" A Shot Of Dilaudid For Your Thoughts "

[euphoricontin17]

Hey all, this is just a brief story of a recent encounter I had with dilaudid. Those of you who have taken the time to get to know me, know that I do not regularly shoot up, have only done so about 7 times and will only do so when D comes around, which is not very often. Those people also know that I dearly love dilaudid, and if I was not devoutly catholic, I would worship hydromorphone. Anyway here it goes.....

The day was 9/24/09 a thursday. This Thursday began just as anyother thursday would. I was up at 6:30a.m. and drive to class at college. After class, I walk outside and run into a girl I used to know a few years back from highschool. We get to catching up and she asks me if I'd like to smoke a blunt with her. Considering it's only 10:15a.m. and the sun is shining I say sure. So We smoke the tree and I begin telling her ( I should note we were never really friends, just aquaintences ) about how I am a junky and I just love narcotics and it's basically a way of life for me.

Turns out this girl also loves Opiates and happens to have a script to Dilaudid 2's for gallstones or something. So I sit there silently thinking to myself " self, you really have to try to aquire some of these " Considering D almost never come around and I have to jump through various hoops to get it. Anyway so the girl starts talking about how she is so depressed and all that " feelings " type shit, which I and I'm sure many of you know all to well. So I sat there, smoked weed, and plainly listened to her let out all of this emotional pain which I guess she could only share with another drug addict. I waited patiently and added in the "yeah I know"s and "uh-huh"s and the occasional " I completely know how you feel"s at the right times.

After about half an hour of this, the girl pulls out 2 sealed rigs and a fucking bottle of Dilaudid, right in the school parking lot! If you remember the scene in drugstore cowboy when bob sets up the detective to get shot while he's on the ladder peeking in his neighbor's window, you know when he tell's the guy theres a werido looking through his windows and he's goes outside and shoots the snooping cop with a shot gun while bob and the crew watch through the window? Yeah well at that part in the movie when Bob's like " He's got a shotgun!" (followed by a loud shot) and Bob goes in the funniest voice ever " HOLY SHIT! " yeah well that's what I did when this girl out of nowhere pulls out this bounty of rigs and D. I was like "HOLY SHIT" haha and she said " you know, no one has ever listened to me like that, I feel so much better, Thank you. Do you want to get high?" I say " Of course! " She says " Well here's a shot of dilaudid for your thoughts " P.s. Thats a play on " a penny for your thoughts " anyway so the girl has 90 2mg's of which about 74 were left in her script. She hands me the rig and asked what I shoot. I told her I'd just pay her because I takes me 12mg to feel a decent rush and 26mg to get where I want to be. She said " no worries, take what you need"

I almost had an involuntary orgasm. How often do you just meet nice fucking people like this with stashes of strong, super euphoric narcotics at ten in the morning on a beutiful sunshining day? Anyway, so as not to be a complete hog, I only take 7 pills. Which I still feel bad about since I didn't pay for and she did 4mg compared to my 14mg. I had not been using that much lately compared to my usual so my tolerance was down. We prep up and get down! This was only my 7th time with D and in turn my 7th time IVing ( I only IV when I have D and I only IV D, no other ROA for it) So I push the plunger down a man, it's like the fucking heaven's opened up. I could write all day about how it feels you know.

Just like All pain is removed life is the way it should be. Everything is beutiful, you feel wonderful about you and everyone else. I can't describe but you guys know. So anyway me and this girl who I had become pretty well aquinted with over the past 45mins started making out, I honestly don't even know why as it was not the least bit sexual we just were both so fucking happy to be alive and in Dilaudid's beautiful grasp. I started crying for a few minutes and so did she just because life is so great. When you feel like that, you really SEE the world. You see it how it should be seen. You notice the bee's in the air and the smell of the grass and even better you DON'T notice the bad things like the loved ones and friends you miss, the heartache and pain, the emptiness of it all or even the cigarette thats burning a hole in your skin because you nodded out and started thinging about the aforementioned things.

All the bad is gone, all you see is the beauty. The beauty in everything, the beauty that you did not know existed. That is life. That is what I live for and always will. I'll never forget that day and I'll sure as hell NEVER stop taking narcotics. I don't care how bad things get, I will always want to see that beauty....

