OHHH BOY :)

[Russellmeboy]

so im back! did some d for the first time in 7 months today, im risking everything home family etc etc, just for a feeling, and boy is that feeling AWESOME! ugh im such a drug addict. coments, questions, impact? i need some love. i misssed ya'll and if u dont know me, get at me!

[duck]

this post made me sad

[EleusisII]

You're doing good! Who are they to refuse you a little joy in life? So you like dope or D's, you're not killing babies or raping nuns, or really hurting your family.

They should be happy, if not thrilled on your behalf, so how about a little support and understanding? You put up with crap from their side, right? So you're suddenly a terrible person because you've chosen to partake in a little junk-ecstasy? Of course not! It's bullshit. and you know it.

Enjoy your dope, and come what may. If they cut you off because of that, the real reason wouldn't be your drugs, it would be them being egotistical assholes...



Was that sorta what you wanted to hear? There ya go! And now, elaborate on the situation please, if you want some proper advice and perspective!

[OverDriven]

this post made me sad

Damn right. That is sad. If you are in a position where you could lose your family...time to quit, bro. We are all addicts here...we know the almost irresistible magnetism of the drug, but don't give up all that you love for a chemical that can't love you back.

[Russellmeboy]

well i went to rehab for 6 months, got down with the program and spirituality, i can go do antyhing i want, just not hard drugs and i fucked up. im sry duck :), i'll be ok. i just really cant do dope cause if i get caught , this is the last straw. i feel bad cause she just spent like 15 g's tp get me clean.
plus im treated like a little kid. cerfew etc.

[More Feen]

Hey Man,

I wish the circumstances weren't so that you needed to risk anything at all--I'm a big fan of being an occasional chipper for several decades as opposed to burning-out & fading away in a year or so.

The great thing about NOT doing opies all the time is just how fantastic that occasional hit is--WONDERFUL !!

It isn't just cramming chemicals into your body everyday to feel okay, or normal. No. Not at all.

Its a reward for yourself, and a treat.

I don't know your story, but it sounds you've got a lot to lose--please, just be careful. Not knowing your story, I hope you find the strength & willpower to successfully get yourself to a good place--a better place, where you don't have to risk so much just for a quick buzz.

Take it easy man, get to that better place, for your family and for yourself,

M F

[OverDriven]

well i went to rehab for 6 months, got down with the program and spirituality, i can go do antyhing i want, just not hard drugs and i fucked up. im sry duck :), i'll be ok. i just really cant do dope cause if i get caught , this is the last straw. i feel bad cause she just spent like 15 g's tp get me clean.
plus im treated like a little kid. cerfew etc.

15g's to get you clean? Dude she loves you so much. Do yourself a favor and don't come back here. Every time I've relapsed, it started with me going back to this site or another opiate forum, reading around, and before I knew it I was dying to get high again. It's like looking at porn...it's going to get you horny. You have someone who really cares about you. That's rare in this world. Don't break her heart.

[Russellmeboy]

awww... ive bee coming to the site, it was a personal choice to get high. theres more then opi to get the mental obsession rolling. it just sucks cause i still enjoy it. yah know?

[More Feen]

15g's to get you clean? Dude she loves you so much. Do yourself a favor and don't come back here. Every time I've relapsed, it started with me going back to this site or another opiate forum, reading around, and before I knew it I was dying to get high again. It's like looking at porn...it's going to get you horny. You have someone who really cares about you. That's rare in this world. Don't break her heart.


Absolutely !! Great analogy.

M F

[Russellmeboy]

:(, now i just feel bad lol. u guys are right, but its not right situationaly, she just things heroin= speedy death. and ive been around the block for a while, before they knew it was much different, like i could be a fall down drunk and it wouldnt be a big deal to them.

[OverDriven]

:(, now i just feel bad lol. u guys are right, but its not right situationaly, she just things heroin= speedy death. and ive been around the block for a while, before they knew it was much different, like i could be a fall down drunk and it wouldnt be a big deal to them.

