Icy Bird aka Cold Turkey

[kyuss]

I started playing
around with H
to get away from
OC and pods
and cos it was available.
Now I have to Kick.
I'm going Cold Turkey
as of midnight tonight
or 2 at the latest.
I have trams,vics,
and loperamide.
It's gonna be insanely hard
but,I have to do it.
My binging/spending
is putting my marriage
on the line.
I plan on quitting
for a few weeks
then chipping twice a week.
I'm not gonna try tapering
cos I can't with H.
Wish me luck
and see you
on the other side.

[oxymoron]

good luck, make those vikes last till you get real sick, I would have killed for some vikes during my last kick, dunno if they would have helped much or not. Do what you need to do.

[ProdigalSon]

Good fer you!!! You must really love your ol lady and thats stand up. Im still WDing but hell im getting used to it. Seems like you got some goods to help you along the way, thats good but Id say CT that shit and be done. Itll be over sooner than later right? Thats what I keep tellin myself. Dude Ive only snorted and smoked H, never IV and I swear it was INSTANT addiction. Only thing that saved me was guy I got it from is doin a 15 year bid for manslaughter. Huh...Anyway so kickin H..I said it in the first thread I started about coming clean, I couldnt imagine. And yes now after 4 days, sir, if anythings worse than OC my ass would be in the hospital for detox. How much do you do how often? My advice? Ummmm....I can just say fucking do it. When the needle calls dont touch it. Thats it. And you have to want it, not cause of money or friends or whatnot its gotta be for you. What would you rather do, WD from heroin cold turkey or have a circle jerk with your dad and grandfather? Think about it

[kyuss]

Thanks guys.
Pillophile I'd rather
not think about it,K?
And I've been doing H
daily for about a month.
Did 5 bags today.
Sad thing is
this last batch
was the best.
I started playing around
with the needle last weekend
still have a purple bruise
so it's time I chill out.

[ProdigalSon]

Man if your content with it do it. If it doesnt get in the way of your personal and proffesional life, you keep yourself healthy all that stuff, why not right. A break from anything is always good, kinda like a fast. It just makes it better when you do it again. Weed and xanies help immensly...Please let me know if I can do anything for you. You said alot of helpful things so Id like to return the favor. See ya'

[nick]

Much good luck bro.

[Ragdoll]

You know how much I respect you, dearest, and what a spectacular man I know you are. Please, please be careful...you're really someone special to the world (clearly), and obviously, to your family. I'm gonna do a Janis and beg: PLEASE, Kyuss, keep walking away, away, away from a future of likely disaster and toward a future of the Genuine Reality of the true love that life has offered to you in so many ways.

I'm here if you need to talk, vent, etc.; you know that.

Love - LOTS,

~Rags

[Euphoricgirl]

Goodluck Kyuss, were all rooting for you. Hugs to you!

[southernbelle]

Much luck to you Kyuss! I'm really proud of you and so is the whole site. We're here for you, but you knew that, didn't you?

[HistoryofMadness]

good luck brother we're rootin' for ya!

[OxyContinuously]

good luck, Kyuss---you got this!!
:D

[earthenone]

Good luck Kyus, I have had to chill out b4 to appease the wife, it is a good motivator, especially if u love her a lot, and have been with her for a long time. I wish u the best of luck, may the gods smile upon your efforts.

[nick]

Right now,I supect Kyuss doubts god's exsistence-cold turkey does that to you.

Hang tough bro and you know where I am if you want support or advice.

[AWOL]

Hey, I've been there too man. You can do it! I'd just rather be accosted by a donkey ... but then I have a thing for donkey's

[Duckfeet]

Thanks guys.
Pillophile I'd rather
not think about it,K?
And I've been doing H
daily for about a month.
Did 5 bags today.
Sad thing is
this last batch
was the best.
I started playing around
with the needle last weekend
still have a purple bruise
so it's time I chill out.


Best wishes to you, Kyuss. When I can stand back a little, and look at my whole opiate chasing life, it always seems tragic in a sense, that that which gives us so much pleasure, also gives us so much pain, and nothing, but nothing is as hard to stop. And stopping--or at least trying to stop--is a huge part of who we are, too. And very hard, all of it, to explain to somebody who isn't in the life. They always say, "just don't ever do it no more, problem solved..."

All I know is that the couple of times I've gotten off opys for lengthy periods (five and seven years) was because I got serious about it. I'm no good at chipping myself. It seems sadly to be all or nothing, but I'm also heavily delusional when it come to opiate use, so I'm always able to forget the past pain, and to think that "this time it will be different."

Well, get ruthless about it, brother, don't close any doors that might open to a better life for you, and of course I wish you and all of us, all the best.

That's why opiophile is my favorite, by far, of all the "drug related" sites, since it doesn't limit itself to any one area of opiate use. Here we know that we can post about the love one day, and about hating it the next, and nobody is surprised. this *isn't* a "recovery" website, and sometimes that shocks or hurts the feelings of new people. But that's tuff.

I wish u all the best, whichever road u go down.

df

[jacky]

remember man, we are rooting for you.

gotta make things good for your woman.

hope the meds help, maybe some seeds would help you ramp down.?
remember to take some magnesium a couple times a day...
and chamomille, and chocolate, and milk, and other things might comfort you some.
that is if you can not gag when you try and eat.

maybe you can give us some scene reports from the other side soon.
let us know how good your sex life gets, and how it is nice to sleep normally.
and shit like a champ.

take care.

[Ragdoll]

Returned to this thread to say, once again, I love you, oh immensely gifted one. Hope you;re doing well today.

