speed freak again

[rockbottom]

well i guess im trying to kill mysejf again---first i bought 90 halcion again--ate em all in a week--and they gave me ataxia again thats where you cant keep your balance too well.--Dont think igot braindamage this time-but my family was callimg me stupid--i mean i just had a serious briandamaging coma not too long ago then i start drinking on top of my pills and just in Colorado i have 5 assaults and batterys beer makes me fearless---plus a shoplifting uriniting inpublibc--tresspass--public intoxication and too madriving offences to discurss them all--ill have to go to jail in Colarado to handle the 750$ bench warrent--and this shit is from1999--nextonmy jimi hendrix or jim morrison accidentlesuicide--i scored 90 bromazapam and 30xanak----sorry resourcisnol the 6mg bromazapam are a little weak for me but i do feel them--so im feeling lethrgic from all the alcohol and pills--so i get a wild hair and decide im going to do some speed--shits expensive here but it is bomb shards--i learned my lesson because i have done more speed than the average bear---so all i did was one regular line didn't smoke or shoot it--i shot it for about 29- years thaths how i got off coke--any way hardley any paranoia although i did walk around with a framing hammer i accomplishedall kinds of work all kinds of work painting the house and cutting up a shit load of fire wood---plus that shit got me super horney lle need a girlfriend soon--opiates and downers wreak your libido--so anyway im going aon a speed alcohol and benzo run---i always loved speed i just did too much mass quanties---so ill do a little line watch some porn md take sommw pills to crash--and tomorror i still have more so ill finish half the house---try not to worry toomuchabout me becacse if i havn't died already im already over do---oh yeah i probably have to sell speed to support ny future habbit speed downers and alcohol are me drugs of choice--and with the quicktoleracne you build on speed im gonna hafta sell it-----shit i sold it for 12 years and never got busted and made a mini fortune-and had all the vices from pizza drugs pillsopiates women gold guns and guitarsand cars----any way ill keep u informed im gonna do a line of shardes wath porndream about my future girlfriend and take pills to crash --i have klonopin and bromazapamand tradadone--which for some reason always knokck me out especially witth those others--Peace all--I really dont thinkim gonna die by drugs im thinking illget shot or hit by a bus--(while intoxicated)---when i ws growing up drugs were good and i stil feel the same way about them--how else could i hve saw God except by acid---andi never ever had any desire to quit drugs except methadone--once in a while alcohol--and i never wanted to quit speed i thing i just out grew it although i knom 60year olds that still do it -- by the way i still have all my teeth and i dont have any cavitiey----sorry about the ramble imi LILLTE wired right now and im carring a sworad a framing hammer and a good flashlight--i like to roam the property when i feel powerful-------ROCKBOTTOM

[Brony]

Dude, in all honesty, you're gonna kill yourself if you don't stop.

Take it easy–I don't want any more dead Opiophiles.

[Poppylvr]

RB, my brother......
I second Brony. You keep up that kind of shit, you're gonna die. You were given a huge gift, surviving your 9 day coma. Don't throw away the gift, bro.
No high is worth death.
Concerned friend/Jewish Mother Poppy who can't decide whether to give you a hug or smack you upside the head to get your fucking attention.

[Papa Verine]

Hey Rock,

So... kill yourself man. Your daughter and other family can suffer for the rest of their lives... you're not going to feel anything. You won't be around to have to see them suffereing so what's it to ya?

I don't know what else to say. I'm usually the "hang in there" guy or the "things will get better" guy. But you don't respond to those things. You're too much of a bad-ass. A 1%er biker without a patch or something... You're a wild fucker.

Some day you'll have to decide to slow down and take it easy. You'll have to decide for yourself that you don't want to know your family is going to suffer, even if you don't have to be around to see it.

Maybe you won't ever decide that... Many people don't.

We're all hoping you do man. But as far as I'm concerned that's about all I can do. Hope I don't see a R.I.P. Rockbottom thread. I'm no fool... I know you man.

Here's to hoping you'll decide to "take it easy" some day...

[Papa Verine]

I'm not done yet...

You know what Rock, I'm not Mr. clean and sober, with a conscience, who cares about everybody. I'm really not. I'm going to be brutally honest here. I *could* walk into one of my neighbor's houses, beat them over the head, steal all their shit and go out and buy a bunch of dope and party it up for a couple days. I could do that... I'd be able to sleep after that. I care A lot about the people who are close to me and as far as everybody else goes I really don't give a fuck. Maybe I'm a psycho... I don't know.

