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For most of you that know me,my Doc is smack and chasing lots of it....And i'm just wondering if anyone else uses any ol excuse to justify their getting high.....Recently i had 6wks of just methadone and booze,no smack....But the ol devil always pops his head up, saying "go on,just this one time"....
Well on tues last week i was involved in a little punch up and wound up on the bottom of a pile of 5/6 guys ...End result couple a cracked ribs.....Well that was it, when i woke up wed morn with my ribs fuckin killin me, shit, it even hurt to take a shit and drivin was fuckin agony...But i still made it out the door behind the wheel and scored a big ol parcel......
My wife wakes up and i'm sitting on the bed with a big ol chase on the foil,(see ol thread espana stylie).And she says "what the fuck ya doin"?...."Whats it look like says i, my fuckin ribs are killing me and this is my painkiller.""do ya want some"? Ha ha.....Shit we been chasing for a week and today is my first day off as my ribs are starting to heal....
But i just wonder how many guys think of or use some excuse to get high?.....And i gotta stop typin or i am gonna wind myself up and fly out the door:rolleyes::o.......It is what it is....But i like it...............
oxymoronluvr
08-20-2008, 12:45 AM
when i used. i used any excuse to get high. and now that i think back at it, some of them were really really bad lol. anything i could say to leave i did. even if it was to go get milk and i would leave my family stranded for hours without a car. addiction is a very selfish thing, it wants all of your attention and in return it makes the addict a very selfish person. I'm sorry i didn't mean to call you an addict(thats up to you) i was just making a general statement, not name calling. i justified using with every justification and rationalization i could think of.
when i used. i used any excuse to get high. and now that i think back at it, some of them were really really bad lol. anything i could say to leave i did. even if it was to go get milk and i would leave my family stranded for hours without a car. addiction is a very selfish thing, it wants all of your attention and in return it makes the addict a very selfish person. I'm sorry i didn't mean to call you an addict(thats up to you) i was just making a general statement, not name calling. i justified using with every justification and rationalization i could think of.
No worries....I fink i am an addict, one with with a rather large habit just lately......Its funny how goin to get the paper can take hours...;)
Sometimes I'd dose, and it wouldn't hit me nearly as hard as i expected it to, even though i KNEW i took the same amount. So i'd think to myself "something must have went wrong with it, it didn't work right, so if i take a second dose, it'll really just be like taking what i was supposed to take in the first place" when really it was just my tolerance.
SHELLEY
08-20-2008, 04:14 AM
i never bothered with an excuse
i just smoked my crack and shot my dope and meth and coke
and if anyone asked why, i'd say because i already bought it
if they asked why i bought it, i'd say because i can afford it
most of the people i got high with were homeless or hungry (by CHOICE)
and i was getting high in my apt with a stocked fridge and a turned on cellphone
so no one could really argue with that
but you know how therapists and the like will ask you about
"the REAL reason you started getting high in the first place" ?
and they think that every single dopefiend has some buried deep-down repressed memory
of some sort of abuse or hurt or pain, or that old standby ptsd
(i call bullshit on folks who say they have ptsd and have no visible scars... fuckin fakers)
me, i started getting high (crystal meth and weed) because it looked fun and interesting
and then i discovered it was even more fun and interesting than i suspected
then i didn't want to stop...
my excuse for getting high was, because i fuckin' can!
If i wasnt a father my main excuse would be, coz i enjoy it....
But it has a knock on effect if i get too much of a nod on.....Hence the yo yo using....Cant be a selfish dad, but all junkies are selfish right? I fuckin wish, then i could just have my stash, buy a flash motor and say fuck em all............................................... ..............
And boot in the sunshine all day long....
Princess
08-20-2008, 05:43 AM
My excuse is pain.. I am a chronic pain patient so that works for me. When I take more than I'm supposed to, I say "I'm having a bad pain day". The shitty part is that when I really AM having a bad pain day, I have to take like triple the regular amount to get any pain relief. *sigh*
I like Shelley's reasoning though... I say that's a close second for me, Because I fucking can too!!
