My body chemistry is all kinds of messed up

[satori]

Its strange How my opiate receptors .... "work?" A month ago I had to take 20mg of hydrocodone to "feel" it. Then i stopped taking hydrocodone for two days and 36mg of codeine was "strong". My body has some messed up chemistry it jumps all over the place. I drank a cup with a half of a large poppy pod and was almsot floored, then next day NOTHING. Sometimes in the same day i would take 15mg hydrocodone and feel nothing, then 6 hours later take one 5mg hydrocodone and have slower then normal reflexes. I know when i was just a baby my doctor gave me paragoric because i was Caulicy(SP). My baby sitter force fed me this stuff to make me STFU (she was rude). I guess she gave me a months worth in a week, and my mom got a refill. Baby sitter gave me more. I told my mother (recently after she told me about it) that she was probably the one taking it. Turns out she didnt even know what it was, she thought it was cough syrup. However its still possible she was the culprit. Either way.... she was mean lol. I find that strange though.... i could get morphine when i was a few months old but i cant even get oxycodone when my back hurts like a bitch? What the.....hell



Also an off toppic question. I was driving by a post office today and i notcied i could get a passport there. How much are these usualy? i want to get one incase i decide to... "leave" the country in a hurry.