A couple nights ago I decided to go buy a 40 ouce of STEEL Reserve. That was a bad decision for me. Because there are hundreds of times I made that decision and ended up in serious trouble for it. It's like rolling the dice every time I pick up a drink. There's no telling what's going to happen. I put my daughter's well-being in danger by doing that, seriously...

So I'm not trying to be a hard ass with you because I think I'm any better then you are. Quite the opposite... I think we're A lot alike. I'm trying to think of what I can say that might get through to you. That's all... I know for me, I could go to a 1,000 AA meetings and listen to as many stories about how bad alcohol has fucked up A lot of people's lives, people just like me. I can listen to all that and walk out of there and go right to the bar and get smashed. Then act like a psycho... So there's very little anyone can say to me that's going to get through all the hard-ass bull-shit I keep up all the time.

That's why I think there isn't much any of us can say that's really going to help you make better decisions for yourself. I think you're just like me. So I'm not going to try to be any nicer then this... I like you. I bet me and you would get along real good. Raising Hell, eating drugs like candy, drinking until we're fuckin sick...

But man... people like us hurt other people in bad ways. If I get drunk one night and do something crazy (VERY possible) and get myself killed my daughter is going to live a nightmare for a very long time. And all the people who take over to raise her for me are going to live a nightmare too. Thinking about that is the ONLY thing that keeps me in check. There's nothing else that can do it. If I didn't have her I would NOT give a fuck. Not even a little... So think about that. I will too...

[stephenISall]

holy shit, that was a fucked up thread. was it supposed to be funny cause i was literally laughing out loud the whole time i was reading it. maybe it was funny to me cause i can relate about the "fuck it" attitude. the kind of shit where you KNOW its bad, but thats what you like about it and it makes you smile. funny stuff though either way, at least i thought so. thats some pretty hardcore shit and it sounds like hes in a benzo blackout ready to either pass out on himself or walk around for 10 hours and not remember ANYTHING he did. that shit is SCARY. not only is a benzo blackout dangerous as anything i can think of, add methamphetamine and alcohol. jesus christ. maybe he'll read that when he comes down and realize how "off" he was. maybe not. :cool:

[OxyContinuously]

Hey Rock

I'm not gonna preach to ya---you're a grown man and capable of makin ur own decisions---BUT at the same time,, I know how destructive speed can be especially mixed with other drugs, triazolam of all things,, so take it easy big man...we all love and respect u here at ophile, and it would be a shame if anything happened to ya'

on the other hand, ur not a newbie so i have all confidence in u that everything will be fine; i'm sure it's just a "run" and in a few days, you'll be all good!!

P.S.---> please exercise *extra* caution with the benzos, especially halcion---when gacked out on amps,, sometimes (well, a lotta times!) u won't *feel* the benzo right away and may wanna take more and more, till u end up takin too much,, so go easy... I don't know what your tolerance is like, but be easy and careful, that's all !!

later my man
tone

[Raz]

I would just like to know where the fuck he is now?....Anyone got a number for him?.....That 9 day coma he was in werent no joke.... He;s lucky not to be a vegtable WTF up wiv him man?.....He;s got a lovely kid.....I've said stuff to rock b4, About this crazy behaviour !!

whats he doin man, i cant understand where he;s at with all this risky behaviour, wats he seeking?...Pappy put it good mentioning his daughter, hope he comes to his senses some time quick..Or is the best we can hope for is him jst falling asleep?.....I hope thats all that happens...but i fear for him.

[reddragon3668]

slow down, dude. We've all been there where we did things that were stupid and a bit reckless. But, your old enough now that you should be out of that stage. If not, go talk to someone and perhaps you can find out why u keep taking unnecessary risk with your life. Good luck. I wish you the best!@

[metric man]

Hey Rock, I'm going to have to agree with brony on this. Take it easy bro.

[SeVeN]

Yeh your family is right. Your being stupid.

