Oh fuck!

[Opiyum]

Yeah so I found out this weekend while listening to Rascal Flatts and making Quesadillas that the owner of this catering company is a seven year clean Cokehead. An NA warrior, and three of the employees are Ex-junkies. Plus the maintenence guy is a seven month clean Alchy. I guess he hires through his sponsorship.
This is bad, Mostly for me becuase obviously they know the signs. As of the last month or so that I've worked with this company I've used while at work three or four times which probably means I really have used seven or eight times:D. Noone has noticed anything yet and Im sure there is no supiscion direct towards me yet, but during a conversation with one of the ex-junkies the other day I told him the name of my friend whom I hired to be my Sous Chef at the event center. Well guess what my buddy was a junkie(clean eight months doing real good) and this kid I work with knew him. In fact my co-worker was ripped off my him but thats not the problem though because as we both agreed that was a sort of past life for my friend and him. The problem is that my co-worker is calling me looking for shit. Not as "EX" as his sponser (aka my boss) might think.

Okay this is getting long. I'sa tryin'.

I should say I made the mistake of telling this co-worker that I had a past and I dont know I think I said it was like five years behind me and that I only fucked around for a year or so. I lied.
I had to say something because this friend of mine who the co-W knew is kind of well... infamous I guess around here. So he knew I had to be involved in something at somepoint seeing that he is one of my closest friends.
So then I recieve this phone call on Memorial day from said CW and boy was I drunk so I said "Yeah fuckin' shit I can get you grams of bricked powder for 250$per and this and that..."
So it wasnt a setup thank god! Thats why I dont drink...you think I have a big mouth now..hehe.
What I really want advice on is should I tell the owner about my history(be it true,somewhat true, or a total lie) or should I keep it how it is which is one co-worker knowing ...well...,from what I told him on the phone, he pretty much knows Im still involved in some way. I just dont know if its better for the owner to find out through me or through the grapevine.
Oh and another one of the three "ex-junkies" used/uses one of the same dealers as me(the good one), and the grapevine told me that he was there very recently hence the "used/uses".


So if your keeping count only one of the three junkies in recovery is still clean but guess what hes on Subs, and the Alchy is still doin good too.
Ha then theres me. The unknown in the group. This whole thing could turn sour on me. I sure hope not.
Thanks for the advice in advance.

hopefully this was clear enough...I have a history with confusion too.

[Coddfish]

If I were you, I would lie like a .......hmmmm... something funny that lies. That's what I would do. But trust yourself.

[devilsdrug]

sorry id ahave ta lie like agoood mutha fuker can lie at least then they dont know the truth and ya can just keep it goin

[Opiyum]

That's the advice I was secretly looking for. This is gonna take some creativity and lots of thought.
Is there anything that dialates pupils. Cause chances of pin-points at work in the future are pretty good. Im pretty good at keeping the voluntary(itching, face rubbing, nail biting, dancing etc) under control but the involuntary like pin-points and nodding and red around the eyes shit is out of my control. Guess thats why its called involuntary...
Hell...
...Ozzfest is gonna be fucking twelve hours of running and preping and grilling and Fuck! ...Hopefully snorting...
so is there anything? Visine maybe. They could call it "Opiate eyes or High eyes"no no no...how about "Smack Eyes".
Natural born Marketing Consultant.
'Ats 'ight.

[HistoryofMadness]

Noone has noticed anything yet and Im sure there is no supiscion direct towards me yet


You say that but aren't we usually the last to know?


The problem is that my co-worker is calling me looking for shit. Not as "EX" as his sponser (aka my boss) might think.


If he (and the other co-W) are using, I doubt they are going to say anything, so you're good so far. Plus if they really are managing to keep it from him, then you can too. If they're not, and he knows (but they don't) then he doesn't care that much, and you're ok.



So then I recieve this phone call on Memorial day from said CW and boy was I drunk so I said "Yeah fuckin' shit I can get you grams of bricked powder for 250$per and this and that..."


This will actually work in your favor for my suggestion (which is below the last quote).


Thats why I dont drink...you think I have a big mouth now..hehe.