I also have to say that I disagree with the selfish thing. I'm the least selfish mother EVER. I may spend one extra minute in the bathroom, etc. but my son ALWAYS comes first.
The only selfish part, I suppose is, they're my fuckin' drugs and I ain't sharing!!! :D
upstate_007
08-20-2008, 06:22 AM
But i just wonder how many guys think of or use some excuse to get high?.....And i gotta stop typin or i am gonna wind myself up and fly out the door:rolleyes::o.......It is what it is....But i like it...............
I hear ya Raz. It don't take much to convince me to go the wrong way. Any ol excuse will do. Its payday, my tooth hurts, its Friday, its nice out, i'm in love, the clouds are rolling in, I deserve it........and so on.
Take care of them ribs my man. I know how painful that can be. And 6 against 1? Fuck them. Let them come at ya one at a time next time.
OxyQueen
08-20-2008, 06:46 AM
OH ANY FUCKIN EXCUSE is right! ANY! the kids r on my nerves, the kids r all out, the hubby is on a binge, why shouldn't i, i have a headache, my RA is acting up, the vacuum just broke lol....just any dam thing...there's always SOME reason for me to use if i make my mind up. I am at one of those points today. I've been on subs for about 9 days, but only done a total of about 8 mg in that time. And i've got some percs, and am making every dam excuse in my head to use them today. I am sure at this point i probably WILL at some time today, cuz when i woke it was the first thing i thought of.....i guess its called a craving...i don't do WELL with cravings! ;) LOL
^^^ your post made me laff.....Fuckin vacum aint workin, gimme some gear!!!Nice one...;)
lolleedee
08-20-2008, 09:26 AM
OH ANY FUCKIN EXCUSE is right! ANY! the kids r on my nerves, the kids r all out, the hubby is on a binge, why shouldn't i, i have a headache, my RA is acting up, the vacuum just broke lol....just any dam thing...there's always SOME reason for me to use if i make my mind up. I am at one of those points today. I've been on subs for about 9 days, but only done a total of about 8 mg in that time. And i've got some percs, and am making every dam excuse in my head to use them today. I am sure at this point i probably WILL at some time today, cuz when i woke it was the first thing i thought of.....i guess its called a craving...i don't do WELL with cravings! ;) LOL
Hey there!! I can totally relate!!! I do use for chronic pain, but I also abuse it to get high. I too will use any excuse...I'm tired, I'm hungry(no calories in fent so that is good!!! LOL) I have to see my in-law(groooaaannnnn!!!!), my house is a mess, my house is clean, I'm bored, I'm busy, I broke a nail etc.!!!!
Badly Drawn Girl
08-20-2008, 09:47 AM
Oh yeah, excuses and bargaining are part of my game. (Bargaining as in "I'm going to take XYZ today but I won't take any tomorrow." ) I'm more likely to use when I'm angry. I've found that that is my biggest trigger.
Poppylvr
08-20-2008, 09:53 AM
i never bothered with an excuse
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my excuse for getting high was, because i fuckin' can!
AMEN SISTAH!!! Shelley, you nailed my reasoning. I got high because I wanted to.
My all time best reason: I had been having a period of being drug free - like 2-3 weeks. One day I asked the drug computer to dispense one percocet for my patient. The machine proceeded to dispense 3 percocets and one 10 mg morphine syringe. I immediately realized that God was rewarding me for my previous weeks of avoiding drugs and offering me this free gift. Naturally, I immediately booted up the morphine & swallowed the 2 extra percs and gave my patient her perc and we were all just swell.
^^^ your post made me laff.....Fuckin vacum aint workin, gimme some gear!!!Nice one...;)
Made me laugh too....Oh no,the vacuum ain't working,I HAVE to get high.
Narkotikon
08-20-2008, 10:05 AM
Work sucks, family is on my nerves, I'm mad at the world, because I can and I want to, because I have money to, I'm anxious, I'm depressed, I need to calm down, I need to be able to function, I need to use to feel happy, I need it because I'm an addict, I need it because I have a disease, too much stress from..., people are pissing me off, I'm bored, I'm lonely, I'm sick, my legs hurt, my eyes are so dilated everything looks 3-D like a video game, it's a nice day, it's a bad day.