[euphoricontin17]

Hey, thanks for the edit DF, your always looking out. I appriciate it man, Thanks.

[Papa Verine]

That was a cool story. I can't help but wonder if you two will become more then just acquaintences in the near future. I think I'd find myself pretty attracted to a girl like that... ya know, Dilaudid bottles and all.

What does she look like? Ahh... doesn't matter.

[euphoricontin17]

Yeah, papa, I thought about that too. I am going to try to avoid that though for a few reasons. 1. my usual doc is oxy or H when I take the drive to get and I only get D maybe once a month max. I don't want to hang around with the girl all the time because I don't want to exploit the D and have it lose it's magic. The thing is Dilaudid is so vastly different and better than anyother opiate for me. I don't get anywhere close to the euphoria I get from it from OC or H it's not even comparable. I think it has a lot to do with I only IV d and don't IV anything else but thats the second reason because I do NOT want to go down that path. Currently things are working out quite well with my once a month useage. It's great because for the other 29 days when i'm not doing it, I'm looking forward to it and it gives me a reason to get up in the morning while being productive. It's something to live for, just to know you can see that beauty again. Just like anything else, excessive use diminishes the magic and I refuse to let that happen. Dialudid is sacred to me and I want to keep it that way. I can do 400mg of oxy or more all the way up to ODing and I'll never get the feelings of loving contentment and just pure, unadulturated happiness that I get from D. Plus, I've tried the GF thing but it doesn't really work out since I always tend to end up loving the chemicals more than the girls. Thanks for reading man, take care.

[dharma bum]

....... I could write all day about how it feels you know.




I believe you.

So, is dilaudid the ONLY opiate you use? It's clear you like to shoot dilaudid but do you use any other opiate with a different R.O.A. For your tolerance to be so damned high ( 26 mgs to get 'where you wanna be), I'm guessing you do alotta oxy or something. And 90 count dilaudid script---thats a big one.

Good score though man.

[Papa Verine]

That's real cool that you can keep your habit under control like you are now. You're right, if you over-do it with opiates you'll fuck everything up. There are A lot of Opiophiles using large amounts just to be "not sick".

I've been trying to keep my tolerance down and I've been doing real well. However, in doing so, I've had to avoid my best friend. She has a sugar-daddy and she gets several hundred bucks worth of H every week. She'd always throw me a couple bags for nothing.

I wish I could still associate with her, but I know I can't say "No" when she offers me those bags. It sucks, but the only way I can do this is to avoid her alltogether.

She's fuckin pissed! I can understand why, but don't know any other way to control myself.

[euphoricontin17]

Hey Dharma, No I very rarely use D. Oxy is what I usually get and H is my second choice from D when it's available to me, but I usually end up geting oc's just because it's easier. I don't shoot ANYTHING with the exception of D. I chew my oxy's and snort my H. I do about 3 to 4 80's per day based on how much money I have up to 6. It's not something I'm proud of it's just that After being on subs for a few years my tolerance kinda got perma-fucked. That's why my ideal shot of D is 30mg. Thats exactly the dose I'd need to FUCKED UP. Like perfectly great, right before you cross the OD threshold. I know it sounds like BS, but it's not like I usually shoot that much, I only did once. I usually shoot between 12mg and 24mg, with my average ( It's hard to say because I really don't do it a lot, it's a special occasion type deal) 16mg. But yeah my regular use doc is OC and H and I got a helluva tolerance to those. Thanks for reading man, feels good to know people actually take the time to think about my words, take care man.

[EleusisII]

Just tried Dilaudid for the first time the other day, only got a script for 6 4mgs, but I believe that there are more for me in the near future ;)

But anyways, i snorted 4 of those, and damn, that was pretty good! I couldn't believe how easily they crush into a fine powder, no wonder people say they're ideal for shooting up. You pretty much only have to look at them, and they crumble before your eyes!

[Leave it ta Beaver]

Great story!

I in no way wanna encourage ya to fire up but ya can getthat nice warm feeling w/ the o.c.'s & H. But that's great ya can deny the rig & only do it w/ D's!!

Opiate's are great untill ya do not have any or no more hustle left to get $$ & your ill as fuck!
Anyway's good luck to ya& God bless!!