Well if I'm being completely honest with you any myself, you have to admit that we opiate addicts don't die a natural death nearly as much as "normal" people. She's worried because it IS dangerous. We are playing with fire. I know it, yet I continue to do it. However, I'm not going to fool myself into thinking it's not dangerous or anything. I'm not trying to come down on you or anything bro, but I don't want you to lose what you have only to THEN realize what you really had. Know what I mean?

[HandMeSomeOpiates]

I would seriously think about what your doing russell. Ms. seductive opie can be very seducing and blind you at "that" moment your getting high. But what are you going to do when you have nothing ,and no one?

[I-Nod]

Welcome back, Russell... good to see you, man. Stay safe and hope to see you around.

[Russellmeboy]

thanks guys, i know whats up, i need to be gratefull.. its just hard, im gonna be stuck home for a few days so im not going to do it again for a bit, we all knkow what its like to have some clean time and some good stuff, and to get high against responcibillites to self and fam. its hard tho u all no. like when ur in it u wana get out, when ur out ur looking in again to see whats up. if u guys want a little backround i think i poseted a story years ago but i started using opiates rec @ 14 by 16 i was a dailly user, startedf shooting aounrd 18 and ran hard for about 4 years w/ it then the fam started to find out, go to rehabs etc. and so on, but it sucks man cause i dont really enjoy 100% sobritey, i mean its fun, im just not readdy, but i liketo get high still.. i just need to stick to some green, and quit drikin too. but i dont wana be a dreamer AHHH, love u guys thanks

[hovadagod]

Stop feeding the monkey!!

Sounds like you'll feel like ass about yourself for this anyway so I don't have to say shit but if you were happier clean than you've ever been, just stop using. You'll be fine. No bad WD's if you just stop after using once. Come on man. Don't let your family down!

You don't need this shit.

[mikey5string]

now you have to stay clean for another 7 months before your next shot.:D

[SHELLEY]

your life is your life and your fucking choice
not your mom's choice, not your stepdad's choice, not your rehab's choice, but YOUR choice
if you choose to do h, no one can (or should) stop you
if you choose not to do h, no one can (or should) convince you otherwise
sneaking around sucks, you're a grown-ass grownup, jump on a hustle in addition to your job
save the money and get a cheap lil efficiency or 1br that's all your own
that way, whether you decide to get high or not get high, it'll all be on you

i've been off all opis (including mmt) for about 7 months now
a shot of h would feel pretty fucking good right about now, i gotta give you that :)

[Papa Verine]

Look at you people telling Russellboy what the fuck to do. I have A lot to lose too but I've been a fuckin drug addict since before I had anything. I've made A lot of bad choices and mistakes. The last thing I'm going to do is criticize anybody for getting high once in a while.

I'm right there with you Russellmeboy. I shouldn't be getting high right now either but I am and I love it!

This is the place to say it right?

edit: Go for it Shelley!!!!!

[Madam Oxy]

so im back! did some d for the first time in 7 months today, im risking everything home family etc etc, just for a feeling, and boy is that feeling AWESOME! ugh im such a drug addict. coments, questions, impact? i need some love. i misssed ya'll and if u dont know me, get at me!

Please explain to me why that feeling is so much more important than your home and family? Is it more satisfying? Just try to explain to me why you're chosinig the drug over your wife and home? I don't get it.

I told my hubs awhile ago basically the same thing I'm assuming you've been told. CHOSE me or the H. He went to detox for a week then came home and after a week he's using again, but not nearly as much as he was. And while that is good, I don't understand the pull, the draw of the drug.

Even if he said what Shelley says... I'd understand that, but all I get is "I don't know." :confused- lol

I saved the best for last... SEVEN MONTHS!!! That's wonderful. That alot of time!!!! good for you!!!

[GOLD N DIEMONDS]

Please explain to me why that feeling is so much more important than your home and family? Is it more satisfying? Just try to explain to me why you're chosinig the drug over your wife and home? I don't get it.

I told my hubs awhile ago basically the same thing I'm assuming you've been told. CHOSE me or the H. He went to detox for a week then came home and after a week he's using again, but not nearly as much as he was. And while that is good, I don't understand the pull, the draw of the drug.