((((((mmmmmmmmffffff!!!!!))))))

~Sis Rags

[kyuss]

Thanks everyone,
I truly love you guys.
This is the best forum
on teh internets.
I went to bed at 3 am
got up at 7 for 30 minutes
then went back to bed til 3 pm.
The anxiety and legs aches
have already started.
I cheated a little
by doing one baby bump
of h a minute ago
to I cook my wife dinner.
This is gonna be rough.
I've stockpiled a few
bags of h not sure
it that was a wise choice.
I'll keep ya posted.

[nick]

You're doing great and the future IS UP TO YOU.

WHATEVER-we are here for you.


I hope it passes quickly.

[AWOL]

You can do it bro, and you'll be glad for the break afterwards. I find I use drugs for a break from reality, but when drugs become reality, then likewise it's a good idea for a break from the drugs.

[Chemical_Boy]

I started playing
around with H
to get away from
OC and pods
and cos it was available.
Now I have to Kick.
I'm going Cold Turkey
as of midnight tonight
or 2 at the latest.
I have trams,vics,
and loperamide.
It's gonna be insanely hard
but,I have to do it.
My binging/spending
is putting my marriage
on the line.
I plan on quitting
for a few weeks
then chipping twice a week.
I'm not gonna try tapering
cos I can't with H.
Wish me luck
and see you
on the other side.
Good to hear it man. I knew you were with the pods for quite a while and then I saw you posting about dope, and I was like oh shit. . .dn dn dn Another one bites the dust. . . .(think with Queens music to the back ground).
This is good to hear. You I know I don't know personally and all, but you seem like a pretty decent guy. I hope that you can catch this before it ends up in a full on junky land tail of disaster. I like you man, and hope you lick things before they go too far. I am like you, can't taper. Just doesn't work for me.
Good luck, bro and let us know how it goes!!

[TrentonBoy]

i've tried like that before. you can do it if your habits real small. but if it's not, you won't be able to do it. soon as you get real sick, you'll run right up there. give someone your keys. and money.

[AWOL]

i've tried like that before. you can do it if your habits real small. but if it's not, you won't be able to do it. soon as you get real sick, you'll run right up there. give someone your keys. and money.


Hi, I see you're new on the site. Welcome. The big fireball up there named Nick kicked a 20 year habbit of pharmacutical diamorphine cold turkey, so it can be done. You just gotta want it.

[Ragdoll]

You can do it bro, and you'll be glad for the break afterwards. I find I use drugs for a break from reality, but when drugs become reality, then likewise it's a good idea for a break from the drugs.

dv is smart. Well said, deev.

And now, we shall dance
http://clicksmilies.com/s1106/spezial/Fool/ura.gif

Kyuss, this rose is for you, my dear one: http://clicksmilies.com/s1106/travesmilies/smilie_blume1.gif I'm pulling hard for you, luvvy.

[Chipper]

I always like to see aspiring chippers. You could try a H. taper if it gets too rough because you said you have a little stash there. I just wanted to warn you that twice weekly chipping is too frequent.

May the force be with you and I wish you a short & mild detox

[AWOL]

I always like to see aspiring chippers. You could try a H. taper if it gets too rough because you said you have a little stash there. I just wanted to warn you that twice weekly chipping is too frequent.

May the force be with you and I wish you a short & mild detox I found out the same, and resorted to one day a week.

[Euphoricgirl]

You can do it bro, and you'll be glad for the break afterwards. I find I use drugs for a break from reality, but when drugs become reality, then likewise it's a good idea for a break from the drugs.

Best quote I have heard yet DV. Salute to you. Hope all is well Kyuss....You cook to? Jeez....... Hugs.

[HeidiW]

Kyuss, you hang in there. I am sending positive energy to you. My old man has NEVER cooked for me; you're a peach!!:p

[HeidiW]

Yep, I believe it's called willpower, you'll get it only if you choose to Kyuss, love ya man!!:p

[HistoryofMadness]

hey there kyuss whatever works for ya since you have a live-in reminder of what you're doing and why... just keep in mind the hardest thing us junkies have to try to remember - tomorrow will be a better day.

tomorrow? junkies hate that word, am i wrong?

[kyuss]

This kick is still
up in the air.
I used up my surplus
instead of going CT.
Now I'm completely out
but,my willpower is wavering.
I tried to get my wife
to give the ok and on me
making a midnight run,
she said no.
So tomorrow morning
I'll wake up and feel that feeling
as the walls close in as I look up
out of my hole.
I can't honestly say
I want to kick now
so we'll see how it goes.

[oxymoron]

good luck, at least you probably seriously cut your usage, a step in the right direction.

[nick]

I was wondering how you were bro and will be sending positive energy tomorrow morning.

If you make it or not we'll be here for you.

[slugbone]

it aint the simple decision, that's for sure. my opinions go from "i can do it" the first day to, 'why the fuck would i want to quit" on the second day, to "i never wanna be sober" the third day.

then it's back to the wheel for another run.

[oxymoron]

Yup no harm in trying and failing, at least you tried. You'll do it when you're ready bro

[kyuss]

Thanks guys.
I wish I was
a rich man
and could live on
chocolate milk,pizza
and bags of opiates.
Sadly I'm a poor truck driver
who needs to get clean
and pay the rent.
We'll keep trying.

[ProdigalSon]

Its been 10 days for me. Goddamn horrible. Keep strong bro, itll work it self out

[HeidiW]

Kyuss, You've been in my thoughts the last few days, I'm hoping you come out of this with your sanity, your health and in the direction you want it to go. I'm sending positive energy to you, you'll make it !!!!!;)