Hitting Bottom

[Levity]

Someone talk me out of this....

5 2mg Xanax = 10 mg Alprazolam
5 30mg Restoril = 150 Temazepam
20 10mg Oxycontin = 200mg Oxycodone

Crown Royal and Coke (with a Cherry) until I blackout or lose enough muscle control to pour.

[flipside]

Hey levity, what's going on. Tell us how we can help, what your gouing through that makes you want to end it. Hang on just little longer, you asked us for help now give us the chnace to if we can

[nick]

Please think about it again man.

[AWOL]

Don’t do it, I’ve been there a few times ,, lucky for me someone always ended up finding me. Last time I was in ICU for over a week. What we all want isn’t the end of it all, what we want is an end to the pain we’re suffering and when we can’t see any farther, suicide seems like the only available solution to the problems we’re faced with. The only way to end the pain.

IT GETS BETTER !!! NOBODY WANT’S YOU GONE, WE WANT YOU HERE !!!

I don’t know that I can help in any way, but I’m willing and I want to do whatever I can to help you out. I know that everything that everyone is going to say to you will just seem like jabbering, and when someone tells you that it_does_get_better you just shake your head and wonder how someone could make a statement like that. I’ve been there, I know how you’re feeling right now, and I can tell you that looking back on it all I’m glad it didn’t end. It takes time, but we can find another solution as apposed to suicide. Hang in there, I can promise you that it does get better. You don’t want this Levity. Hang in there. A solution will present itself, maybe not right now, not tomorrow … but there is a way out. There is more life left to live.

Lastly, please consider getting some help. If you have to call the police on yourself and go out front sit on your lawn and wait for them to arrive. Get rid of your junk first, but if you have to call the police, they’re obligated to find you help. If you can’t afford it, this is the best way to get help. Please get some help, someone to talk to, a professional. We all want you here and I can tell you first hand that getting professional help at this moment in time will provide you with a path of opportunities that you’re not able to see in the dark right now.

Let me know if I can help in any way.

[southernbelle]

Please don't do this Levity! I'm going to be selfish and tell you that I don't think I can take another opio's death right now. Whatever is wrong, please talk to us and we'll help in any way we can. PM me if you want. You are a valued member and we don't want anything bad to happen to you. Please, please, please reconsider this and know we care about you and want only the best for you. I'll help in any way I can. Please don't do this.....

[nick]

Don’t do it, I’ve been there a few times ,, lucky for me someone always ended up finding me. Last time I was in ICU for over a week. What we all want isn’t the end of it all, what we want is an end to the pain we’re suffering and when we can’t see any farther, suicide seems like the only available solution to the problems we’re faced with. The only way to end the pain.

IT GETS BETTER !!! NOBODY WANT’S YOU GONE, WE WANT YOU HERE !!!

I don’t know that I can help in any way, but I’m willing and I want to do whatever I can to help you out. I know that everything that everyone is going to say to you will just seem like jabbering, and when someone tells you that it_does_get_better you just shake your head and wonder how someone could make a statement like that. I’ve been there, I know how you’re feeling right now, and I can tell you that looking back on it all I’m glad it didn’t end. It takes time, but we can find another solution as apposed to suicide. Hang in there, I can promise you that it does get better. You don’t want this Levity. Hang in there. A solution will present itself, maybe not right now, not tomorrow … but there is a way out. There is more life left to live.

Lastly, please consider getting some help. If you have to call the police on yourself and go out front sit on your lawn and wait for them to arrive. Get rid of your junk first, but if you have to call the police, they’re obligated to find you help. If you can’t afford it, this is the best way to get help. Please get some help, someone to talk to, a professional. We all want you here and I can tell you first hand that getting professional help at this moment in time will provide you with a path of opportunities that you’re not able to see in the dark right now.

Let me know if I can help in any way.
And you said you didn't feel you could contribute!
Levity we are here. pm someone or tell us what's bugging you here.Be careful,we have had too much death already today.

[flipside]

Check your PM's I just answered yours. Hang on.

[Powdered Love]

levity, i always count to you as being a grounded person who brings common sense to the table... please use your grounded common sense to realize this is not the right way... please!

[alowishus]

Why do you post that, then post in some other threads like everythings fine, and not post back in the one you statred, today would not be the best day to toy w/ peoples emotions.:mad:

[slugbone]

Someone talk me out of this....