Yeah, we know, you've posted drunk before :D I think... hell it doesn't matter what you were on...


What I really want advice on is should I tell the owner about my history(be it true,somewhat true, or a total lie) or should I keep it how it is which is one co-worker knowing


Ok, here are my thoughts: Really its none of your boss's business what you do in your personal time. As for getting high at work, well none of us are supposed to do that, so what's new? Have you ever had a job where it was ok? Well, maybe one or two, but for the most part...

So I would go to the co-worker and say 'man I was fucked up and I remember talking some bullshit about being able to get shit... I hate when I get so drunk I start bullshitting people.' In other words, don't say peep to your boss, take back what you said to your co-worker, and to avoid this type of problem in the future keep work work and personal personal.

[Coddfish]

I think Cocaine will dialate your pupils.:)

[Curio]

opi, I did a post a few weeks back...there is actually a type of eye drop that DILATE the pupils....go to the drugstore in the allergy/eye drops section and read the back label on the boxes for "may cause temporary/harmless dilation of pupils" or something to that extent. Just look for eye drops specifically for allergy relief and you'll find one...I freaked out one time after I put those in my eyes cause even though I was NOT on drugs...I felt guilty cause my "pupe-piles" was GI-HUGIC (really really really big...just picture an eyebucket full of nothing but dark PUPE+PILE.....)
lol you remind me of me so much!! That's why Id on't drink AT ALL...
well, except to extract sweet nectar from whence the pod goblin had already brought forth to me his coveted, goodness as blissfull treasure.....blah blah...blather:p
here's a good rule I like to go by...learned from a SO I had..
"if ya don't know....JUST MAKE SOMETHIN' UP";)
:D

[Opiyum]

Wow thanks alot HOM. That really was some well thought out advice. Once again, I think I've told you this before on another issue, simple and to the point. The more elaborate the lie the easier it is to forget would be the first rule...ummm in the art we will say.

The reason for my confidence in them having no clue si that I've overheard their discussions on the "drug addict" or "Junkie" and they apparently have only seen junkies who very quickly spiraled out of control and fucked them over. These guys he has working for him....well I guess its his way of forgivng and giving a second shot. The two who are useing again are complete morons when it comes to this....world. They will weed themselves out on their own Im sure of that but what happens in the mean time is my concern. Cutting off any tie to either is my best bet.
The one who shares dealers will be easy since Im on his best terms list and he's on our dude's worst terms list.
Also myself and this infamous friend I talked about ran a $5,000 a day restaurant for two years him as the Sous Chef(second mate) and me the Exec. The front of General/Assistant/other front of the house managers had no idea of our raging addictions. At least not till the very end when he mysteriously disappeared to Atlanta and I (now dating the GM) told her the story which was a complete suprise to her and then left her for a band in Columbus where I made beautiful music. Now for going on three years I chip pretty good I think only a few fuck ups and well yep I get drunk occasionally...hehehe

Okay so life story and reasons I know they aren't on to me.
A once again a huge thanks all yall. 5 posts and I know what to do.
NIGHT

If he (and the other co-W) are using, I doubt they are going to say anything, so you're good so far. Plus if they really are managing to keep it from him, then you can too. If they're not, and he knows (but they don't) then he doesn't care that much, and you're ok.



Oh yeah both of them are just starting like I posted a second ago the one is on real bad terms and is just working his way back in but I think I can convince my/our dude otherwise. Maybe.
And the one calling me has yet to score or I guess actually relapse. He wants my help.

and wow this is an edit an I just the other two post for the dialated pupils...Thanks again. So helpful...this site is.

Cocaine huh...nah i can get that shit here unlike meth and I dont want to develop a habit for that shit. Never have like coke but you can start out hating it only to love I know that shit...plus everyone will hate me here if I start doing coke...at least more than they already should.

TRUE NIGHT

[Curio]

I think Cocaine will dialate your pupils.:)
:speechlesROTFLMAO:eek:

Not to mention the benefits of increased productivity in your work environment....

[HistoryofMadness]

opi, I did a post a few weeks back...there is actually a type of eye drop that DILATE the pupils....go to the drugstore in the allergy/eye drops section and read the back label on the boxes for "may cause temporary/harmless dilation of pupils" or something to that extent.