[DanCollins]

reminds me of my night last night but no-where near as cool. I won't clutter up your thread cause your story is awesome, but basically i was going into sorta mild w/ds and a girl i know well (who is incredible attractive) had me come over to try and help keep me well, knowing I couldn't sleep, etc, and we ended up *ahem* making love(?) all night. when I woke up (after a very short sleep) and showered, my guy called and told me he was good.
Man was I smiling when I took that walk to meet him.

Definitely really cool what happened to you, you almost don't believe that stuff happens but when it does it's so awesome. I'd definitely be calling that girl up again if I were you!

[euphoricontin17]

Hey guys, thanks for all the comments, I really appriciate it! Yeah, Dilaudid is great! And Dan, thats a funny story man, I'm glad you got well!

[DanCollins]

hahah i got well in many ways man! sounds like you did too.I've never got to try dillies actually, the only chance I had with them was when a good friend who knows little about opies but enjoys them got a bottle full after a major surgery on his back. He ended up throwing me a handful. I had heard what they can do when iv'd so I started thinking about trying to find a rig, but before I could, my mom raided my spots and took all my ills (I was a senior in high school at the time). Now, I convinced her to let me give all the pills to one of my close friends, as a lot of what she found (i had about 10 oc 40s too) was actually his (this was true.) She gave him the pills, and the next day his mom found his stash and wasn't so generous.

Just a funny thing that happened I guess. But I'm glad, since because of that I never picked up the needle, and never have since either.

[euphoricontin17]

Man, i'd be pissed if someone confiscated my shit man. Too damn expensive. I would of wrestled my mom to the ground and then hit her on the head with a tube sock with a brick inside if she tried that on me! Haha man, i'm jk, i'd probley give them up too cause that's the only place you got to sleep right? haha

[DanCollins]

i mean i coulda weaseled my way into someone's apartment, but my mom and i have a great fucking relationship. when I had to clean up before school started (and cause she found my shit again hah) she held on to all of it and basically tapered me off, giving me perc 10s, or whatever else every other day so I wouldn't w/d bad, along with letting me finish the rest of my contins. I don't know a single other mom who would do that, everyone else would throw/flush it away immediately. She's very understanding and supportive and I wouldn't fuck that up.

but yeah, it hurt less considering I didn't pay for those dillies then, and I got my share of the ocs back because obviously the friend I had given them to gave mine right back as soon as we left the house.

[euphoricontin17]

wow, that does sound cool man. I'm happy for you that you and your mom are tight, thats awesome. At least if you start fucking up hard you know someone loves you and will take care of you. Fuck man, I wish I had that haha.

[Leave it ta Beaver]

i mean i coulda weaseled my way into someone's apartment, but my mom and i have a great fucking relationship. when I had to clean up before school started (and cause she found my shit again hah) she held on to all of it and basically tapered me off, giving me perc 10s, or whatever else every other day so I wouldn't w/d bad, along with letting me finish the rest of my contins. I don't know a single other mom who would do that, everyone else would throw/flush it away immediately. She's very understanding and supportive and I wouldn't fuck that up.

but yeah, it hurt less considering I didn't pay for those dillies then, and I got my share of the ocs back because obviously the friend I had given them to gave mine right back as soon as we left the house.


Sounds like ya have a cool mom, my momis pretty understanding even afterall the bullshit I've put her & rest of family thru!
She's doing a taper w/ librium for my benzo. addiction, also she use to help me w/ $$ when i was in w/d's from benzo.'s cuz my blood pressure/heart rate would be high & she did not wanna see me get hurt!

[OxyBlowBall2]

dude this is a really crazy story man. I'm really happy for you that stuff sort of just came out of nowhere, that's some luck right there dude. also it's awesome how you have that self control to only iv the D's and don't do it a lot. I don't iv but thats kind of how i am right now. I used to use every single day a last year but i've cut back a lot. now its like two or three times a week, sometimes one time a week and it makes it feel that much better and takes a smaller amount to get really good. good for you for having that self control man keep it up. don't let the dilaudid lose it's magic dude!

[euphoricontin17]

Hey, thanks for reading oxy, I'm glad your doing better with your useage man.