5 2mg Xanax = 10 mg Alprazolam
5 30mg Restoril = 150 Temazepam
20 10mg Oxycontin = 200mg Oxycodone

Crown Royal and Coke (with a Cherry) until I blackout or lose enough muscle control to pour.

we need to know what's up levity, and alowishus has a point, many of us opiophiles get very concerned when we read a post like that.

if somethin is up we will rally to back you up bro, but you gotta tell us what the fuck is going on in your mind first.

[blackdog]

Someone talk me out of this....

5 2mg Xanax = 10 mg Alprazolam
5 30mg Restoril = 150 Temazepam
20 10mg Oxycontin = 200mg Oxycodone

Crown Royal and Coke (with a Cherry) until I blackout or lose enough muscle control to pour.

are you sure that will allow you ta hit bottom as hard as you think you want to. that cocktail for some peeps is just that a cocktail and the worse they recieve from it would be a hangover.and then to feel even worse .mentally and physically. so listen you got our attention and there plenty of loving and caring peeps that are concerned for you.so take your pick and give reality a chance, it's quite a concept reality that is hah-hah
talk to us
peace steve da/dawgg:rolleyes:

[vaxn8]

Why do you post that, then post in some other threads like everythings fine, and not post back in the one you statred, today would not be the best day to toy w/ peoples emotions.:mad:

I've kept quiet all night, but this is really how i felt about it. If someone needs to talk, come out and ask for it, this is a fucked up way to deal with people on a very bad day.

[Levity]

I'm fine...
I opted out of that particular cocktail.

Thank you everyone for your outpuring of support. I think I just needed someone to tell me not to act like an idior. Mission acomplished.

I'll post what happened in my life to make me consider a cry for help like that, for those who care, but right now I think I'm going to back to drinking, sans pills.

I love you all, thank you, and please know that I wasn't trying to toy with anyone's emotions. I just needed an e-hug. Sorry.

[chemboy7]

I'm fine...
I opted out of that particular cocktail.

Thank you everyone for your outpuring of support. I think I just needed someone to tell me not to act like an idior. Mission acomplished.

I'll post what happened in my life to make me consider a cry for help like that, for those who care, but right now I think I'm going to back to drinking, sans pills.

I love you all, thank you, and please know that I wasn't trying to toy with anyone's emotions. I just needed an e-hug. Sorry.

Why drink when you have Oxy and Tammies around? I mean if your in a shitty mood alcohol aint gonna make you feel any better... Opaites and Benzodiazepines will though and they work even better together. You should always choose getting high over getting drunk; alcohol is poison.

[vaxn8]

Lev- I'm glad you made the right choice. You've been around here and I'd hope you'd know that if you just wrote that you needed to chat with someone or talk, most of us would do anything we could to help. You're part of us whether you like it or not and we care what you do.

When you're up to it share as much as you want. just venting here feels good most of the time. I've vented about some crazy things, not thinking anyone would have a response, and ended up getting lots of helpful comments and just got the chance to meet or talk to people i didn't know.

Take care of yourself! If ya need to get drunk- go for it! Just hope ya have something a little more fun for the hangover!

[ZodiacKiller]

Why drink when you have Oxy and Tammies around? I mean if your in a shitty mood alcohol aint gonna make you feel any better... Opaites and Benzodiazepines will though and they work even better together. You should always choose getting high over getting drunk; alcohol is poison.

Hey Lev---I agree with Chem on this one, take some of your opiates, and say fuck the booze---you'll feel worse tomorrow with the bottle, for sure.

I'm glad you opted out of the dangerous combo.

We are here for you, and that goes for anybody who is thinking about that way out. Way too much of this going around lately....



ZK

[alowishus]

Way too much of this going around lately....



ZK


Yeah, I thought it was just me? Well it is that time of year though too, time for S.A.D. (http://www.ncpamd.com/seasonal.htm) (Seasonal Affective Disorder).

[Levity]

All is well, I am not dead.
I'll post tomorrow what drove me to look down that particular barrel, or pill bottle as it may be.
I wish you all well, all peace, and all love.