[Brony]

holy shit, that was a fucked up thread. was it supposed to be funny cause i was literally laughing out loud the whole time i was reading it. maybe it was funny to me cause i can relate about the "fuck it" attitude. the kind of shit where you KNOW its bad, but thats what you like about it and it makes you smile. funny stuff though either way, at least i thought so. thats some pretty hardcore shit and it sounds like hes in a benzo blackout ready to either pass out on himself or walk around for 10 hours and not remember ANYTHING he did. that shit is SCARY. not only is a benzo blackout dangerous as anything i can think of, add methamphetamine and alcohol. jesus christ. maybe he'll read that when he comes down and realize how "off" he was. maybe not. :cool:

No, it wasn't supposed to be nor is it a funny thread.

Rock is obviously putting himself in a bad spot.

[losangeleslifer]

Pump your brakes. No coasting, come to a full stop please.

Resume when head is somewhat straight.

Thank You

[OxyContinuously]

Rock man,,

what worries me, is not the speed, or the alcohol, or the bromazepam; it's that god damned triazolam!

besides being one of the most addicting, if not *the* most addictive benzodiazepine, it is really pretty destructive---> that euphoria and care-free nature comes with a big price

90 in a week is TOO much brotha...i mean they only come 125 mikes and 250 mikes (.125mg and .250mg respectively) so 90 divided by seven is, shit, 12 or 13 per day...that's anywhere from 1.75mgs to 3 or so milligrams a day!!

much, much too much--it doesn't matter what ur tolerance is; bro you are going to do damage to yourself, guaranteed if you keep that up

i'm sure you are aware that abrupt cessation of triazolam makes seizures from valium or klonopin or xanax look like a memory lapse---i'm talkin bite your tongue off, piss yourself, lose 10% of ur brain's ability grand mal type shit...Rock, you can have a stroke, man!

Again, please don't take this as me being aloof, or trying to preach to you, or do an "i-told-ya-so," because that's not where I'm coming from--> I am taking the time to type this and really take a look into the situation because i care and don't want to see anything negative happen to you..

So, again, please be careful, no one's saying not to have your fun, but halcion is not nearly as forgiving as the other benzos, *especially* when in conjunction w/ other brain depressants like alcohol...and then meth on top of all that? not good, man, not good...

I *do* hope you're all right, bro. Let us know!

take care of yourself
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I would just like to know where the fuck he is now?....Anyone got a number for him?.....That 9 day coma he was in werent no joke.... He;s lucky not to be a vegtable WTF up wiv him man?.....He;s got a lovely kid.....I've said stuff to rock b4, About this crazy behaviour !!

whats he doin man, i cant understand where he;s at with all this risky behaviour, wats he seeking?...Pappy put it good mentioning his daughter, hope he comes to his senses some time quick..Or is the best we can hope for is him jst falling asleep?.....I hope thats all that happens...but i fear for him.

No Razzle, I don't have his number, dammit.

I hope he just crashed from the speed, and he's gonna sleep it off, so tomorrow it'll be no more than a good story to tell us!

[upstate_007]

Take it easy Rock. Nobody wants to see you get hurt. Especially your kid.

I am hoping to come back on tomorrow and hear that you had one hell of a little bender and are going to slow down a bit.

[Narkotikon]

I don't think anyone can tell you what to do. I mean, you know this stuff is dangerous to do. I'm not lecturing or saying anything bad about it, just that when this kind of thing happens, it really doesn't matter how much you tell the person. They're going to do what they want to do. So, I wish you luck, and I hope you take it easy. Maybe forgo the combos and just stick with a plain old opiate high or a plain old benzo high or simply alcohol alone for a while? It sounds like mixing is what's the problem.

[oxy kid]

Rock we love you buddy!

Take care of yourself!

[limitless_euphoria]

rockbottom, wtf bro? I know you're not generally the "cry for help" type of dude but after reading that post that's what it screams out to me. Speed kills brotha. Ain't you heard? C"mon now. Popping some benzos, smoking some bud, stuff like that is one thing. I can tell you were hella wasted when you posted what you did because of thewayword wree msiplled and shit so you're obviously wacked out.

The way I'll put it rock: it's not so much WHAT you are saying it's more THE WAY you're saying it. I think you know what I mean. I'm sure life has not been easy for you but if you go ahead and start doing/dealing speed you'll become your own best customer for sure. Just think awhile about that because as brauny said we don't need any more dead 'philes, k?