[opiobsessed]

Damn, I'm jelous I wish the heck and have been since I've found my real answer to depression(opiates). I have always been wishing someone would just drop outta the sky so to speak and we'd just bump into each other(I dont care if its a guy or girl because I dont care about sex anyway). I just wish I would quit running into nothing but bottom of the barrel "losers", just like the last time recently when I met this crackhead who turned on me like a lion shortly after we started getting high on crack together. Long story short, that asshat is outta my life.

But, I just dont understand"its almost like there is a curse on me"why all I meet ever are losers who just want to take advantage of me or screw me over in some way. I feel like I'm a "loser magnet". I sure as hell hope that someday I get lucky and meet someone totally cool, who would be like, shit man that methadone sucks and we gotta get ya off it quick. Person I meet turns out to be awesome for once and I can luckily flip off the fucking clinic and walk out one day and never come back again.

I wish this luck would come FAST, because my dump "clinic" is just treating me like a fucking cow and i'm fucking fed up and just want off deathadone. I will forever the rest of my life kick myself for not listening to my real, good friends on here way back in 06 when they said DONT do it, you will regret it for the rest of your life. Well like an idiot I just had to get that honeymoon buzz off deathadone and now I'm paying the damn price.

[euphoricontin17]

Yeah, I know how you feel man. This is a VERY rare occasion for me. I usually meet people who try to rip me off as well. I think it's just junky luck. I'm sure things will come around for you in time. By the way, great signature man.

[HandMeSomeOpiates]

You are a great writer. The way you described the euphoria was stellar. Never shot up, but would insufflate 16-20 mg of D and totally feel you on what you were saying about seeing the world how it should be seen. Opiates are most definitely the best drug

[euphoricontin17]

Hey, HMSO thank you man. I really appriciate the compliment. By the way I want to say it's great to see some enthusiastic junkies on here like myself. It seems like almost everyone on here is down with the whole " I'm burnt out and dope is no fun just a way of life and I'm all mature now and can't talk about drugs in a positive way " type. You know? It seems like everytime I post about how much I love getting high, I am called immature and young and that I will hate opi's soon enough. Well I am only 21 but I've been through a lot of of pain because of these drugs. And I mean A LOT. And I've been using 7 years now. I feel I am qualified to speak on the topic and I just believe that the difference between me and these other older, more experienced, members is that in spite of the hard times FOR ME, the benefits out weigh the downfalls. Being an addict or even a chipper, is not easy for anyone. We all experience the depression, and emptiness of this life. But for me at least, I don't see opiates as a source of pain or problems. Yes, they do make life more difficult than it would be without, but at the same time, again, for me, they let one see that life can be better and more beautiful than you could ever realize. The way I see it is your just trading stability for up and downs. You can feel OK all of the time or feel really bad sometimes and amazing others. I opt for the the rollercoaster. That's my POV maybe someday I'll get burntout and feel differently. Not right now though, I'm young, high, and loving life. And thats the way i want it to stay. Again it's great to see some of you that actually love opiates like I do. Yeah, we all know they cause problems but the good is better than the bad!!! Just think, you experience feelings that 90% of the world's population will never know. ( maybe a little less than 90% but you get the idea...

[OpiXPO]

Well, Im glad that your happy and that they're improving your way of life. But dont quickly disreguard our seniors (As I say this at the ripe old age of 25). They've been around the block more times than us, and nothing beats the school of experience. While your habit may be a third of your age, 21 is still quiet young. As in you've still got many many more chapters of your life to start.

[euphoricontin17]

Yeah I feel you on that OpiXpo. I don't want to convey this as something like " they are a negative talking bunch " or anything. I truly believe most older members on this forum have just been through the hustle and game long enough to be fed up with it. I don't blame them at all. The point I'm making though is this: they had they're time while they were young to be reckless and have fun. So I feel it's only fair that when us younger, more enthusiastic members post about liking opi's and being excited and such (on an opi enthusiat website lol), that we not be made to look like little kids, thats all. I'm sure it's possible that one day I'll be in the same boat. I mean shit, I'm still young. Maybe that's why everytime I hear duckfeet or someone older than their twenties talk about a kick, they sound to me like they are dramatizing it. They are'nt, I guess it's just you get older and the kicks get rougher. Since I'm young now, I can tolerate that but I'm sure I won't be able to when I have arthritis and the myriad of diseases I'll have due to my HORRIBLE DIET. I work at a fast food chain. But all in all, I just want to enjoy my youth and do the most opi's I can and stay high the highest percentage of my total time awake as possible and not be made to look like a fool for wanting to do so, is that too much to ask?