[oxymoron]

I just now read this thread, glad you pulled through and didn't do anything foolish. We all have bad days, and bad events in life. I've felt like you did earlier, back when I did alot of speed, I was so miserable I wanted to end it. But looking back I'm so glad I didn't. I'm new to this board and don't know you, but you could be alot worse off. You obviously have folks that care about you, you're not in jail, and have some good drugs, things could be MUCH worse:). It's easy to get yourself down and get depressed, you just gotta think about the positive aspects of life and how much worse off you could be. Tomorrow is a new day, and hopefuly better. Life is already too short, no need to make it more so.

[antony]

Yea, stop fucking around senor big foot.

[Chemical_Boy]

All is well, I am not dead.
I'll post tomorrow what drove me to look down that particular barrel, or pill bottle as it may be.
I wish you all well, all peace, and all love.

I haven't been around long (officially), but I sure as shit enjoy reading some of your posts. I am glad that you madde it through ok. I too have been in spots where I felt like that ( my tweeker days were not a good period in my life) so I feel for you. Anyway glad you are all right.

Never tried it, but I have heard that a bottle of tequila and a couple of expensive hookers can solve any man's problems temporarily. Especially w/ some oxys for the hangover!! J/K...(not about the oxys)

[Levity]

Most of you know I work with drug addicts in an in-patient center as part of my graduate studies towards a Psychopharmacology degree. I counsel people who come foward and ask the right people for help. It's in patient, so we help them through the detox, the withdraw, the depression...

This is off the radar, so I can't say much. Experimental. Privately funded. Ever see an MD treat herion withdraw with herion? The papers say you come, stay a month month, leave clean, and stay that way...

One in a hundred patients will stay clean for three months. That's what they tell us. That junkies are too far gone, that they can't be saved and it's a waste of our time, talent, and money to try to save people who don't want to save themselves.

I lost eight patients since October 1. Found out my best friend from high school has been on the needle since freshmen year in college. Had my fiancee leave because she couldn't take me bringing my work home, couldn't take 16 hour days splilt between caring about classes that don't matter and what she called "scumbags who mattered even less."

I'm not going to off myself. That's too easy.

We come to this forum to find out ways to get higher. Ways to strech those pills a bit further. Brown them, snort them, inject them. Potentation with juice, tagament, benzos. We come here and find junkie breathren. Men, women, professional white collar staff, tattooed janitors. We find good men, good women.

Thank you everyone for your our pouring of support in what has been a trying few hours. Right now, I'm off to monitor an NA meeting, after which I'll chew up 40mg of Oxy.

Namaste.

[ZodiacKiller]

^Wow, man....good post. You truly lead a double life, from what I've read. It must be difficult, but at times I imagine exhilarating, too...

Glad you found some solace here---I know I have many times. We all have that one common denominator.



ZK

[nick]

Glad you 're still here man.

[kyuss]

I missed this thread
I thought it was about
what it takes to hit Rock Bottom
Now that I've finally read it
I'm deeply relieved it ended well!
Hang in there Lev!!
I think we all get the Blues
this time of year
If nothing else
stick around for the little things;
a good cup of coffee,
a new album release,
the expression on a kitten's face,
...the little things

Life is already
exceedingly short
no matter how bad things are
just remember it can't last long

[nick]

I missed this thread
I thought it was about
what it takes to hit Rock Bottom
Now that I've finally read it
I'm deeply relieved it ended well!
Hang in there Lev!!
I think we all get the Blues
this time of year
If nothing else
stick around for the little things;
a good cup of coffee,
a new album release,
the expression on a kitten's face,
...the little things

Life is already
exceedingly short
no matter how bad things are
just remember it can't last long
Pure wisdom from brother K.It's the small things that make it all possible.It takes some people a life time to realise,many never do.

[alowishus]

stick around for the little things;
a good cup of coffee,
a new album release,
the expression on a kitten's face,



Ahww, kyuss, I didn't know you where Ned Flander's!:p :p

[kyuss]

Pure wisdom from brother K.It's the small things that make it all possible.It takes some people a life time to realise,many never do.

Right On,Nick

Ahww, kyuss, I didn't know you where Ned Flander's!:p :p

hahaha

[Ragdoll]

Hey Lev, We don't know each other much yet, but I'm here, too, to listen...whenever, whatever. This week-end is being hard on all of us, pretty much, so my mind is not the clearest right now...just want to say hi and sending you the kind of vibes Kyuss so eloquently wrote about. Kittens and that sound autumn leaves make when they shusshh to the ground...stuff like that, to you, bro.

Namaste.

