Hell: Being A Junkie And On Crystal

[Narkotikon]

I've not been on a lot in the past few days because I've been hanging out with this new guy. Not really a boyfriend (at least I don't know if that's where it's heading yet), but just a friend / friend with benefits. Well, we met on gay.com, as I sometimes go on there to chat in the room when I'm bored. A lot of the guys use it as a hookup place for sex, and I admitt, I did that some when I was younger, but the whole process and thought of it now just grosses me out. So, I really only chat on there, and if I happen to find a friend, that's great, because I don't have any friends here, hence why I go home to see my family in Cincinnati.

Anyway, I like this guy, and so we agreed to hang out on Monday night. We had started talking on and off back in April, and I thought he was cool. Not the typical "how big is your dick" conversation. We talked about music, movies, culture, current events, and of course drugs. I don't like bringing that up, but let's face it, a lot of gay guys party. Unfortunately, most gay guys (at least around here) like stimulants because they enhance sex. I do LOVE coke, and I LOVE coke on sex even more, and I"ve done crystal twice four years ago smoking it, but it just made me really paranoid, but that's because when I did it then I had a gram and stayed up for four days or so. Well, anyway, I go over to his apartment, and he knew I was on my tea and I had brought some klonopin. I offered him some, but he declined, which I sort of expected, as why would a meth user want a downer? Anyway, while I was snorthing a k-pin, he got his pipe out and was smoking up some glass. I'm not talking about crank, that powdered stuff, I'm talking about clear as crystal shards of glass. That's the kind I did those two times four years ago. Well, long story short, I was offered a few hits, so I took them, even though I had done a lot of tea before leaving and the k-pin. It was exactly like I remembered, the taste I mean. Crystal has that chemical taste. I can't describe it, you just know it when you taste it. Anyway, I liked it for the first few hours and all, and it did make the fooling around part (which I did do, but hadn't intended on doing, but I was aware it might happen) a lot better. Although, I must admitt, I still prefer coke, and especially coke over meth on sex. Anyway, to make a long story short, I had gone over there at like 5:00 in the morning, so I guess it was technically early Tuesday, and the hits I took equaled to a fourth of a gram, so I've been up since this afternoon, when I finally slept for about four hours. Anyway, when I was coming down and when I woke up, I was not only feeling like shit from the crystal come down, but also because I hadn't made my tea the night before like I normally do, and woke up in a major w/d with that panic feeling. So, I quickly ground up 10 giants and made a batch of tea. Now I feel fine. But, I guess the whole point of this is to reiterate why I'm a downer person. Don't get me wrong, the crystal was excellent, but after a few hours, the rush / euphoria fades and I just feel all jittery and sweaty and gross. So, I didn't like it. So, maybe not hell, but definitely not what I'd call a good time. It just amazes me that that stuff is some peopel's DOC. It really must have something to do with brain chemistry and being wired another way. I'm definitely a downer person. I LOVE my opiates.

Anyway, just wanted to share that and to explain why I didn't post very much in the past day or two.

[SpecialGuy69]

Hey narko- good post, but I had to squint to read it. Good luck with the new guy, hope it works out.

Why do you say "coke on sex" instead of the usual "sex on coke"?

[Chemical_Boy]

I know what you mean about the taste of crystal. . .It is something that I would recognize anywhere. Sometimes I smell something that makes me think of that and for a minute seems to smell just like it. Same shit happens with coke (rock. . .). I gotta say that I like the taste of smoking coke a lot better out of the two. . .The kind of numb feeling around the lips and the back of throat that is so different and ever so much milder than the full numbness from doing gags. MMMmmmmm. I love uppers for a while (2 hours for meth and about 10 minutes for coke) but then I feel like shit unless I re-dose. Which, with the jones that comes from stimulants is a definite must. I won't even fuck with them unless I am getting an 8ball minimum, otherwise it is all jones and no fun. Regardless you always end up running out and then feel like shit. Even large amounts of xanax didn't help the comedown from that shit. Only thing that really warms my bones during a coke crash is a nice fat line of Jersey dope. . .
I also think that stims suck for sex. They didn't always suck, they used to be great. But then one day I found that every time I did any coke or meth, my junk would quit working. Happened once or twice when I was doing lines with a girl which ended with us trying (unsuccessfully) to have sex. Only fuckin' time in my life I have had that problem. Talk about fucking embarrassing, not to mention disappointing. Having a chance to hook up with a hottie and not being able to do the deed?!? Fuck that!!!! Though I still get the jones bad from time to time, I really hate these drugs (love-hate relationship;)). I am glad to not be a crackhead or tweeker anymore. I spent years as both, and life is just better without.