Even if he said what Shelley says... I'd understand that, but all I get is "I don't know." :confused- lol

I saved the best for last... SEVEN MONTHS!!! That's wonderful. That alot of time!!!! good for you!!!

CAN YOU EXPLAIN WHY YOU WOULD make him choose between a chemical and love with a human being.
Really do not mean any disrespect
Just never understood or known ultimatums to work well even
(if to personal just skip)

[nodrover]

I agree with basically everyone that responded to this thread. Yeah, it's kind of stupid to use if you have that much on the line; but at the same time, it's not horrible to get high once in while (as long as no one is adversely affected).

But, to the OP: what kind of a response did you expect/hope for when asking a question like this? I mean it's one thing to tell us how you took a 7 month break and dabbled a little bit today, but its different when you say "I risked loosing everything" when I got high today. Of course you are going to get mixed responses, but the bottom line is, do you want validation, attention, or to be told that what you did was stupid?

[Restharrow]

I did NOT understand if the person in your life, who is so dependable for you is a signif. other, or a blood relative. Either way, people that you can depend on are few and far between.

At the age of 55, I now know that people I can depend on are very rare.

I would be careful not to lose this person in your life.

Will

[upstate_007]

Would it be stupid to start using again with that much on the line? Absolutely. But, I am a junky too. I have done plenty of stupid things. Not my job to tell you how to live your life.

2 choices

1. Start using again and deal with the fallout.
2. Don't use and find some way to stay that way.


You said you used because it feels so good. No shit. Of course it does. That's why we become addicts. One of my exes gave amazing blowjobs. If I go get one it would certainly fuck up my current situation irrevocably. So I stay away. Same principle.

[dieselbaby]

Were you even gone for 7 months? You posted in mid April about your family wanting to send you to rehab. Hope you don't throw it all away man.

[barbiegal]

Yes Shelley, but you had one hell of a motivator. Just look at your avitar. I don't think Russels family can even motivate him that much. :(

[The_Highwayman]

Enjoy yourself, but be careful not just with the drugs, but with your family and everything.. I am in a similar boat...wish you all the best...

[OverDriven]

Look at you people telling Russellboy what the fuck to do. I have A lot to lose too but I've been a fuckin drug addict since before I had anything. I've made A lot of bad choices and mistakes. The last thing I'm going to do is criticize anybody for getting high once in a while.

I'm not telling him what to do and I sure as hell am not criticizing him. He asked "coments, questions, impact?". I gave my thoughts because he asked. I'm giving him the best advice I have. I'm not saying I'm even strong enough to follow my own advice, but I put it out there in hopes that he is stronger than I am and maybe needs a little encouragement.

[Madam Oxy]

CAN YOU EXPLAIN WHY YOU WOULD make him choose between a chemical and love with a human being.
Really do not mean any disrespect
Just never understood or known ultimatums to work well even
(if to personal just skip)

I understand you're question perfectly, and no disrespect was taken. First off, let me get some facts straight in my situation... The hubs has had multiple moto-x injuries, broken legs, ankles, wrists', and shoulder impingement operations. He does have pain, but only he knows to what extent. ;) He is now hooked on fent (taken buccally) and he has a HUGE habit. He can do 4 boxes of 100's (20 patches) in less than a day and still be standing in the evening. Recently in detox the docs told him he was taking enough to kill 4 men. His habit is at about $1000 a day, and while we can afford that, we won't be able to forever.

So, you ask why I would make him choose between a chemical or human being. Simply put, I need to know if I'm worth more to him than the chemical. Another choice, but isn't life full of choices? :)

When we met 4 1/2 years ago he was clean and sober. He was a totally different person. He took better care of himself (he's gained 30 lbs in a 1 1/2 years), the word 'Fuck' wasn't used in every other sentence, we would go for walks/bicycle rides along the beach, he was more optimistic, he enjoyed life more, he ate regularly, etc... This list could go on. He's basically the same person, but then again...he's not himself at all. It's coming down to whether or not I want to stay in this lifestyle or go back to my pretty lil palace on the hill. ;) (That won't be easy either...I love the guy! drats!)