~Rags

[Levity]

I hate cats.
Love oxy.

I should combine the two. Give a cat some oxy.

[AWOL]

"La agonía es larga pero la muerte es segura"
The pain (of life) is great ... but death is certain.

The interpretation doesn't do it justice at all. In my own words. Yes, there is a lot of pain in life ... but it's still better than death.

[nick]

"La agonía es larga pero la muerte es segura"
The pain (of life) is great ... but death is certain.

The interpretation doesn't do it justice at all. In my own words. Yes, there is a lot of pain in life ... but it's still better than death.

Wow man thanks for cheering me up.So to recap I'm going to suffer a lot then die.hell no wonder we all use dope.
I think the hells angels have their own version of this, life is hard and then you die.A real laugth riot those bikers.
P.S. I think it's the Italians who have a similar saying, each hour cuts the last kills.Is this Italian Antony?

[AWOL]

lol sorry man, just one of those things that doesn't translate. The 'in my own words' translation is much better at explaining the meaning. I mean, yeah ... life is painfull ,, but it's still better than the alternative :D

[vaxn8]

Lev- it really sounds like you have a lot going on at the moment. A couple of things came to mind reading your post. Have you thought about some kind of counseling for you? Not necessarily counseling in the traditional sense, but more like debriefing, or help with dealing with patients and not carrying their problems. Going into this as a career, you're going to be having the same kind of stuff happening. It's not easy to deal with patients problems when you have your own life to deal with. No one can take on everyone's problems. I know now you're a pretty recreational opiate user, and just worry you'll start using more and more and different drug types to deal with the pain. Emotional pain hurts just as much as physical.

The other thought was, is this really the field you really want for yourself? I know you really like pharmacology, but there are lots of different fields in that area. I've done several different types myself. I started out in opiate research, found that was a little too hard (I didn't like having to give the mice all the good drugs, so I left). I then went to cancer research and added heme/onc as a degree. That was okay, but didn't keep me excited and was often kind of depressing. Following that, I did vaccine synthesis which was a blast, but kind of repetitive. Now I am virolgy only, and found what I love. I get to work with level 3 and 4 viral hemorrhagic fevers and I love it more than anything I've done. It took me a while to figure out this is what I love, and it isn't what I wanted when I entered grad school.

If you're dealing with patients, you must be fairly far into your program. Take some time to think about just you, no one else, not what anyone else wants. Is this where you really want to be? If it is, look into something that will help you release all the stress in a healthy way. It sounds like you have a great fiancee, and I'm sure she only wants the best for you. Find out what that is, and put the energy we all know you have into getting it.

Take care of yourself!

[Levity]

Lev- it really sounds like you have a lot going on at the moment. A couple of things came to mind reading your post. Have you thought about some kind of counseling for you? Not necessarily counseling in the traditional sense, but more like debriefing, or help with dealing with patients and not carrying their problems. Going into this as a career, you're going to be having the same kind of stuff happening. It's not easy to deal with patients problems when you have your own life to deal with. No one can take on everyone's problems. I know now you're a pretty recreational opiate user, and just worry you'll start using more and more and different drug types to deal with the pain. Emotional pain hurts just as much as physical.

The other thought was, is this really the field you really want for yourself? I know you really like pharmacology, but there are lots of different fields in that area. I've done several different types myself. I started out in opiate research, found that was a little too hard (I didn't like having to give the mice all the good drugs, so I left). I then went to cancer research and added heme/onc as a degree. That was okay, but didn't keep me excited and was often kind of depressing. Following that, I did vaccine synthesis which was a blast, but kind of repetitive. Now I am virolgy only, and found what I love. I get to work with level 3 and 4 viral hemorrhagic fevers and I love it more than anything I've done. It took me a while to figure out this is what I love, and it isn't what I wanted when I entered grad school.

If you're dealing with patients, you must be fairly far into your program. Take some time to think about just you, no one else, not what anyone else wants. Is this where you really want to be? If it is, look into something that will help you release all the stress in a healthy way. It sounds like you have a great fiancee, and I'm sure she only wants the best for you. Find out what that is, and put the energy we all know you have into getting it.

Take care of yourself!