There are just way way too many excuses. You can never run out of excuses because everything is an excuse.
SeVeN
08-20-2008, 10:28 AM
Lets see......... Just this one more time. I've been doing great I deserve a break. Oh hell just for old times sake. Why not. All these and more excuses.
upstate_007
08-20-2008, 10:44 AM
my eyes are so dilated everything looks 3-D like a video game
Exactly. I left to go get some lunch and when I stepped outside it felt like someone switched on a thousand floodlights. Real fuckin disorienting. Everything was too bright and objects had a glow around them. Fuck it. I stayed indside.
red26
08-20-2008, 02:37 PM
My own favorite excuse was going to drug court. "Well Im in the neighborhood, might as well give so-and-so a call and get stoned before I go back to reality."
marshalldylan1
08-20-2008, 03:50 PM
LOL, I get the 3D vision too. Withdrawing makes me trip out sometimes!
Any excuse I can think of is usually good enough for me to use again. Any!
limitless_euphoria
08-20-2008, 10:13 PM
Well, I'm finally clean and I've had quite a haul over the past five years. I've been doing dope since 2003 and coke since 1999. For a while over the past few months I was doing coke and heroin together (although I was too chicken shit to shoot a speedball). I liked railing my coke and shooting my dope IV/IM. As far as justification, it goes a little something like this...
I've always had an inferiority complex. Even though I find my wife physically attractive I've always been jealous of my male friends who've got game and who get laid by hot girls on a regular basis. I compensated by doing a lot of drugs and paying for sex using either money and/or drugs to bed the girls I wouldn't otherwise be in the running to bed. I'm also pretty good at throwing and endulging in my own pity party. Not to mention I've always figured the H helped with my bipolar disorder. With my head stuck up my ass I guess I made all these pathetic excuses for myself and now that I've managed to get my head OUT of MY ASS I'm noticing that I've had good friends after all; what's more, my family loves me and needs me! Who would have thought?
I've gotten compliments about turning from a pale blue to a more natural looking color; I've been told when I walk I look a little more upbeat; I've also been told as far as me playing music I sound so much more cohesive without the dope. I think my friends know how to work me mentally because it's positivity like the aforementioned that keeps me going strong. Right now, my resolve to keep off the smack, the coke, the booze and narcotic pharmies is good. I still smoke the green because as far as I'm concerned everything in my life was good when all I did was smoke pot. My bills were paid; my living conditions were good; what's more, as much as I am a pothead if it's not there I might be edgy for a little while but I get over it. Whereas, when I was physically dependent on dope or strung out on a coke run life always seemed to spiral out of control.
It's just a shame that my eyes couldn't have been opened sooner. Some might argue that if it's my true intent to stay clean, even if I have to tolerate mild to moderate pain in my back and knees, that I should stay away from watching people use drugs and I should not use sites like this. To that notion I say, fuck that! I feel at home here whether or not I'm using. Please note that I'm not preaching sobriety here, I'm simply talking about the path that is working the best for yours truly at the moment. I'm always subject to relapse which scares the hell out of me but "taking it one day at a time" works if you really work it hard.
P.S. One to two weeks clean I've done many a time. It's a few months from now that I worry about!
SurfRat
08-20-2008, 11:45 PM
Helps me communicate.
butane
08-21-2008, 03:21 PM
There are many good reasons but I only really need two:
My back hurts, three years of chiropractic and it's not healing fast enough.
And so I'm not a complete douche bag to everyone.
The_Highwayman
08-21-2008, 04:00 PM
I would tell people if they had another way I could immediately "cure" my depression and bring some light back into my life I would be glad to try it..but until they did..LEAVE ME ALONE!!! with my rig....
savethedogs
08-21-2008, 06:15 PM
I have only ever had to give an excuse to two people... What's my excuse? Hmm... I don't know... but while I think of one...
What's YOUR excuse for being a loser?
And what's YOUR excuse for being a fucking alcoholic?
Better yet, what's your excuse for being the most obvious god damn hypocrite I've ever seen in my life?
An addict is an addict, ass hole, you're just lucky your addiction is legal.
Eat shit.
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