[kyuss]

Good to see ya
having fun Narc.

[zombiewoof23]

I think crystal does more to rewire your brain chemistry than opiates, so the dependency becomes very strong. I hate crystal/Ice, but still crave it 10 years later. I would rather freebase coke over doing meth, but I don't ever crave coke, unless I smell something that reminds me of it, or I'm around it. I do prefer an opiate buzz to meth, but I like the fact that I, speaking for myself, am way more productive on the right amounts of amphetamines. For everyday life purposes I need to be productive and am a top producer in my profession while I am on amphetamines. They help me maintain my focus and attention. If I had the choice and no responsibilities, I'd rather do opiates all of the time.

I also prefer the junky crowd to the coke/meth crowd in general. It seems like the majority of the rip off artists tend to be in the coke/meth scene.

[shaunclo]

Back in High School when I was a big-time tweeker (before I found my lady H) I use to fuck my girlfriends for hours on end. Crystal makes sex so fuckin good. Especially when your coming down and a good fuck just puts a big ol smile on your face, not to mention hers as well:) :)

[Narkotikon]

Hey narko- good post, but I had to squint to read it. Good luck with the new guy, hope it works out.

Why do you say "coke on sex" instead of the usual "sex on coke"?

We'll see. I'm getting ready to call him here in a few. I'm sufficiently high on my tea. I might do a bump of temazepam too. Not sure yet. I should really save it for when my pods run out. But I think I'll be able to reorder this time, so that shouldn't be a problem. That's the problem for me, when I'm low on money, I never know when I'll be able to be "right." Sometimes I find a way, other times I don't and suffer.

Oh, I don't know, I guess it was just a typo. But I do LOVE coke on sex. The numbing drip makes giving head (especially deepthroating) so much easier. And OMG, I can go on and on an on forever, until it's like Old Faithful exploding. I love it. Never get to do it often enough though. The last time was in March with coke.

I know what you mean about the taste of crystal. . .It is something that I would recognize anywhere. Sometimes I smell something that makes me think of that and for a minute seems to smell just like it. Same shit happens with coke (rock. . .). I gotta say that I like the taste of smoking coke a lot better out of the two. . .The kind of numb feeling around the lips and the back of throat that is so different and ever so much milder than the full numbness from doing gags. MMMmmmmm. I love uppers for a while (2 hours for meth and about 10 minutes for coke) but then I feel like shit unless I re-dose. Which, with the jones that comes from stimulants is a definite must. I won't even fuck with them unless I am getting an 8ball minimum, otherwise it is all jones and no fun. Regardless you always end up running out and then feel like shit. Even large amounts of xanax didn't help the comedown from that shit. Only thing that really warms my bones during a coke crash is a nice fat line of Jersey dope. . .
I also think that stims suck for sex. They didn't always suck, they used to be great. But then one day I found that every time I did any coke or meth, my junk would quit working. Happened once or twice when I was doing lines with a girl which ended with us trying (unsuccessfully) to have sex. Only fuckin' time in my life I have had that problem. Talk about fucking embarrassing, not to mention disappointing. Having a chance to hook up with a hottie and not being able to do the deed?!? Fuck that!!!! Though I still get the jones bad from time to time, I really hate these drugs (love-hate relationship;)). I am glad to not be a crackhead or tweeker anymore. I spent years as both, and life is just better without.