[goagirl23]

I don't even know what to say about this post, it's really fucked up and really sad. Don't get me wrong, I'm the last person that is gonna lecture anyone on partying, but this is far beyond that. I think the sad thing is that you just don't care if you die and don't care about how it will affect your daughter and others. I just wish you cared about yourself and your well being. I feel like you want to die? What's up with "try not to worry too much about me becacse if i havn't died already im already over do" Im not sure who can read that and feel okay about it? Also, I'm not sure which would be worse for your daughter, you dying or just turning into a complete vegetable? You seem like a good guy and I'd hate to see a R.I.P. thread for you. Please be careful and take into consideration what could happen when you decide to take those extra pills next time......

[Duckfeet]

Damn: I was on the wrong thread, and led Narkotikon astray, and then Brony *closed* the fucker, shaming me publicly!:sad-smile

RB: the *hardest* thing for me was just to face the simple fact that what had worked so well, so long...didn't work anymore...and I kept retrying *everything*, different combos of drugs and alcohol, and finally was at my wits end, and since my father had killed himself when he couldn't drink no more...it made a lot of sense for me to just check out, same same...

But I'm so glad I didn't...and I have no children, nothing, except a few friends, a few family...

But I know that stuff won't keep you sober, and, again, I just had to come to some sort of honest reckoning w/myself, and get some help...my own brain just wasn't up to the job...and believe me, I like me old noggin...but I just couldn't come up w/nothing...

And I'm not going to 12 step you, or talk about god, or any of that: u have to find your own way: get something, somebody, u can talk to who u trust, and maybe try something different...because what you are doing *obviously* isn't working, and is pushing you in a dangerous direction...

And take it from someone who has seen more suicides than I should have: it seems like big drama, like a tragic movie or something...nah, it's messy, and after a year or so, people don't even remember your name...

Get some help, brother...

[jonny-5]

slow your role dude.

[Larry]

I agree with everyones posts on here, about not coming on here to lecture you or tell you what to do. Im not really sure how that one dude found his post to be funny, because there is nothing at all funny about this shit.. No offense Im not even sure how you could think that considering we just lost 2 people on here in the last month and we sure as fuck dont need or want another. I think the main issue are these fuckin benzos esp. those Halcions, When you take that shit you just dont give a fuck. If you keep this up we all know how its gonna end, either with you dead or possibily killing someone else (car accident or something). We all care about you and dont want to see something bad happen, I also think you should try to find someone to talk to, either in real life or on the board. My advice would be this, When you do these combos (alcohol + benzo + speed) cut one of them out, Everyone on this board are pros when it comes to drugs and we all know how fuckin DANGEROUS that combo is. No one has heard from you since you started this thread, So please when you get around to it plz post a message so we all know your alright, Right now its 4am and I will be on the computer doing work for the next 6-7 hours if you come online and need someone to talk to just drop me a message on aim or something, Please becareful - larry

[rockbottom]

speed and benzos are a good combo--not halcon-----i wass tweaskingin the garag just looking for valubles--thisd was mon about 12noon--woke upcold at 9pm--made many sweet drinks--it is now300am--and im about tocome dowen-with30mgs of bromazapam and 100 of trazadone--should be passed out in an hour---i don't have anything to appopligize for--i like tyoget getfucked up--i think my doses are sdsafer thamn fenyt or herion--well thanks for th good and bad wishes--i cantake them---but what willbe willbe--i'm not suicidal its jusy a possibility with my liestyle--like thyr INDIANS would say doyou wnt to live forever? tody is a goog day o die---and besides that im totally selfish-andf i can worry boput hoe oyher people are gonnaatake me--whenmy daughter visited me every dy in he hospital--i woke uto her begging--Please dont leave me.. we need u here--whod gonna giv me away at my wedding--hours and days of supr guilt tips---well it was an addcedent but im not coming back for guit tips anymorre--and i have been being careful 2 lines of speed intwo days--ive gvinup halciom-although i did 60mg morphinr to kickinte sped--and only the good idie young-i ythinkwithmy liver damage i have about ten good years--so im gonn sex drugd and rock thos days---im totally fearless abuot death so whats to be afraid of---evcept those greiving people--wholike you said i wony be aroundto see---ill post again tomorror--i have a dentist appt--deep root cleaning--does that sound suicidal to you?--Peace all Rock:rolleyes:

[upstate_007]

speed and benzos are a good combo--not halcon-----i wass tweaskingin the garag just looking for valubles--thisd was mon about 12noon--woke upcold at 9pm--made many sweet drinks--it is now300am--and im about tocome dowen-with30mgs of bromazapam and 100 of trazadone--should be passed out in an hour---i don't have anything to appopligize for--i like tyoget getfucked up--i think my doses are sdsafer thamn fenyt or herion--well thanks for th good and bad wishes--i cantake them---but what willbe willbe--i'm not suicidal its jusy a possibility with my liestyle--like thyr INDIANS would say doyou wnt to live forever? tody is a goog day o die---and besides that im totally selfish-andf i can worry boput hoe oyher people are gonnaatake me--whenmy daughter visited me every dy in he hospital--i woke uto her begging--Please dont leave me.. we need u here--whod gonna giv me away at my wedding--hours and days of supr guilt tips---well it was an addcedent but im not coming back for guit tips anymorre--and i have been being careful 2 lines of speed intwo days--ive gvinup halciom-although i did 60mg morphinr to kickinte sped--and only the good idie young-i ythinkwithmy liver damage i have about ten good years--so im gonn sex drugd and rock thos days---im totally fearless abuot death so whats to be afraid of---evcept those greiving people--wholike you said i wony be aroundto see---ill post again tomorror--i have a dentist appt--deep root cleaning--does that sound suicidal to you?--Peace all Rock:rolleyes:

Glad to see you posting Rock. Take it however you want to man, but we all just worry about each other. You're a grown man who has been in it for long enough to know what's what though. Just lookin out for you.

[Duckfeet]

well i guess im trying to kill myself again

Rock: When you start a thread like this, and then go into details about seriously large quantities and dangerous combos....u know it's going to be seen--on here--as a "cry for help..." and you will get that kind of responses...and the usual opy humor and teasing that I actually like...this is a tough site, and I appreciate the info, the concern, and even the teasing...that's just how we are...and those who need more sympathy...or less...know there are other sites...

Yeah, we've had a couple of suicides this week, and people are touchy...but it's Opy...half the crew on here could check out, and the survivors would feel bad a day or two...but then we'd be arguing and cutting up as usual...serious suicides aren't going to pay attention to anybody anyway...me, I'm for the survivors...

RIP, the dead ones--what choice do they have?--but I move on....

But anyway, u took it well, and I'm just glad you are doing o.k...sounds like yer dodging a lot of bullets there, but eventally dodging bullets sucks too...best wishes...

[Brony]

speed and benzos are a good combo--not halcon-----i wass tweaskingin the garag just looking for valubles--thisd was mon about 12noon--woke upcold at 9pm--made many sweet drinks--it is now300am--and im about tocome dowen-with30mgs of bromazapam and 100 of trazadone--should be passed out in an hour---i don't have anything to appopligize for--i like tyoget getfucked up--i think my doses are sdsafer thamn fenyt or herion--well thanks for th good and bad wishes--i cantake them---but what willbe willbe--i'm not suicidal its jusy a possibility with my liestyle--like thyr INDIANS would say doyou wnt to live forever? tody is a goog day o die---and besides that im totally selfish-andf i can worry boput hoe oyher people are gonnaatake me--whenmy daughter visited me every dy in he hospital--i woke uto her begging--Please dont leave me.. we need u here--whod gonna giv me away at my wedding--hours and days of supr guilt tips---well it was an addcedent but im not coming back for guit tips anymorre--and i have been being careful 2 lines of speed intwo days--ive gvinup halciom-although i did 60mg morphinr to kickinte sped--and only the good idie young-i ythinkwithmy liver damage i have about ten good years--so im gonn sex drugd and rock thos days---im totally fearless abuot death so whats to be afraid of---evcept those greiving people--wholike you said i wony be aroundto see---ill post again tomorror--i have a dentist appt--deep root cleaning--does that sound suicidal to you?--Peace all Rock:rolleyes:

Thanks for letting us know you're alive.

Just remember that when a thread begins with: "well i guess i'm trying to kill myself again" and then goes into detail about the tons of shit you're doing, people are going to be concerned.

We're always here for our fellow Opiophiles, but we you said it yourself, you are selfish. Please don't needlessly drag us into this right now. We've had too many suicides and deaths lately, and everyone is on edge.

[Raz]

On edge for sure....This has been one scary time...Nobody else check out, please!!.....It stays in my head for days, young scott, Ron Doe(aka Adam) and Dboy Jake....All young guys, who made the world a better place, just by being in it....