I'm not giving him ultimatums....I'm just saying slow down a bit. He's 47 and not getting any younger. His body has been ravaged by the fent (it has to do *something* to your insides, no?) and all the accidents he's been in.

What I don't understand is the draw. What's the draw of this drug, or any drug for that matter? When I ask him all I get is an "I don't know what it is. I just like it." kind of answer. Well, he's not a child, he has a bigger vocabulary then that lol, and I deserve/want/need more than 'IDK'. Maybe some of you can tell me what it is.

@ GOLD N DIEMONDS -- I appreciate you asking why the ultimatum. I didn't actually say "Chose! Me or the fent!" It was more like, "Is the fent so important to you that you'd risk losing me? Cuz' I can't live like this all the time." To me there's a difference. I'm asking for a compromise, but I did say I gave him an ultimatum....sorry.

[SHELLEY]

why does everyone assume that russellmeboy is married?
did he say that he was married?
because i'm pretty sure that by family he means parents

[GOLD N DIEMONDS]

why does everyone assume that russellmeboy is married?
did he say that he was married?
because i'm pretty sure that by family he means parents

MMMM you do actually read:)
Yeah folks Its the 'rents' he talking about
Probably has been told he'll get the boot
after spending that chunck of chain on him
PROBLEM LIES IN THE FACT THE COUNTRY HAS SUCH SHITTY HEALTHCARE
IT SHOULD NOT, REPEAT SHOULD NOT COST 15K FOR YOU TO BE CLEAN FOR 7 MONTH
explotataion of junkie and parents that care
RUSSELL do not felt bad- here's some love <3

[I-Nod]

What I don't understand is the draw. What's the draw of this drug, or any drug for that matter? When I ask him all I get is an "I don't know what it is. I just like it." kind of answer. Well, he's not a child, he has a bigger vocabulary then that lol, and I deserve/want/need more than 'IDK'. Maybe some of you can tell me what it is.

A simple answer: Opiates trigger the 'reward' areas of the brain, creating a "false sense of well-being" and euphoria. In other words: It feels really good. :)

[Madam Oxy]

IT SHOULD NOT, REPEAT SHOULD NOT COST 15K FOR YOU TO BE CLEAN FOR 7 MONTH


When the hubs was doing a lot of Norco (man, I dream of those days. haha) and he wanted to go to a rehab place...I got the name of a good place in Arizona, The Meadows and sent him there for a month. It cost me $42,000. He stayed off all drugs for about 6 months. It actually helped him more with core issues that his counselor hasn't been able to touch in 5+ years of counseling. Which is a really good thing... So I don't consider it a total loss. :o

That doesn't include the airfare for him or for me when I visited him twice. Also add on hotel and rental cars , twice. :D.. Oh, then I did some big time turquoise shopping :p

@ I-Nod -- thank you.

[GOLD N DIEMONDS]

When the hubs was doing a lot of Norco (man, I dream of those days. haha) and he wanted to go to a rehab place...I got the name of a good place in Arizona, The Meadows and sent him there for a month. It cost me $42,000. He stayed off all drugs for about 6 months. It actually helped him more with core issues that his counselor hasn't been able to touch in 5+ years of counseling. Which is a really good thing... So I don't consider it a total loss. :o

That doesn't include the airfare for him or for me when I visited him twice. Also add on hotel and rental cars , twice. :D.. Oh, then I did some big time turquoise shopping :p

@ I-Nod -- thank you.


@Madam Oxy - Thanks for the more detailed explanation of your situation.
I am just starting to get my head around the GRAVITY of what it is you are saddle with.
I do not even know where *I * would begin
But one more question please
WERE your husband accidents before or after you meet him???
THAT IS A HUGE, VERY HUGE GORILLA HE IS CARRYING (shudders)
but for now, I guess if you believe "for better and for worst"
this would be the worst - a time he needs you the most
being single ALL my life- I don't know that system of beliefs

[Cherry's Jubilee]

Madam Oxy--why is your name Madam Oxy? It sorta implies you have some kind of connection to oxy but it sounds like you're as clean as a whistle and your husband does fent...just wonderin'...

