23 days...

[ka11ink]

23 days sober. Been my longest stretch since I was like twleve except for a 2 month stint last Feb where I was kind of forced into it. Feels weird as hell and I do have subs to keep withdrawals away I didn't totally detox when I went in I just had to go 36 hrs.

I've had to jump through some crazy hoops to keep getting a new rx (been getting the doc in my detox to keep writing 1 week scripts till i find my own doc). I've called over 50 sub docs and they're all full up bc of the 100 patient limit but I just managed to find one this week who I can c next week if I can get him all the paper work he needs. At this point I don't know if I want to remain clean or not but 'm living at home w/o a vehicle (i'm basically in rehab here) so it'd b tough to get high even if I wanted to.

I'm lucky that I've got supportive rents and a roof. I could easily be homeless.

[HandMeSomeOpiates]

Congratz man!!! I say do it!! I just posted a thread on how when your sober you start to think more about the future an shit. You realize the route you've been going is gonna end nowhere, so you gotta bust that U-Turn. It's fuckin hard though man. I don't know when I'll honestly put it down FOR GOOD...I'm sober(except lil kratom) right now but not sure how long that will last. Again good luck man, that's great news!

[taj]

Hang in there and good luck with whatever path you decide to take....

[ka11ink]

Hang in there and good luck with whatever path you decide to take....

I just wish this path would fork here and there instead of being a straight fucking highway without exits. I feel like my hand has been forced into making these decisions (well hell I can't even say i made them they were made for me).

And thanks to whoever moved this out here into the right section.

[OxiContinKing]

I just wish this path would fork here and there instead of being a straight fucking highway without exits. I feel like my hand has been forced into making these decisions (well hell I can't even say i made them they were made for me).

And thanks to whoever moved this out here into the right section.

The decision was probably the right one, it doesnt matter who made it.

The only thing that matters is if you really want it or not. If you really want it, it will pay off in the end.

Obviously, someone close to you cared enough about you to want to try and save your life...

Maybe you should thank them, and repay them the only way it would count to them, in sobriety...

You get out what you put in man, its a simple as that. You put forth shit, you'll get shit. You can work hard for the first 40 years in your life, and hope for 10 to enjoy, or you can bust your fucking ass for 15 years and enjoy 35, you know what I'm sayin?

I know what I'm doin brah, what the hell are you doin? You comin with me?

[sunsrequiem]

The decision was probably the right one, it doesnt matter who made it.

The only thing that matters is if you really want it or not. If you really want it, it will pay off in the end.

Obviously, someone close to you cared enough about you to want to try and save your life...

Maybe you should thank them, and repay them the only way it would count to them, in sobriety...

You get out what you put in man, its a simple as that. You put forth shit, you'll get shit. You can work hard for the first 40 years in your life, and hope for 10 to enjoy, or you can bust your fucking ass for 15 years and enjoy 35, you know what I'm sayin?

I know what I'm doin brah, what the hell are you doin? You comin with me?


It is the right decision...i'm 100% sure of it...just as sure am i that someday things will be okay

[ka11ink]

It's ez for people w/o CP to say, just quit! It'l b good for u! Not that I have it nearly as bad as some of u other CP'ers out there, but it's still a pain in the ass, literally (sciatica).

[clinton]

how was it chosen for you?

[ka11ink]

I was living with him and I haev a physical disability. While living with him I was able to use bc he'd b the one that would boot me up and physically take care of me day to day. He kicked me out so I had to move home with the rents and I can't say, 'Ma would u tie meoff plz?' :rolleyes:

[clinton]

i understand
what are you using to kick?

[webay]

congratulations on the 23 days bro that shit aint easy ...Since you deal with CP maybe done might help you out more??
- I just wish this path would fork here and there instead of being a straight fucking highway without exits. I feel like my hand has been forced into making these decisions (well hell I can't even say i made them they were made for me).-
I dont know about you but i lost alot of things as a result of addiction tangible or not..and since cleaning up alot of those things are slowly coming back..just gotta try and find anything that can help you stay posotive..whatever it is..us new england opiate addicts gotta stick together haha..new england can be a great place but the drawn out shitty winters can be pretty depressing and kicking through one sucks stay up man things can only improve...