Rock bro, we should get off your case Huh?.....Man, dont be like that...Dont do something thats gonna rip your kids heart out...Coz dats wat your demise is gonna do, just shred her heart to pieces, then stamp on it and then set it alight.And then put it back in her chest and do it all over again.....Day in day out.....
Coz thats what your kid is gonna feel every day!!....

Man that aint you, i dont believe your the type a guy who would hurt a child, especially your own...But when you think about it, thats exactly what you'll be doin...And the fucked up thing is; you know it.....I dont want to argue with you, but i'd rather say it than not....Tell me to fuck off and mind my own business...All i'm trying to do is make you think, thats all....
I know you, you'll do what you want, coz your in charge of rock, right.No one can tell you what to do...Yeah, well thats cool...I aint telling you what to do...But i can talk to you, right, as a friend.And friends supposed to look out for each other, right.Or what kinda friend would ya be, if ya let a mate self harm, without saying something....

I know for one thing, if a RL friend of mine was pushing it that extra mile you seem to go.And another friend of ours knew about it , but didnt say shit.And then something "bad" happened to the friend who was pushing it, well man, thats fighting behaviour....A fucking friend knows your at risk and dont say shit, well thats bolloxs in my book.
And i dont see it no fuckin different here....So when you go that extra mile, and i see typing like i saw and the words that i read, well then i'm gonna say something...You do what you have to do, coz thats you right...Well i have to say something, coz thats me.....Dont do that to your kid man!...Open your fatherly heart and your smart man brain, your way better than some fuckin accidental death corpse on a fuckin cold slab....

You wanna check out, then get some decent life insurance and make it look like you been murdered.Then ya kid gets a shitload a wonga...Thats a smart death in my book, acciedental Od isnt...Its meaningless and worthless... I know, coz I lost my young bro that way and saw him on a cold cold slab.Nothing glamorous, nothing cool, just stupid,meaningless and worth fuck all....Your a better man than that right?

Your friend Raz...

[reddragon3668]

I have to say, RB, you got a kewl avatar. I am also glad your okay, which will be the last time I say that. Your a good guy, but shit like this wouldn't of lasted too long when I first started around here. Do your drugs and keep your thoughts about dying to yourself. Peace!

[SeVeN]

Just remember that when a thread begins with: "well i guess i'm trying to kill myself again" and then goes into detail about the tons of shit you're doing, people are going to be concerned.

.


For sure.

[Papa Verine]

That last post of yours is really rubbing me the wrong way. The way you talk about your daughter begging you not to dye on her, and the way you seemingly don't give a shit.

I feel sorry for her... already.

I normally mind my own fuckin' bussiness. But you're posting this crap for all of us to read. And we try to help eachother out here. That's what this site is all about.

What's the point of your "I'm a selfish asshole who doesn't give a fuck" thread here?

I really don't get it...

[rockbottom]

im a selfish asshole--whats to get--i dont take shit serriously becaue it all ends the same--but like i said no more halcion more dangerous than herion to me---everything else is on--lower level benzos occasional speed and alcohol---wtf wrong with that? more people on here do alot worse-----for those with concern thanks --for the others i don't listen to your shit anyway:rolleyes:


except for RAZ and Duck feet--you have as much or more experience than me--so i listen--and pappa v my relashion ship with my daughter couldn't be better--i actually quit dealing for her because i didnt feal a kid should have too suffer my prison sentence with me--lets please not talkabout daughters anymore---you seem to be in a bad place with yours

[Raz]

Good to see ya.....

[Duckfeet]

We just give a shit about you...but we've all been there...that's how I survived...I had to get cold...I don't really think it's selfish what you are...It's just about the only way sometimes to get thru life without going crazy...so good on on yah, you're a survivor...I was never that worried about you...I have a feeling you're harder on yourself than anybody on Opy is going to be...Take care...


im a selfish asshole--whats to get--i dont take shit serriously becaue it all ends the same--but like i said no more halcion more dangerous than herion to me---everything else is on--lower level benzos occasional speed and alcohol---wtf wrong with that? more people on here do alot worse-----for those with concern thanks --for the others i don't listen to your shit anyway:rolleyes:


except for RAZ and Duck feet--you have as much or more experience than me--so i listen--and pappa v my relashion ship with my daughter couldn't be better--i actually quit dealing for her because i didnt feal a kid should have too suffer my prison sentence with me--lets please not talkabout daughters anymore---you seem to be in a bad place with yours

[Voyager]

OH, it's great to see you back !
I see you normalized, your typing is okay, your sentences are okay.
I was very afraid you won't get hurt in all that halcion-amphetamine-alcohol crazyness.