[Papa Verine]

I understand your POV 100%. I don't criticize anyone here for enjoying opiates or opting for the "rollercoaster" instead of a stable boring life.

There is no way to say how opiate use will affect any one indeviual's life. I have junkie friends who've never stopped chasing the high. They keep doing more, and more, and more and thier live's are headed right down the shitter.

I, on the other hand, don't see any point in that. My objective is to keep my tolerance as low as possible. I spend A lot of time in some level of withdrawal so I can still get high. For the past 2 weeks I've used as little poppy tea as humanly possible so I could get my tolerance down. I'm pretty sick right now (past 48 hours with nothing) but whenever I decide I want to get high I can spend $8 and get a more enjoyable high then my friends who have to shoot $100 worth of dope every day. And come to think of it I'm not even that sick at all. I could do this for a few more days and get over it.

It's a real simple concept. Once you understand the nature of opiate use you have to find a level of use you are comfortable with. Nobody can just keep getting high forever, and anyone who tries is a fool.

[Duckfeet]

It's just that we've been there, right where you are at, and sure, we like dope, probably loved it for a while, and sometimes still do. But we aren't naive enough anymore to pretend there isn't a huge price that accompanies illegal opiate use, nor are we cruel enough to encourage others to think it will stay the way you describe.

We don't tell people to stop doing drugs: hell, do all you want. What we also don't do, or have trouble doing, is pretending that there isn't a seriously dark side to this: ZK, me and others on here didn't *plan* on going to prison or the many jails we've seen, nor did Alo plan on going thru what is going thru right now. I know you get sick of hearing this, and I've read your post, but "enthusiastic junkies" are usually newbies. The rest of us are a bit weary and burntout, age notwithstanding.

And I've seen plenty of people your age or younger--hookers and jailbirds--who weren't so ecstatic about it. They knew the cost. Do I go back to dope because it's wonderful: No, I go back to it because doing opiates for a long time takes away from life's pleasures without dope, makes getting back to a reasonably cheerful life without opiates just about impossible, and also because I tend to forget just how hard this road can be. It's not the years on this planet that effect your view of illegal drugs, it's your years in the game.

You'll probably never "hate opi's" as you describe, but you might regret the waste and misery you go through to get them, and some morning when you are seriously kicking, and you haven't got rent, and your girl just left you "cuz yer a junky", and your best friend just snitched you out to avoid going to jail...then post on this thread. I was laying on my bunk in a cold army barraks, burntout and kicking and hating this junky life before I was 21...

Hey, HMSO thank you man. I really appriciate the compliment. By the way I want to say it's great to see some enthusiastic junkies on here like myself. It seems like almost everyone on here is down with the whole " I'm burnt out and dope is no fun just a way of life and I'm all mature now and can't talk about drugs in a positive way " type. You know? It seems like everytime I post about how much I love getting high, I am called immature and young and that I will hate opi's soon enough. Well I am only 21 but I've been through a lot of of pain because of these drugs. And I mean A LOT. And I've been using 7 years now. I feel I am qualified to speak on the topic and I just believe that the difference between me and these other older, more experienced, members is that in spite of the hard times FOR ME, the benefits out weigh the downfalls. Being an addict or even a chipper, is not easy for anyone. We all experience the depression, and emptiness of this life. But for me at least, I don't see opiates as a source of pain or problems. Yes, they do make life more difficult than it would be without, but at the same time, again, for me, they let one see that life can be better and more beautiful than you could ever realize. The way I see it is your just trading stability for up and downs. You can feel OK all of the time or feel really bad sometimes and amazing others. I opt for the the rollercoaster. That's my POV maybe someday I'll get burntout and feel differently. Not right now though, I'm young, high, and loving life. And thats the way i want it to stay. Again it's great to see some of you that actually love opiates like I do. Yeah, we all know they cause problems but the good is better than the bad!!! Just think, you experience feelings that 90% of the world's population will never know. ( maybe a little less than 90% but you get the idea...

[euphoricontin17]

I completely understand your pov DF. I guess I just have to go through it myself. I'm sure some day I'll be where many others are now.