[Papa Verine]

Madam Oxy--why is your name Madam Oxy? It sorta implies you have some kind of connection to oxy but it sounds like you're as clean as a whistle and your husband does fent...just wonderin'...

I was wonderin that myself...

[GOLD N DIEMONDS]

Madam Oxy--why is your name Madam Oxy? It sorta implies you have some kind of connection to oxy but it sounds like you're as clean as a whistle and your husband does fent...just wonderin'...

READ PROFILE PAGES MUCH???
NO - my screen name doesn't imply I'm a wise ass;)

[OverDriven]

Madam Oxy--why is your name Madam Oxy? It sorta implies you have some kind of connection to oxy but it sounds like you're as clean as a whistle and your husband does fent...just wonderin'...

I'm a little confused too. Her profile says she's using, and this recent post:

http://forum.opiophile.org/showthread.php?p=413438#post413438

says that she does over a gram (!!!) of oxy every day. Not sure why she is all over someone else's case with a habit like that. I must be missing something. And she's asking what the draw of drugs is? How do you take a gram of oxy every day and not know what drugs are all about?

[HandMeSomeOpiates]

Look at you people telling Russellboy what the fuck to do.
I never told him to do anything but think about. He's a grown man, like he said he knows what's up.

[GOLD N DIEMONDS]

I'm a little confused too. Her profile says she's using, and this recent post:
says that she does over a gram (!!!) of oxy every day. Not sure why she is all over someone else's case with a habit like that. I must be missing something. And she's asking what the draw of drugs is? How do you take a gram of oxy every day and not know what drugs are all about?

OH BOY
yeah you must have missed the part about going through Chemo
TERRIBLE PAINFUL maybe just needs that amount to truly keep PAIN LEVELS below say a 6
and OXY is in no way a remote even close match to fent
FENT TRIUMPHS ALL including H

sorry Madam:o

[The_Highwayman]

In every one's life, we have to weigh the rsik vs. benefit....does what he's doing or gaining worth what he may lose?? Either way, he can have a rlationship and home to live but not have what HE wants out of H..he can do smack and enjoy the benfits of it but could be homeless and not have anyone care about him...We all face choices and for some the answer is clear but more often it's not..only russellmeboy can decide what path to take...

And Madam Oxy--I 'm gonna say a prayer for you (yeah I have become one of those) no matter what the circumstances there's only a few things worse than watching someone you love slowly fade away...

[Madam Oxy]

I didn't start using oxy until I had breast cancer, and then I was very wary of it. I rarely got/get high from it. Back in August I had a really bad time with arm pain... was writting Lil Red and realized how much I was taking. I cut *waaay* back. Now I take 4 roxi 30's 4 x's a day and 80 codone 2 x's a day. Unfortunately, the only thing I get from taking too much oxy is constipation. :o

To clear the air:
CJ: When I joined here my hubs came up with my name, because Oxy is my drug of choice.
OverDriven: I'm not on his case, I'm over that. I don't get high, I feel no euphoria. I remember when I did and I liked it. ;) I just don't understand why? I saw I was doing too much and cut back. He sees he's doing too much and does more! lol There's no saving some for tomorrow or slowing down.
GOLD N DIEMONDS: Most of his breaks happened before I was around.

I haven't told 1/10th of what is happening. But here's a lil... When he first started with the fent he would nod all the time, and I would ask what he got from that. His reply was that he did'nt want that to happen, it just does. Then he went thru a phase of nodding then passing out. He's passed out on the toilet (then fallen to the floor many times, or slept there for 2-4 hours), in meetings, while bathing. He's cracked his ribs, broken his toe and gotten a big black eye...excuse me if I get a little worried and would ask what the draw is. I could tell you so much more, but I'm embarrassed enough already. Do you get my frustration? That's the draw I don't know. That's the draw I'm asking about. What would make a person want to get to that point? Does it feel *that* good?

He's a good guy, he holds down a good paying desk job with a large firm. He functions. You would never guess that he's because he wouldn;t let you see it. I'm the lucky one. lol However, since this last stay at detox, he isn't doing as much. He's doing less than I am...and he hasn't passed out since he's been home.