We do daily debriefs and we're required to do regular therapy sessions with real, honest to God PhDs. Idiots. It doesn't help. We call it the IQ-test Paradox. We've all conducted dozens of IQ tests, Weschler, Piaget, whatever, so we're familiar with the content. So guess what happens when we go into take an IQ test? Near perfect score, the results are fucked because we know what's coming. Same with therapy. We know all the cute behaviorist and psychoanalytic tricks, so they don't work.

I thank everyone for their concern, but I'm in a much better place today than I was a few days ago. I still have way too many drugs, but I'm selling and giving them to friends. I'm going to keep my habit recreational and within the confines of what is legally prescribed to me, plus a possible venture into flower arrangement.

As to the question of if this what I want to do with my life... Today I was pan-handled going into a downtown Starbucks. The man was black, maybe thirty years older than me, and sported a Marine Corps tattoo on his forearm. He asked for spare change. I bought him a coffee and gave him the opertunity to have someone to listen to him. I let him be treated, if only for the time it takes to drink a Tall Vanilla Latte, the opportunity to be treated like a human being.

Turns out his name was Chuck. He lived in a crack house with other drug users about three blocks away. He begs for enough money to support his habit. He had no idea how old he was, what day it was, or if he was ever even in the Corps. But I gave him my card and also the card of a local homeless shelter with a no-questions asked policy.

Odds are he'll throw both away.

But I tell myself that maybe one, just one, in our entire miserable little existence won't. That they'll get clean and get the help they need to lead stable, productive lives. If drugs are included in that, more power to them, but you can be a junkie without needing to resort to street corner begging. It's a fine line sometimes, but it can be walked.

So yes, I'll get a degree in Psychopharmacology/Drug Abuse Counseling. I'm currently preparing my Master's thesis discussing the relative recidivism rates between various forms of drug treatment. Ultimately. I’m diving at the fact that American ideal of drug abuse and it’s subsequent treatment are so puritanical that the current treatments, influenced by those beliefs, make the ends of drug free living impossible, which is one reason we see so many relapses back into junkie-dom. My ultimate goal is to produce a treatment regimen which involves teaching the drug user to successfully self-moderate their usage so that it does not interfere with their daily lives. This approach has been very successful with a few of my patients, but it’s just preliminary data gathered over the past few months and they were not heavy users or poly-substances users.

[repeek]

I'm currently preparing my Master's thesis discussing the relative recidivism rates between various forms of drug treatment. Ultimately. I’m diving at the fact that American ideal of drug abuse and it’s subsequent treatment are so puritanical that the current treatments, influenced by those beliefs, make the ends of drug free living impossible, which is one reason we see so many relapses back into junkie-dom. My ultimate goal is to produce a treatment regimen which involves teaching the drug user to successfully self-moderate their usage so that it does not interfere with their daily lives. This approach has been very successful with a few of my patients, but it’s just preliminary data gathered over the past few months and they were not heavy users or poly-substances users.


If you need info on the methods of some religious based treatment facilities like Victory Outreach for your thesis, just ask. I worked at one for four and a half years, insane method I might add.

[blackdog]

FUBAR
Fucked Up
Beyond
All Recognition

[blackdog]

SNAFU
Situation
Normal
All Fucked Up

[Levity]

I love you too blackdog.

[blackdog]

I love you too blackdog.

yo levity, i is jus generalizeing tings in general
if'n ya's no whut i jes mite mean?
it's all good,unless it's bad
my momma used ta say .....don't sweat the small stuff child,that and
fuck'em if'n they's can't take a joke.
or is it joke'em if'n they's can't take a fuck???????
peace da/dawgg
and yes i love you too!!big hug

[Levity]

yo levity, i is jus generalizeing tings in general
if'n ya's no whut i jes mite mean?
it's all good,unless it's bad
my momma used ta say .....don't sweat the small stuff child,that and
fuck'em if'n they's can't take a joke.
or is it joke'em if'n they's can't take a fuck???????
peace da/dawgg
and yes i love you too!!big hug

Its all good, unless its bad, but then its still pretty good.

[KiloByte]

Most of you know I work with drug addicts in an in-patient center as part of my graduate studies towards a Psychopharmacology degree. I counsel people who come foward and ask the right people for help. It's in patient, so we help them through the detox, the withdraw, the depression...

This is off the radar, so I can't say much. Experimental. Privately funded. Ever see an MD treat herion withdraw with herion? The papers say you come, stay a month month, leave clean, and stay that way...

