sorts of nasty's ,this scare might even in the long run help you!!!
I am sure you will be fine Heidi ,a friend of mine also went into cardiac arrest from using too much ,Iv'e woken up in hospital on various occasions and the most ironic thing is ,it's always the cops who have saved my life, they also never charged me with possesion etc. after finding me.
These are the hazards you will face, in saying that, the strongest people mentally I find, are people who have done it hard and come out on top ,I do believe you are one of the strong ones Heidi.
Have a relaxing recovery and I wish you the best.

[shaunclo]

Hello Heidi, if anything can help you stay good, just think about your 2 year old son and how shitty that would be for him to grow up without a mother. My mom died of a cocaine overdose when I was 10. All I can think about is how she loved getting fucked up more than she loved me.

[oldschool?]

[quote=HeidiW]I guess my blood is clotting up and causing problems, most likely from 13 years of IV drug use of all sortsquote]

firstly thanks for the post - i really indentify:i'm close to your age and lifestyle and i thank the universe that you are still with us - not that i personnaly know you but i'd have been very sad to hear of your passing since you entered my consiosness days ago when you responded to my thread about methadoe extraction -- and on that note i pray i'm not too harsh asking if you would still say that i.v. juice did you no harm... - although by the sound of it you havn't had to for i while (damn i wish i could get solid mehthadone!!) but at least i'm on my way to extracting the stuff and please if your ever in a situation where your going to have to start i'v'ing juice for heavans sake don't do it!!! i could tell you how to extract the stuff although you need a few chemicals to do it - i know many folks think i'm nuts for going through so much trouble to extract somthing i could just drink -- but i'm sure you'd understand!!
as a point of information how long has it been since you took juice i.v.? also in response to your post on my first thread i wanted to know if you condensed the stuff or shot it at its oral concentration??

take care and again i'm very glad your still around to be a mom, and that you shared your story perhaps one day i'll tell about the night i was stupid enough to i.v. crappy opium (yes i did know better not that it helped) later spending the night in the hopsipal moaning in pain lying in my own sweat and feces eventally haveing the nurses actually tell me to shut up (an all they gave me all night was sailine soloution!! nice sub-urban staff eh - no compassion for the adict) now i know which hospitals in town have addiction units and which don't....big difference

[mkchll]

Hello to everyone.. this is my 1st post here but i've been lurking for awhile. HeidiW I feel your pain. I also get Meth pills rx'd for pain at 70mg's a day. I always blow through them in the first coulple weeks. Usually I try to put aside enough so I atleast have on or two left per day. But I've been out on more than a few occasions. I also have two small children and It's very tough to deal when your sick.. I feel you pain but the liquid d must of been nice!! Methadone is a great high because it last so long but your tolerance builds so quickly to it..

[xxanxx]

Heidi - Not sure if i understand correctly, you IV your methadone pills? If so, what milligram pills? Would you mind posting the procedure used to "cook" them up, if that's indeed the case. Anyway, I hope you start feeling better, and I can definitely relate as I have been using for 7+ years and now have a 6 week old baby......so sad....

[HeidiW]

Hello Heidi, if anything can help you stay good, just think about your 2 year old son and how shitty that would be for him to grow up without a mother. My mom died of a cocaine overdose when I was 10. All I can think about is how she loved getting fucked up more than she loved me.
Thank you for responding shaun. I'm sorry about your mother.:(