[KoDeInaaaae]

Man i want to try dilaudid so bad man,my friend and others have said its like nothing else..I no this girl who has fibro and she gets prescribed dilaudid and shes thinking about throwin me 2 of them for a preview i guess haha...idk if i will feel them shot up or snorted or plugged,but i could save it to use on top of a 50 mcg patch for a boost of euphoria that fent is lacking. . .

[KoDeInaaaae]

i just read ur post duckfeet and it made me seriously rethink my post alot...u pretty much described what i just did and posted since im a newbie here and all.I just want to try ds though since i never have before,that,h and oxymorphone. i would rather plug or snort then shoot though and i never have had a source to any of those before. So duckfeet your post makes sense 110% and made me seriously think of my ways and me not wanting to go to jail especially prison.

[Duckfeet]

I listen to you guys, and see your point too...I laughed and enjoyed my life a whole lot when I was young, (and still do, actually, most of the time)...and the last thing I wanted when I was young was some old coot telling me "You just wait, motherfucker, you'll be sorry!" as that is so fucked up, and hell, you can say that about anything...they told me my tattoos would fade and my girls would leave me, but so what?

I loved dilaudid and heroin, and even after paying much of the costs I've already mentioned, I still was thrilled to get a shot, and it made me happier than anything...a lot of things in life, from jobs to relationships can go sour: it's good to make the best of things, and be happy with the cards you are dealt too...

In the middle of all kinds of shitstorms I remember getting a shot of heroin or a Knoll k4 dilaudid and thinking right after I fixed that it was all worth it, every bit of pain, for that one wonderful stomach warming euphoric rush...so I get it: it's just perspective, there's no right or wrong to this business. I'm just off opiates now, so I'm mostly trying to keep *myself* in check, and sometimes my take on shit is more for my own benefit, than anybody elses...

But sometimes I need to remember just how I came on here, just a few years ago, after doing a google search on "how to fix subutex" and stumbling on here, and then finding a local tar hookup...

The site's name is "Opiophile" not "Opiophobe." I stand a bit corrected.

[euphoricontin17]

See, this is EXACTLY why i think myself and so many others on here respect DF so much. Unlike many other members on this forum, sometimes including myself, even older members, we fail to understand others' POV and sometimes criticise or even hate on them for it. I've seen so many threads like this. I have never once seen DF make a remark like " your an asshole " or anything remotely like that. Even if he does not agree, he states why and never puts someone down for even the silliest of remarks.

I remember when I first came on here about 2 months ago, I made a remark that, in retrospect, was really dumb. It was something about me saying doing heroin is " cool " and it was very badly recieved by the opio community. Almost every member on that thread called me one curse word or derogetory term. Except for DF. He just kindly stated why people get upset with remarks like that and helped me to understand.

This guy is great! I'm not even trying to kiss ass here but he is really the only one on here who does not pass judgement, that is a rare breed in our field of work! He is also the mediator between so many junkies who would otherwise just have a 1000 page long pissing and name calling contest. More power to you DF!

[euphoricontin17]

P.S.- Look everyone! Note the paragraph breaks. I'm learning!:)

[HandMeSomeOpiates]

P.S.- Look everyone! Note the paragraph breaks. I'm learning!:)
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[OpiXPO]

Heh, I ended up here because I was trying to figure out why my dilaudid oral meds wasnt doing shit while yet in the hospitals when they gave them to me, I was in heaven. Darn you pH and other crap!

I think maybe a better way to put it than as a phobia, because we all clearly arent phobic, would just be to just respect it. Treat opiates with respect or you'll end up in a world of hurt. What everyone would do as the action of respect would be a bit different yes, but I think what wants not done is how you show your respect to opiates and all their little candy like friends. Oh man do I miss the days where my candy was store bought and I got them for getting good grades in elementry school and holloween came once a year rather than once a month.


I listen to you guys, and see your point too...I laughed and enjoyed my life a whole lot when I was young, (and still do, actually, most of the time)...and the last thing I wanted when I was young was some old coot telling me "You just wait, motherfucker, you'll be sorry!" as that is so fucked up, and hell, you can say that about anything...they told me my tattoos would fade and my girls would leave me, but so what?