You know. I love coke, but I could leave meth. I only did it because it was there and I was offered. I would buy coke, hell, I've bought a lot of coke in the past, but I probably wouldn't buy meth. And if I did, it would be a small amount. I'd never buy a ball of meth. I just don't like it as much. Coke on the other hand, I love.

You know, I LOVE the taste / smell of rock too. Now, the comedown and even the high itself is a different story. I do like the high, but I feel so good I become sort of retarded, laughing and giggling and smiling for no reason other than the fact that I feel so fucking good. I've even been known to lean up and pant on walls. That was by myself at least, so not that embarassing. But I really prefer to snort coke. You know, I've never shot coke, but since I have so many of these points now, I might try to find a little and do that. My only problem is connections. I'm sure I'll make some, but I don't have any personally. The only way I get coke now is if I'm offered it, or if I go score in Cincy in OTR on teh street, and most of that is rock. But yeah, I love the taste of rock. I can't describe it either, but I love it. I actually wish they made crack-scented candles and air fresheners. I love it that much. It's smells like a mixture of heat, wild intensity, passion, and sex to me. I just love it.

Good to see ya
having fun Narc.

Thanks Kyuss. You doing okay?

[Chemical_Boy]

^^^^ I haven't had connections for years. The only time I ever do coke is when I fall off the wagon _the jones can win out- and head down to the ghetto of whatever major metropolis that I might be near at the time. I do fuckin' hate coppin' in the open. At least when I lived near NYC I could go to Spanish Harlem and go into a building to get shit. Of course the building was scary in it's own right. . .Picture a 20 yr old, long haired, ear-pierced, drunk wearing a tie-dye shirt and walking into a Spanish Harlem crackhouse by himself at 1 am.

Fun times. . . Luckily customers were pretty safe there. West Philly was a lot scarier to me.

[mrrice11]

They didn't always suck, they used to be great. But then one day I found that every time I did any coke or meth, my junk would quit working. Happened once or twice when I was doing lines with a girl which ended with us trying (unsuccessfully) to have sex. Only fuckin' time in my life I have had that problem. Talk about fucking embarrassing, not to mention disappointing. Having a chance to hook up with a hottie and not being able to do the deed?!? Fuck that!!!! Though I still get the jones bad from time to time, I really hate these drugs (love-hate relationship;)). I am glad to not be a crackhead or tweeker anymore. I spent years as both, and life is just better without.
The Exact same thing happened to me. Back when i used to feind for coke, doin line after line, free base a little on some foil, then go back down and do some more lines...i was crazy for it and every time i was speeding i was horny as hell. okay so some saturday night im chillin with my girl who smokes weed and boozes, but absolutly hates coke/meth or any stimulants, so before i go to her house i pull off somewhere in my car and break out a few lines and throw it on the foil and cook that shit up, drive to her house and blow a line in her driveway rite before i go inside, i felt like a scumbag doing it but whatever. so later we starts gettin touchy and we head up to her room, she drops my pants and my shit is like imobile, like spaghetti, she tried for so long to get me ready for action but nothing worked, omg i was so damn embarrased and she was pissed cuz she wanted sex.....soo after that i pretty much said im never doin any coke if im gonna be around my girl for sure!

[skeletontea]

Don't get me wrong, the crystal was excellent, but after a few hours, the rush / euphoria fades and I just feel all jittery and sweaty and gross.


That's been my experience with it. I feel it's a decent drug, though not my cup of tea (no pun intended). When the rush subsides I'd ask myself "Why did I do this again?" It's the only drug I can say I have no intention of ever using again.

[kyuss]

Thanks Kyuss. You doing okay?

Doing fine bro,thanks
Just did 3
more tbsp of pods
and I've got OCs
coming friday

[AWOL]

Why do you say "coke on sex" instead of the usual "sex on coke"?

Cause drugs are just so much fuckin better than sex. God I love drugs. Drugs drugs drugs drugs drugs, they love me long time. whaaaa? no, I do not have a signifigant other ... why do you ask? :confused: