stopping oxy soon

[l4l5]

well after my big break, I got some more and had a few last night, got a bit of a nod on ect, woke up this morning and felt like shit, had the worst fucking dreams, just weird shit nothing suicidal or anything but generally bizzare shit! Ive made a decision to come off oxy all together in the next 2 months, then taper off my dose I told my doctor, hes supportive and will have a schedule ready for me, and gave me the option at anytime to go back onto them if I needed them, we have a good trust thing going on and I think he will be my docotor forever until he/ I die, hes a bit of a rebel I feel, like he grows his fingernails long, always mentioning how much longer till he goes home, I said i tried to call him the other day and I missed him, and he goes great, I didnt have too stay here anylonger that sort of thing, hes pretty kool, could be a quak as u guys call them,

at 1 point I love this doctor for getting me on decent meds, but I hate him for getting me on the meds, after the last 3 weeks of clarity, just relized that they dont make me feel any better, but make me worse

[Chemical_Boy]

Unless you are getting significant pain relief, there is no point in taking pain medication as directed. If you are not in pain or are in pain but not getting relief, taking pain medication (especially long acting opioid) as directed will only make you feel worse as you will not get a buzz, just unpleasant opioid side effects like constipation, lack of sexual interest, etc.

It is good that you realize this about yourself. And also good that you have a supportive doctor. Good luck with this and I hope you feel better!