I just assume that since I'm here and have been posting, people know I use some kind of drug. I didn't realize that I was being taken as Polly Purebred, that's not my intention at all.

[Madam Oxy]

why does everyone assume that russellmeboy is married?
did he say that he was married?
because i'm pretty sure that by family he means parents

This is why I thought he had a gf/wife. Now I realize he's probably talking about his mom. Thanks for the clarification.

:(, now i just feel bad lol. u guys are right, but its not right situationaly, she just thinks heroin= speedy death. and ive been around the block for a while, before they knew it was much different, like i could be a fall down drunk and it wouldnt be a big deal to them.

[GOLD N DIEMONDS]

YEAH-talking about his mom
PLUS
being fucked up in the BLIST whilst talking his mom

[nodrover]

Well Russell, you said "now I just feel bad". You needed the advice/input of an entire online community to figure out that you should feel bad? I mean, saying things like that makes me think you just kinda wanted to stir up a "ruckus". I mean look. There are 43 posts relating to YOU using when your whole stability/shelter/life is on the line. I mean, have you heard what you needed to yet? Or are you looking for more?.....

[NV12]

your life is your life and your fucking choice
not your mom's choice, not your stepdad's choice, not your rehab's choice, but YOUR choice
if you choose to do h, no one can (or should) stop you
if you choose not to do h, no one can (or should) convince you otherwise
sneaking around sucks, you're a grown-ass grownup, jump on a hustle in addition to your job
save the money and get a cheap lil efficiency or 1br that's all your own
that way, whether you decide to get high or not get high, it'll all be on you

i've been off all opis (including mmt) for about 7 months now
a shot of h would feel pretty fucking good right about now, i gotta give you that :)

This is true.
But considering he (or anyone) is depending on his parents - from what I understand - to help support him, pay for rehab, etc... sorry, you lose some of your freedom, even if you are an adult.
You're right, it is all on him, but he can't expect to not have to follow rules in someone else's home, especially if they just paid that much to send him to rehab.

Good luck to you, makes me sad too, but sounds like you have a decent support system that cares about you man, take advantage..

[SHELLEY]

This is true.
But considering he (or anyone) is depending on his parents - from what I understand - to help support him, pay for rehab, etc... sorry, you lose some of your freedom, even if you are an adult.
You're right, it is all on him, but he can't expect to not have to follow rules in someone else's home, especially if they just paid that much to send him to rehab.

Good luck to you, makes me sad too, but sounds like you have a decent support system that cares about you man, take advantage..

while i agree with "my house, my rules" if you are living in someone's house rent-free
if a person pays rent at someone else's house
they should not be subject to the rules any more than an adult roommate would be subject to rules

[hopefiend]

<----------"while crying in to beer glass" true love is the rarest man, you think you got it under control then every thing you took for granted is gone... i can tell you man but im sure you already know. junkies cover all the angles.... ...we just choose to ignore them

[Uncle Wiggly]

Hey Russell, Nice to see you back. No judgment here. The way I see it is you've got to decide what you want the most. I remember when you first came here. You were going to music school and it seemed like you had things together.

Opies, however, have a way of unhinging things - at least they have in my life. From what you posted right before you went to rehab it looked like things were falling apart for you. Now things are coming back together. Don't beat yourself up for doing one shot. It probably won't be the last one you do. The most important thing is for you to decide what's best for you in the long run. Only you know that. It certainly isn't the end of the world that you got high. It's what happens afterward that really matters. Ultimately that decision is up to you.

If you're staying away from drugs out of guilt about your 'rents feelings then you're doing it for the wrong reasons. If you're trying to stay clean because it's what YOU want then it's for all the RIGHT reasons.

It's your life to do with as you please and that's exactly what you're going to do. It doesn't matter what your parents or any one on this board thinks. I think it basically boils down to looking at yourself in the mirror and being able to live with what you see.

I wish you the very best no matter what choice you make - just as long as it's a choice you can live with.

[More Feen]

Not meaning to HiJack the thread any:

BUT: If someone is taking so many opiates that they are nodding/passing-out and BREAKING THEIR BONES!, you gotta either surround them with soft fluffy pillows (under restraints, if necessary). If they get up, you gotta ensure they have a helmet on--lest they crack their skulls.

