Managing your supply

[Skript]

Just curious to see if im the only one who cant make their DOC last until their next hookup, refill, or paycheck. It seems no matter how much of my DOC I have I cant make it last. Maby I dont have as much will power as other people.
Its a bitch when I run out and withdrawal for 3 days because I didnt make it last. But I do what I do every time.

I wish I was that guy here that has 700 oc's saved up but I would probably go on a huge bender and they would be gone in a couple weeks haha.

[devilsdrug]

nope ur the only one with no will power

[doctor diesel]

Just curious to see if im the only one who cant make their DOC last until their next hookup, refill, or paycheck. It seems no matter how much of my DOC I have I cant make it last. Maby I dont have as much will power as other people.
Its a bitch when I run out and withdrawal for 3 days because I didnt make it last. But I do what I do every time.

I wish I was that guy here that has 700 oc's saved up but I would probably go on a huge bender and they would be gone in a couple weeks haha.


Yeah, I'm the same - the amount never lasts as long as I intend it to, and plan for. While sometimes I just think 'hang the expense' and go and score sooner than is ideal, quite often I just go without and stretch things so that I only refill at the time I first intended.
But there's no WD for me, as I always have tramadol, codeine and pods around to ensure I don't have to suffer.
And no, I couldn't keep 700 OCs in reserve either - I'd eat them for breakfast, lunch and supper!

Doc D :p

[Euphoricgirl]

Never enough no matter what!...Mind over matter, make em last.....Ok, who I am kidding?

[sweetdreams]

its funny that you say that! i used to try soo hard to save my DOC i would even buy more and it would never seem to work out the way i wanted it to. But now i am on methadone- this is weird. i can save that though- i take liquid, i get take homes and every time before i take my dose i fill up a cap full and put in in another bottle. hey what if one day i cant make it to the clinic?? You never know? I dont have a car and i use public transportation. so say it snows and the roads are all messed up and the clinic decides to close early ?? i dont know? then i wouldnt haven to waste my time goin up there i already have it at home. Hey I have alot saved up, i have been savin for a while now!!!
Or maybeona rainy day I want to take a little bit extra??? who knows?but that is the only thing that i could actually save! seriously think about it? do you really think a crack addict is gonna save a rock?? yeah RIGHT!!!

[southernbelle]

So far, I've been able to save enough of my doc not to run out. Well, I have a time or two. Once was when I was on vacation and had NOTHING for the trip home! God, what a miserable day that was....I swore then I'd never run out again if I could help it. But, like Doc Diesel, I have some old trammies that I keep in reserve.

[HistoryofMadness]

nope ur the only one with no will power

that's the first time i've really laughed out loud here in a while.

I've said it before and I'll say it again, you don't manage your habit (or your supply), your habit manages you.

You may think you're managing it, but you're not. If something has you constantly thinking about it, preparing, planning, saving, and then fucking up anyway; well that's IT managing YOU.

[nick]

I agree bro,but I got enough dope, good dope to cope.Then again,maybe I just have better will power-Urr,I know it's hard to tell,but the last sentance was supposed to be funny.

[devilsdrug]

i got it nick i got it

[Euphoricgirl]

that's the first time i've really laughed out loud here in a while.

I've said it before and I'll say it again, you don't manage your habit (or your supply), your habit manages you.

You may think you're managing it, but you're not. If something has you constantly thinking about it, preparing, planning, saving, and then fucking up anyway; well that's IT managing YOU.

Perfectly put HOM! And to think I was in control all this time! Thats probably why I only 1 DOC left and running around tearing the house apart again like a goddamn fruitloop.;)

[OxyContinuously]

i can't even enjoy the high I am on w out worrying about the next one

[Skript]

i can't even enjoy the high I am on w out worrying about the next one

That sounds about right. If im down to my last $20 and im sick and hungry, Ill go see my hookup before I eat. Sad but true

[OxyContinuously]

That sounds about right. If im down to my last $20 and im sick and hungry, Ill go see my hookup before I eat. Sad but true


shit , i am a smoker, too, and before i had a decent job, i cant tell u how many times i would get my "shit" and forsake the butts and then end up feening for a smoke. catch 22. it sucked, believe me/



oxy

[kyuss]

I'm sitting here
right now trying
to figure how
I'm gonna afford
to buy more dope.
Haven't paid my bills
in a few weeks
and the tax refund
is gonna get intercepted.
Yesterday I used up enough doses
that could have got me through to sunday,
now I've got one dose for tomorrow
then it's just trammies and florals
unless I buy more with money I don't have.

[Skript]

I'm sitting here
right now trying
to figure how
I'm gonna afford
to buy more dope.
Haven't paid my bills
in a few weeks
and the tax refund
is gonna get intercepted.
Yesterday I used up enough doses
that could have got me through to sunday,
now I've got one dose for tomorrow
then it's just trammies and florals
unless I buy more with money I don't have.