I loved dilaudid and heroin, and even after paying much of the costs I've already mentioned, I still was thrilled to get a shot, and it made me happier than anything...a lot of things in life, from jobs to relationships can go sour: it's good to make the best of things, and be happy with the cards you are dealt too...

In the middle of all kinds of shitstorms I remember getting a shot of heroin or a Knoll k4 dilaudid and thinking right after I fixed that it was all worth it, every bit of pain, for that one wonderful stomach warming euphoric rush...so I get it: it's just perspective, there's no right or wrong to this business. I'm just off opiates now, so I'm mostly trying to keep *myself* in check, and sometimes my take on shit is more for my own benefit, than anybody elses...

But sometimes I need to remember just how I came on here, just a few years ago, after doing a google search on "how to fix subutex" and stumbling on here, and then finding a local tar hookup...

The site's name is "Opiophile" not "Opiophobe." I stand a bit corrected.

[Deadfiend]

Great fucking story, reminds me of the good side of things, and how great opiate use is at the beginning, before it takes away everything...

I wish everyone could see that love, that light inside if only one time in there lives, I know it would change the way mankind thinks, and acts.

[losangeleslifer]

You know, I really have to pull the stove out and clean behind it.

What was that you were saying?

[euphoricontin17]

I don't understand what you mean LaLifer? Was that a diss of some kind? I honestly don't know lol. Or were you referring to looking behind it to find more drugs because the story made you crave? Sorry sometimes I can be a bit slow.

[dan251]

Great story! Gives me memories of my time with D and taking day trips with a buddy of mine across New York. We were experiencing the world all over again with different glasses on. Just traveling, slamming D, and talking. I miss those days.

Speaking of lucky, some guy I know from Nu Jersey that was getting scripted bottles of 200 count D every 2 weeks. Two freaking hundred. Now he was some lucky Devil. Sucks his doc took him off them. I drooled every time I saw his huge collection of bottles....then I cried when I looked inside and everyone of them were empty :(

[doctor diesel]

Hey euphoricontin, I just want you to know that I read your splendid tale...

and it damn well near made me COME IN MY PANTS!

Thanks for that mate.


Doc

[euphoricontin17]

Hey, thanks dr. diesel. I always wanted to be responsible for someone else's involuntary orgasm! Haha, thanks for reading though man!

[doctor diesel]

Yeah man, you are directly responsible for the creaming of my jeans.
Well done mate!


Doc

PS Sorry if that sounds a little bit gay.

[doctor diesel]

Not that there's anything wrong with gay.

[euphoricontin17]

haha, I hope I didn't imply I was gay.

[The_Highwayman]

That was a great fuckin' story good for you!!! Is the chick hot??

[losangeleslifer]

I don't understand what you mean LaLifer? Was that a diss of some kind? I honestly don't know lol. Or were you referring to looking behind it to find more drugs because the story made you crave? Sorry sometimes I can be a bit slow.

2 fifths down that nite. Took me 2 weeks to remember posting that. I had no idea what the hell I was doing.

Theres the reason. Cheap, but thats what the deal was.

[euphoricontin17]

Hey, highwayman. The girl is not really hot. Shes pretty, but not beautiful if you can understand that. I could never get involved with someone who used anyway. They always find out i love and romanticise the drugs more than I do them and it always fails.

[OrangeLude]

...interesting story...and all the follow up made for good reading this AM...have a little interest in Dilaudud as i was gifted a stash just afew weeks after I started mmt and yada yada...
I guess I have become one of those older coots that has been around the block enough times to know ...like every thing else this too shall pass...another one of the things in my brain as I read this that I heard in a 12 step meeting...first the man takes a drink then the drink takes the man....when you're 21 or in the game 7 years...you just can not know that from your experience.
I don't think anyone doesn't want you to enjoy - I think we/they don't want you to be naive.
This shit is good, feels really good when it works, you cross a line...you don't see the line....the fun turns into not wanting to be sick...and so on...

I don't want to mention the funerals, the children I've seen throw dirt on Dad's coffin...that is part of this euphoric reality - people get hurt by our indulgence. It goes past what we do to ourselves. No need to go there now.

...am in my 50's and have plenty of 20 somethings in my life that I share a bong & a story with....its nice to be -- omnipotent, omnipresent and all powerful.... this too passes.

good luck on your journey....