Curio
02-14-2007, 08:19 PM
Well, I thought life was looking better as of Saturday my new doc, who I originally sought out for suboxone treatment for my pain, agreed to put me on Adderall XR and had actually suggested that or Adderall IR or dex....we went for the XR cause they had a free month supply thing going on and I figured like so many others with ADD, plus all these 3-4 sedating meds he put me on in the last two months, that I could switch to IRs or titrate the dose with IRs if the one daily 20mg didn't work.
I told him about how I haven't been able to finish my medic refresher and how I NEED to be able to focus and get organized as my certifications expire March 30th! I have TONS of stuff I need to get done and haven't been able to focus well enough to even pack a friggin suitcase for nearly a year now...I score off the charts on all the ADD tests...like SEVERE combined type. AND he also knows that things aren't going well at home...or maybe he's forgotten the whole visit already??? He knows I've been trying to leave for awhile but I told him I can't focus long enough to get organized and stick with any plans..
Well, I call today to let them know that the dose doesn't start working for a couple hours and then seems to run out on me about mid afternoon on top of that....they call me back and say they'll call in some Strattera!! After I told him he already had me on 4 very expensive tier-1 category meds with my insurance!!
That's why we were going with adderall cause once this Rx ran out I could just go to an IR generic that wouldn't cost so much....PLUS...he has me on Cymbalta....I figured adding Strattera to that, PLUS Lyrica, PLUS suboxone would gee, I dunno be UNHEALTHY??? Plus he reassured me that cymbalta didn't have sexual side effects and I told him I don't want to be on any of the SSRIs or SNRI meds that screw me up that way...well, now he's wanting me on both???
SO she adds, we're calling you in the strattera and then by the time he sees you next that should be working and you WON'T NEED THE ADDERALL ANYMORE!! WHAT???
I think I just totally got hosed cause he changed his mind or something after I left the place...
So, blah blah blah...I truly need a doc asap....I have been getting ritalin from IOPs but it just doesn't work for ADD, I just get wired and spun out from it...plus I have to take so much of it that I simply can't afford it....I really hoped I wasn't going to lose all I've worked for just because of all this shitty bad luck I've had...and this "person" I live with who obviously wanted all along to make me into nothing so he could feel better about himself....I am so sad that I was actually thinking I could pull out of this mess without losing more of ME...without letting him know he got to me and my life is never going to be the same
I told him about how I haven't been able to finish my medic refresher and how I NEED to be able to focus and get organized as my certifications expire March 30th! I have TONS of stuff I need to get done and haven't been able to focus well enough to even pack a friggin suitcase for nearly a year now...I score off the charts on all the ADD tests...like SEVERE combined type. AND he also knows that things aren't going well at home...or maybe he's forgotten the whole visit already??? He knows I've been trying to leave for awhile but I told him I can't focus long enough to get organized and stick with any plans..
Well, I call today to let them know that the dose doesn't start working for a couple hours and then seems to run out on me about mid afternoon on top of that....they call me back and say they'll call in some Strattera!! After I told him he already had me on 4 very expensive tier-1 category meds with my insurance!!
That's why we were going with adderall cause once this Rx ran out I could just go to an IR generic that wouldn't cost so much....PLUS...he has me on Cymbalta....I figured adding Strattera to that, PLUS Lyrica, PLUS suboxone would gee, I dunno be UNHEALTHY??? Plus he reassured me that cymbalta didn't have sexual side effects and I told him I don't want to be on any of the SSRIs or SNRI meds that screw me up that way...well, now he's wanting me on both???
SO she adds, we're calling you in the strattera and then by the time he sees you next that should be working and you WON'T NEED THE ADDERALL ANYMORE!! WHAT???
I think I just totally got hosed cause he changed his mind or something after I left the place...
So, blah blah blah...I truly need a doc asap....I have been getting ritalin from IOPs but it just doesn't work for ADD, I just get wired and spun out from it...plus I have to take so much of it that I simply can't afford it....I really hoped I wasn't going to lose all I've worked for just because of all this shitty bad luck I've had...and this "person" I live with who obviously wanted all along to make me into nothing so he could feel better about himself....I am so sad that I was actually thinking I could pull out of this mess without losing more of ME...without letting him know he got to me and my life is never going to be the same