Woah.. That sounds exactly like me. If i only have a half dose left for tomorrow ill say fuck it eat now it wouldnt give me a buzz anyway. I always regret doing it

[greenfox]

That sounds about right. If im down to my last $20 and im sick and hungry, Ill go see my hookup before I eat. Sad but true


I think if you got $5.00 to your NAME and you can get a half a bag when yer sick or a big mac.. well, McDeath's is poison anyways...

[Euphoricgirl]

Well, you could be like me and have the money but have absolutely no way to get or find Docs. That sorta sucks to. But as green said, "IF" I had the choice I would agree McDeaths would poison.

[CircusFreak2k2]

WOW I feel much better about myself right now. And yes i cant make it last. I keep my self out of WD by pawming even some of my guitars. Then I slowly get them back out. And just re-pawn them when im out of cash. Then thee are the days like today. When I have NOTHING. Im dying. My hair hurts as does everything. You could probably bake a turkey in this house. Yet im cold. I have a Dr. apointment. in 6 hours. I will get a script. Then ill eat some. And i wont even enjoy it cause I know my scirpt will be gone soon no matter how hard i try.

I have gotten better though. I bought one of those 1 week pill holders with the days of the weeks on it. That helps me alot

[Zogledan]

a unethical alien surgeon could make big money on this planet installing endophentrons into the skulls of humans who want to turn up the volume of there uptake inhibitors.The 2008 model of the Endophentron has a dial that goes all the way up to 11 not just 10 like the 2007 model.Of course the big pharm companies have been buying up all the new models every year to eliminate the competition.I think the solar powered endophentrons are outlawed here anyway.SWIM did see a gas powered V8 Hemi model on the cover of CAR-TOONS once in the 70s.Funny how those gear-heads always look so happy.
mmm love these new Hershey's Dark Bars.

idea get real high then stash easter eggs for your self,gives spring cleaning a whole new meaning.

[Skript]

WOW I feel much better about myself right now. And yes i cant make it last. I keep my self out of WD by pawming even some of my guitars. Then I slowly get them back out. And just re-pawn them when im out of cash. Then thee are the days like today. When I have NOTHING. Im dying. My hair hurts as does everything. You could probably bake a turkey in this house. Yet im cold. I have a Dr. apointment. in 6 hours. I will get a script. Then ill eat some. And i wont even enjoy it cause I know my scirpt will be gone soon no matter how hard i try.

I have gotten better though. I bought one of those 1 week pill holders with the days of the weeks on it. That helps me alot

Well at least this place is around when nothing else goes.. Sounds like were all in the same boat one way or another. When it sinks we all go down.
I feel so much better.
I hate waiting.... Time slows down to nothing

[HistoryofMadness]

WOW I feel much better about myself right now. And yes i cant make it last. I keep my self out of WD by pawming even some of my guitars. Then I slowly get them back out. And just re-pawn them when im out of cash. Then thee are the days like today. When I have NOTHING. Im dying. My hair hurts as does everything. You could probably bake a turkey in this house. Yet im cold. I have a Dr. apointment. in 6 hours. I will get a script. Then ill eat some. And i wont even enjoy it cause I know my scirpt will be gone soon no matter how hard i try.

I have gotten better though. I bought one of those 1 week pill holders with the days of the weeks on it. That helps me alot


Yeah pawn limbo sucks... when you're hanging in the hock balance you better hope nothing goes wrong. I lost a few dear worldly possessions that I'll never forgive myself for, while playing shuffle cups with pawn tickets.

At the time it makes sense but man later it sucks.

[doctor diesel]

Woah.. That sounds exactly like me. If i only have a half dose left for tomorrow ill say fuck it eat now it wouldnt give me a buzz anyway. I always regret doing it


Yeah but we all do it; we're all exactly the same. Goddam nonsensical addiction!! :mad:

[I-Nod]

Just curious to see if im the only one who cant make their DOC last until their next hookup, refill, or paycheck. It seems no matter how much of my DOC I have I cant make it last. Maby I dont have as much will power as other people.
Its a bitch when I run out and withdrawal for 3 days because I didnt make it last. But I do what I do every time.

I wish I was that guy here that has 700 oc's saved up but I would probably go on a huge bender and they would be gone in a couple weeks haha.

Never have. If I have a lot... I use tons at first. Then all of a sudden I can see I only have a couple days worth and have to stretch it out. It's at this time that I'm telling myself: "shit, I shouldn't have stayed up those 2 days straight... and double dosed that day..." etc. etc.

[loves a b....]

I always tell myself the same thing everytime... this new refill..I am going to take it easy and not burn through them...but.... well...you know, it's gone in the blink of an eye;)

[roxi*stardust]

Never enough no matter what!...Mind over matter, make em last.....Ok, who I am kidding?

i can't even enjoy the high I am on w out worrying about the next one

Woah.. That sounds exactly like me. If i only have a half dose left for tomorrow ill say fuck it eat now it wouldnt give me a buzz anyway. I always regret doing it
The first day I get my script, plus the hubby gets his the same day. We are like wow tons of pills, we eat them up and then regret it. I'm telling you though this month is going to be different, I vow to myself. So sick of wastin money buying shit when we get our own!! And Oxy you are so right about that shit, I get all stressed out if I don't know that there is something to be had, I start freaking out!