Briar is dead

[jacky]

for anyone in the boise idaho scene who may not have heard, Briar overdosed down in San Diego and didnt make it. rest in peace Briar..........................................

[bi11i]

for anyone in the boise idaho scene who may not have heard, Briar overdosed down in San Diego and didnt make it. rest in peace Briar..........................................no way! I thought the guy was doing great, quit using, etc. I didn't even know he had left for San Diego.

[Grundel]

I had a feeling about te guy not making it down the home stretch, after knowing him for so long before he started using. He use to be the pot man till he moved in with me and became a dope fine. I feel part to blame

[bi11i]

you know, i had a short-lived run about 4 years ago where Bryar was hooking me up daily with the man. I was making decent money and always had enough to buy enough dope to get us both off. he was a great guy; a true junky. shoulders all fucked up from shooting, his sly junky ways. He'll be missed.

Here's the info I managed to find via Idaho Statesman: (http://www.idahostatesman.com/apps/pbcs.dll/dclassifieds?Dato=20050512&Kategori=NEWS010101&Class=30&Type=CAT1320&Lopenr=505000176&Selected=7)
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Brian Robert John Kroll, 29, died on Thursday, April 28, 2005, three weeks short of his 30th birthday. He died by his own hand, though inadvertently. Our family moved to Boise 17 years ago. He had a comfortable home and did not lack for attention nor love. He was somewhat moody and impulsive and prone to follow the behavior of his associates. Several series of tests indicated Brian was both creative and intelligent--somewhere between gifted and genius. Cursed by being severely afflicted with attention deficit disorder and school systems ill equipped to deal with this disorder, he did poorly in school and eventually dropped out. When eligible at age 16, he elected to take his GED, which he passed with flying colors. Out on his own, by his choice, he found "friends," some of whom introduced him to heroin, right here in BOISE. In spite of many attempts at going cold turkey, and numerous Friday midnight runs to Ogden to get methadone at a rehab clinic there, he was unsuccessful in kicking his addiction. In an effort to escape his situation, he moved to Southern California. There, with readily available support, both medically and psychologically, he began to rethink his life.

Having done construction work, he discovered he enjoyed and had an aptitude for electrical work, and decided to become a union electrician. He returned to Boise a few months ago to reconnect with his family, and went back to California with a renewed sense of hope and the goal of moving into his own apartment and working towards his vision of a new and productive life. This was his dream: to live a normal life, maintain and grow relationships with his immediate and extended families, and to eventually have a family of his own. He was excited about all this the last time he called us. Unfortunately, it was not to be. A week later, while waiting to move into his new home, he had a setback while staying at a motel room. The needle called and he answered. We will never know what prompted the slip this time. The cruel joke was that on the verge of possible success, the contents of the syringe were too much and he died alone.

We KNOW that many of the "right" thinkers in Idaho will dismiss Brian as "just another addict." He was basically a good person who made a number of poor decisions and one terribly bad one, a young man who valued other people, who was starting to strengthen his own spirituality. He was feeling good about himself and was eager to proceed with his life. IF ONLY the elected/ appointed officials of this state had not decided that addicts were beneath their concerns, and had instead used available outside funding to allow the creation of increased private and public access to methadone and other forms of drug treatment in Idaho, there would be less crime and less continuing and terminal heartbreak for our family and others in the same situation. We don't know if he would have made it this time--parents of recovering addicts know all too well the odds are against them. Did we believe all his statements of internal battles fought and won? We wanted to. We do know that we will miss the "Hi, Dad" and "Hi, Mom" when he called, the daughter-in-law and family that will never be, and the potential of the years that were to come. Brian is survived by his parents, Maryann and Robert Kroll; his sister and her husband, Cathy and Matt Tyler; and several cousins and friends in New Jersey. Our son also leaves behind many friends he made in Boise and San Diego who knew him, saw his potential, and tried to help him with his problems. We will be eternally grateful for this kindness. Church services will be held at 2:00 p.m. on Thursday, May 12, 2005 at Holy Transfiguration Orthodox Church, corner of N. 25th and Regan, Boise. Interment and a small reception will be held at Cloverdale Cemetery following the church services. In lieu of flowers, donations may be made in his name to the Ada County Paramedics.I had initially thought I should at least throw something up on the front page in respect, however after reading this I imagine his family might have somewhat of a negative reaction to it.... i'll leave it be.

[Grundel]

Thanks Bi11i!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[bi11i]

hey, sure.He use to be the pot man till he moved in with me and became a dope fine. I feel part to blamei don't know about that. no need for the blaming game. (can i blame youa little, too? I'm sure jacky would like the rest...)

[Somni Divine]

It sounds like you all lost a dear friend, and clearly this world'sloss is heaven's gain. I am sorry I never knew him. Hold to yourmemories as the treasures that they are, and though it is the tendency of the tender hearted, Grundel, you cannot allow yourself to take theblame for someone else's choices. There would have been someone else,and it sounds that he was blessed to have had such a good friend. Don't do that to yourself, please. It is the thing I love most about thoseaddicted to opiates is that they tend to take on the pain and burdens of the entire world, and that is what, I believe makes such a warm andnurturing type drug so attractive. It is the most intelligent, kindhearted, and yet pain and angst ridden people that tend to turn to thecomfort that can be found in opiates. It sounds like this is somethingthat you and "Bryar" had in common. I am so sorry for the loss you allmust be suffering from, and will pray you find peace beyondunderstanding, from the God who invented the poppy flower, and is trulythe God of peace, mercy and love.
I'm sorry I cannot think of any words that will bring relief, but candirect you to the Source of Love and Comfort, may He bring you each thestrength you need to get through your grief. This is my prayer for hisfamily as well. I'm sorry if I am intruding in an area that is not my turf, but I was just stricken by how sad this is for you all. There is no pain like the loss of a loved one, and my heart goes out to everyoneaffected by this tragic loss.

[Coverage]

Sounds like he was a great guy. For those of you who knew him, you will at least have the memories. I hope his parents are able to find comfort despite his untimely passing.

Cov

[chucky]

"He use to be the pot man till he moved in with me and became a dope fine. I feel part to blame "


It is always painfull to lose a friend or loved one, and there isn't much one can say to comfort the grieving, but one can not blame his/herself for another human beings decision. We all have made the choice to do drugs and all of us have paid consequences. That being said I am sorry to hear that some of you have lost a friend, he sounded like a cool guy!:cool:

[harbacious]

My heart goes out to all who have lost those dearest to our hearts. May God, friends, family, and/or science find a way to purge the need we have for such a simple chemical.