One in a hundred patients will stay clean for three months. That's what they tell us. That junkies are too far gone, that they can't be saved and it's a waste of our time, talent, and money to try to save people who don't want to save themselves.

I lost eight patients since October 1. Found out my best friend from high school has been on the needle since freshmen year in college. Had my fiancee leave because she couldn't take me bringing my work home, couldn't take 16 hour days splilt between caring about classes that don't matter and what she called "scumbags who mattered even less."

I'm not going to off myself. That's too easy.

We come to this forum to find out ways to get higher. Ways to strech those pills a bit further. Brown them, snort them, inject them. Potentation with juice, tagament, benzos. We come here and find junkie breathren. Men, women, professional white collar staff, tattooed janitors. We find good men, good women.

Thank you everyone for your our pouring of support in what has been a trying few hours. Right now, I'm off to monitor an NA meeting, after which I'll chew up 40mg of Oxy.

Namaste.

Its sad how so many guys commit suicide because of some stupid bitch who thinks of noone but herself. Fuck her.

[Levity]

Its sad how so many guys commit suicide because of some stupid bitch who thinks of noone but herself. Fuck her.

I did, quite often, and in interesting ways.
However, I was unfaithful to the extreme, did drugs she didn't approve of, was a workaholic, and lead kind of a double life.

It's kinda fucked up how long she actually stayed with me.

[Seedy]

Wow, Levity, I just read through this thread for the first time. I had avoided it because I thought you were looking for advice about mainlining into your ass! I'm glad you made it through it man! Although you alway's seem like a sensible dude from your posts, even the most sensible of us hit rock bottom at times.

Keep well man, and remember, what goes down, must come up!;)

[Levity]

Wow, Levity, I just read through this thread for the first time. I had avoided it because I thought you were looking for advice about mainlining into your ass! I'm glad you made it through it man! Although you alway's seem like a sensible dude from your posts, even the most sensible of us hit rock bottom at times.

Keep well man, and remember, what goes down, must come up!;)

Thank you seedy. It was just a series of unfortunant life events that culminating in thoughts of suicide. That's fucked up to write, but its what it was, thoughts of suicide.

Luckily, I had quite a few words of wisdom, more than enough calls for me to return to my senses, and some loving kindess from the members of this board.

And trust me man, what was now down is very up.

[CUBErt]

Damn I missed alot during the few days I was gone. I'm glad you're still with us and I hope I don't have to go knock some sense into ya. You may weight 3x what I do but look out I got some fight in me ;)

I would miss your scientific approach to opiate doses/administration/potentiators etc. You are a damn cool and unique guy. Stick around, will ya?

[Seedy]

Thank you seedy. It was just a series of unfortunant life events that culminating in thoughts of suicide. That's fucked up to write, but its what it was, thoughts of suicide.

Luckily, I had quite a few words of wisdom, more than enough calls for me to return to my senses, and some loving kindess from the members of this board.

And trust me man, what was now down is very up.

Good to hear it, bro. Life's a bitch at times, you just have to remember you're not alone, as you now know.

[slugbone]

yeh leviity good post dude, lots of shit goin on in your life but the whole fukking thing about life makes no sense unless you are high which iam right now.

dude you sound strong mentally so i'm glad you didnt go down that road. if you feel you are doing some good even just a little for those junkies you help then thats enough, and your karma will make your next life better.

[Levity]

yeh leviity good post dude, lots of shit goin on in your life but the whole fukking thing about life makes no sense unless you are high which iam right now.

dude you sound strong mentally so i'm glad you didnt go down that road. if you feel you are doing some good even just a little for those junkies you help then thats enough, and your karma will make your next life better.

Maybe. I'm hoping for instant enlightenment via opiates though.

CUBE, I'm glad you like my opiate reviews. I have an interesting ones coming up on Poppy Seed Tea, Flower Arangement, Snorted Hydromorphone, and - just maybe - Oxycodone potentated with DXM vs Tagament.

To everyone, I'm still around, it takes more than a bad day to kill me. I drew alot of inspiration from you all, and I can't thank you enough. Much love, more respect, and a deep appreciation for you all.

[alowishus]

I have an interesting ones coming up on Poppy Seed Tea, Flower Arangement, Snorted Hydromorphone, and - just maybe - Oxycodone potentated with DXM vs Tagament.

Love to hear that last one, I'm still not sure about them, for me at least. But I still use 'em.:D :D