Of course the easier answer is to down the dosage so they aren't falling/breaking bones.

How do you get someone to do that? If you steal/hide/flush their drugs/patches, they very well might hurt you for doing that.

I'm sorry to hear of these circumstances.

M F

[Russellmeboy]

wow, this got a ton of response! i love u guys.. theres alot of response to be made, i wasnt trying to get affermation or being co-signed or anything just being real life to me, i cant discuss this shit with anyone really.i felt so sleepy all day today lol. and to shelly thanks for clearing shit up, no driver...wtf bro ur getting all brolick, chill the fuck out and give me some love. its just crzy what this game will do to yah :). and i was talking about fam fam, no wife or kids and shit, im only 22. life is good tho! no complaints just gotta keep on keepin on. wiggily that was some shit, i cant belive u remeber that.

- good to be back ;)

Ru$$

[hovadagod]

Your dope use has become a very contravercial issue around here.

[Cherry's Jubilee]

I'm a little confused too. Her profile says she's using, and this recent post:

http://forum.opiophile.org/showthread.php?p=413438#post413438

says that she does over a gram (!!!) of oxy every day. Not sure why she is all over someone else's case with a habit like that. I must be missing something. And she's asking what the draw of drugs is? How do you take a gram of oxy every day and not know what drugs are all about?

Thanks--my point exactly...It's obviously confusing when someone who does 1,050 mg of oxy a day says "I don't understand the draw of drugs..." and is worried about someone else's habit. Like I said, JUST WONDERING. We're allowed to ask for a little clarification around here :rolleyes:

OH BOY
yeah you must have missed the part about going through Chemo
TERRIBLE PAINFUL maybe just needs that amount to truly keep PAIN LEVELS below say a 6
and OXY is in no way a remote even close match to fent
FENT TRIUMPHS ALL including H

sorry Madam:o

you are so excitable

[GOLD N DIEMONDS]

Thanks--my point exactly...It's obviously confusing when someone who does 1,050 mg of oxy a day says "I don't understand the draw of drugs..." and is worried about someone else's habit. Like I said, JUST WONDERING. We're allowed to ask for a little clarification around here :rolleyes:



you are so excitable

yes YES I AM - WHY THANK YOU,
THAT was, however me in me usually stated of boredom
Guaranteed you will never 'see' me in an 'excitable' state ( thank fucking god)
this however DOESN'T SOUND like -ah -asking just a bit of so called clarification

"but it sounds like you're as clean as a whistle and your husband does fent..."

SOUNDS RATHER JUDGE/MENTAL - IMHO
of considered the source
opi all time record "BAN" holder -screen name changer


doing a little cherry picking there cherry:rolleyes:

[Russellmeboy]

So my mom read this and thinks im back on drugs, she dosent get i just wanted to see what ppl would write, kinda a decider but thanks OP now im fucked over what i wrote on a chat board. to the mods deleate it if u can. thanks

[GOLD N DIEMONDS]

THANKS OP??? WHERE THE LOVE
YOU STARTED THE POST AND WELL ONE CLUSTer FUCK STORM OF PEEPS FROM ALL OVER.
and it not what you wrote , its what you did and then write about it
"we reap what we sow" your living the 'law of unpexp ected coniqunces
I FEEL YOUR PAIN RUSELL, I REALLY DO - I was always black sheep of the family.
BUT DOES YOU MOTHER REALIZE I'D SAY ABOUT HALF THE FOLKS IN REPLY HERE ARE HER AGE
not a bunch of junk sick fuck guter snipe losers?

AND does she realize suboxone i one mother fuck of a powerful opiate, 40x stronger than Morpine
I do know no anser and judgemment, just here a shitload of love for you

[barbiegal]

Russell- Time for you to take control of YOUR actions. C'mon now. How did your mom happen to stumble onto this board and your thread? If you're old enough to be IVing dilaudid then your old enough to realize you started this cluster fuck and YOU need to fix it. Don't be playing the blame game here.