I have some drops that dialate my eyes, that I have to use occasionally (since my operations years ago) when the pain gets bad... anyway they dialate your eyes, and the last time I used them some of my friends thought I was tripping...

Also you should know that anything that dialates your eyes will make it very hard to see in bright light (like a shutter being wide open) and that can truly debilitate your work in a kitchen because of all those bright lights. Which brings up the other reason they thought I was tripping... I was running into shit and acting funny cause I couldn't fucking see.

-H

[devilsdrug]

opi i can see it now your future so bright u hafta wear _______along with the hairnet or is it the chefs hat

[shaunclo]

opi i can see it now your future so bright u hafta wear _______along with the hairnet or is it the chefs hat

LOL, DD never ceases to please

[Opiyum]

Was somethign edited out of that cause I dont get it. No hairnets no chef hats I refuse. I just wear a ballcap. Stillers or Adidas.
I know you were joking but my future is certainly not bright.

[Coddfish]

Hate to kill the joke; he is referencing a GREAT song by a one-hit-wonder (I can't remember his name). The line was:

"things are goin great and they're only gettin better....somethin....somethin...the future's so bright I gotta wear shades, I gotta wear shades."

He sings about having a teacher who wears dark glasses, which is the really cool part.

And the music was 10 times better than the lyrics. If you haven't heard it, you're missing out.

[devilsdrug]

thanks cod and of course shades to hide eyes , i always wear shades even indoors , bright lights give headaches nobody can see eyes

[skeletontea]

Hate to kill the joke; he is referencing a GREAT song by a one-hit-wonder (I can't remember his name). The line was:

"things are goin great and they're only gettin better....somethin....somethin...the future's so bright I gotta wear shades, I gotta wear shades."


It was "The Future's So Bright, I Gotta' Wear Shades," by Timbuk 3. The funny thing is that the song was often featured in 80's movies when a character feels that things are going great (usually putting on sunglasses, and acting "cool"). However the song was actually about a post nuclear war future. It makes for a really weird juxtaposition when you know what the song is really about.

[Curio]

It was "The Future's So Bright, I Gotta' Wear Shades," by Timbuk 3. The funny thing is that the song was often featured in 80's movies when a character feels that things are going great (usually putting on sunglasses, and acting "cool"). However the song was actually about a post nuclear war future. It makes for a really weird juxtaposition when you know what the song is really about.

I'm "THE" 80s child and I didn't even know that one....you must watch VH1, lol :)

[Curio]

"things are goin great and they're only gettin better....somethin....somethin...the future's so bright I gotta wear shades, I gotta wear shades."

this
"somethin somethin"
reminds me of the SNL skit called "Songs you ALMOST know the words to" and they'd just hum or "somethin" in places where they didn't know the lyrics!

[superman]

i say fuck telling ur boss, it's your business, not his. when i go to work with preloaded syringes and disappear for 1 minute a few times a day i don't say a word about it to anyone. sure i've had coworkers ask me what drug i am doing when i dissappear but i just politely deny it and continue on with what i was doing.

Fuck getting fired, fuck dealing with coworkers who want to leech you into withdrawals, fuck it all just get high :)

[Opiyum]

thanks super...


...its funny cause i never tske off my shades evrn inside. for years now. even if its overcast and no sun is shinig I still were shades..

And when people say "Why are you wearing sheds right now" I say " why are you wearing pants right now you dick"HAHa


Apparently its easy to sleep during the day on subs but through the night I can only get two to three hours of sleep at a time. So yes I can still whine now that Im on sbs DD........Okay gonna try again to sleep my last hour before working

[Cornburglar]

Hate to kill the joke; he is referencing a GREAT song by a one-hit-wonder (I can't remember his name). The line was:

"things are goin great and they're only gettin better....somethin....somethin...the future's so bright I gotta wear shades, I gotta wear shades."

He sings about having a teacher who wears dark glasses, which is the really cool part.

And the music was 10 times better than the lyrics. If you haven't heard it, you're missing out.


I believe that would be Timbuk3. Their only hit!