[resorcinol]

Man, be careful. Amphetamines and benzos alone can both manifest psychotic, careless, or paranoid (amphetamines) behavior alone. The combination can get twisted fast.

I can see somebody with a very large tolerance to benzos like you not digging bromazepam as much simply because of the potency issue. It's only 2x the potency of diazepam, while triazolam is about 40x more potent than diazepam.

[DCBA]

Ive posted in here and my post doesn't appear anymore. Server malfunction??

[Duckfeet]

This thread had a duplicate, where I was posting too: that might have been what happened...Brony shut it down...fucking me *all* up...:)



Ive posted in here and my post doesn't appear anymore. Server malfunction??

[rockbottom]

OH, it's great to see you back !
I see you normalized, your typing is okay, your sentences are okay.
I was very afraid you won't get hurt in all that halcion-amphetamine-alcohol crazyness.


i was typing shit 3-4 times and it was still coming out like shit--so i just said fuck it- they can either understand me or they can't:)

[rockbottom]

Man, be careful. Amphetamines and benzos alone can both manifest psychotic, careless, or paranoid (amphetamines) behavior alone. The combination can get twisted fast.

I can see somebody with a very large tolerance to benzos like you not digging bromazepam as much simply because of the potency issue. It's only 2x the potency of diazepam, while triazolam is about 40x more potent than diazepam.


no wonder the shit was trying to kill me---actually ive developed an affinity to the bromazpam--i like it i like it----wondering how i should do my taper---xanax style which worked for me or is there a bromazapam style--i have the 6mgs and have plenty left to get highand do a taper--also you say bromazapam has2x the dose of valium what does the 6 have the equivelent of 12v's

[OxyContinuously]

no wonder the shit was trying to kill me---actually ive developed an affinity to the bromazpam--i like it i like it----wondering how i should do my taper---xanax style which worked for me or is there a bromazapam style--i have the 6mgs and have plenty left to get highand do a taper--also you say bromazapam has2x the dose of valium what does the 6 have the equivelent of 12v's

for the taper, prob be better off usin the benzo w/ the longer half life,, so go w the brom

[Papa Verine]

and pappa v my relashion ship with my daughter couldn't be better--i actually quit dealing for her because i didnt feal a kid should have too suffer my prison sentence with me--lets please not talkabout daughters anymore---you seem to be in a bad place with yours

That's good Rock. Fair enough...

[clinton]

slow down......
excessive drug use only wastes away the mind and body...
your a smart man, you know whats up,dont get caught in the cycle again..
sorry im being so forward but i dont want to lose another one..
stay well rock;)

[resorcinol]

I agree with OxyC, while bromazepam doesn't have a long half life by any means, it has a longer half life than alprazolam does. So it's better for tapering than alprazolam.

6 mg bromazepam = 10 mg diazepam according to charts, but I think bromazepam is warmer and more fun. It's the only benzo I've had that I get fiendish with.

[kellyblue]

Extremely glad to see you back here running at a somewhat "normal" pace... don't be mad at us for caring dude, really. I haven't spoken to you personally yet, but love your posts, and let's face it- like it or not- we're family here. And what's family for if not to gripe and ride you when we're worried...

Anyway- glad you're ok- and bet the house looks great, LOL!

~K~

[Badly Drawn Girl]

-does that sound suicidal to you?--Peace all Rock:rolleyes:

In all honesty, I, like many others, saw your original post as a cry for help and a red flag. You don't have to write a note and plan out the details in order to kill yourself. Taking unnecessary risks knowingly especially when dealing with something as unforgiving as drugs, points to a person who is toying around with death. We've had a lot of loss on this board this year, and of course people are going to do all they can to prevent another. If the worse thing you have to complain about is guilt trips, consider yourself lucky that people actually give a shit about you. We all just want to make sure you stay safe.

[rockbottom]

i dont think i was crying for help i just knew i was fucking up--semantics--shemantics;)

[rockbottom]

That's good Rock. Fair enough...

i really like you so i dont want anything to come between us----Peace ---Rock