Not even close Mayo

[Mayo]

You're never going to make it...how true...lmao, or more like puke and wish for a quick death.

I was supposed to taper with my last 4g's, but of course I waited till the last one,
ooops.

And my connect, my only one, is many hours away.

So I knew trouble was coming, ordered pods, H, even kratom.

Ran out of H Thursday, only thing arrived was kratom, FUCK ME that stuff didn't do anything but make me
puke yellow bile and shoot liquid fire out of my ass.

OK, just hurled on my keyboard, damn. Well I screwed up bad obviously, the end.

[nick]

You should have listened to the website bro.When they say "keep an eye on your supply", they ain't kidding.

I hope your pain passes quickly.

[clinton]

When do your pods arrive?
do you know where you can find a lb of good seeds? It saved me

[Westside]

When do your pods arrive?
do you know where you can find a lb of good seeds? It saved me

never seen seeds for sale by the lb, only pods. is this a normal thing, to find where the pods are usually offered?

[clinton]

usually a good herb shop will offer poppy seeds in large qtys ...
a lb costs me around eight dollars

[Duckfeet]

If it gets *really* bad, google up on "kidney stones", so u know the symptoms, go to ER, cry yell moan, and then prick yer finger for a drop of blood to put in the piss samle they'll want...

Yeah, it's a pain in the ass, and hours out of yer life...but again, if u get *really* sick, this never fails to get me a dilaudid shot...and all of a sudden, laying there in some little hole in the ER...I suddenly feel whole, happy, and human again...

Best wishes

[EleusisII]

Or look up epididimitys, and you don't even need to prick your finger.... Backpain works too...

[Mayo]

Thanks for the info everybody. There's no way I'm going anywhere right now unless
its in an ambulance. I'll just have to deal with it, and pray for sweet relief. Not being able to keep anything down, even water, is my main concern at the moment.
I really fucked myself this time, there won't be a next if I have any sense at all.

[Duckfeet]

Yep, that's usually what I do to, maybe get a movie or a book, lay low...it passes, and you'll feel better again....hope that's soon...


Thanks for the info everybody. There's no way I'm going anywhere right now unless
its in an ambulance. I'll just have to deal with it, and pray for sweet relief. Not being able to keep anything down, even water, is my main concern at the moment.
I really fucked myself this time, there won't be a next if I have any sense at all.

[Mayo]

I had some tramadol too, as I think I've heard some say its usefull in w/d.
But I'm understanding Roxi's insistance more now, as I think it actually made
w/d much worse due to the serotonin action.

I dug through my meds and found Zofran, a 5-HT3 blocker, and I'm feeling much better.
No more puking and RLS anyway, which is nice.

Bad bad junky, not to have propper backups around. And to think I threw out a vial with
5ml/0.3mg per buprenorphine HCl just 3-4 weeks ago because it was expired!
That has saved my ass several times with just 1ml IV. dumbass, and suffering as a result.
But having it around just reminded me too much of my recently dead pet, so I pitched it.

I appreciate everyones kind words / info, it really means alot :o. yes thats the embarrassment face, for I feel like a fool.

Just FYI,
tramadol = no help or worse.
kratom = no help or worse
poppy seed tea (1lb) = no help, but maybe bad seeds? water was very cloudy tho.
Zofran = lots of help
xanax = at least I slept
clonidine = help the first day or two while I took it, but it still sucks.

We all differ of course, but if severe nausea is a big problem, and you don't have access
to real opioids, try Zofran. It helped me a lot.

I wish peace and no bad w/d to you all.

[nick]

Thanks for the info everybody. There's no way I'm going anywhere right now unless
its in an ambulance. I'll just have to deal with it, and pray for sweet relief. Not being able to keep anything down, even water, is my main concern at the moment.
I really fucked myself this time, there won't be a next if I have any sense at all.

Sadly sense has little to do with it man.


Oh and you're not a fool.

[Dan Steely]

Sorry you're bummin Mayo. Don't be hatin on yourself. It's just part of this game. We all do it to ourselves at some point. Hang in there. It doesn't last forever.

[baysteve]

in the same boat as you mayo...wish i woulda listened to the login wisdom...

[EleusisII]

Heh, if you ask me, the fine line between using/being dependent on a drug and being addicted, is when you start to get that little voice that says: Go ahead, take another hit, you'll work something out tomorrow.

[OxyQueen]

Heh, if you ask me, the fine line between using/being dependent on a drug and being addicted, is when you start to get that little voice that says: Go ahead, take another hit, you'll work something out tomorrow.

I HATE that fuckin voice in my head. It ALWAYS makes me do all my shit consistently until its GONE!Definitely an addict

[frankie]

If it gets *really* bad, google up on "kidney stones", so u know the symptoms, go to ER, cry yell moan, and then prick yer finger for a drop of blood to put in the piss samle they'll want...

Yeah, it's a pain in the ass, and hours out of yer life...but again, if u get *really* sick, this never fails to get me a dilaudid shot...and all of a sudden, laying there in some little hole in the ER...I suddenly feel whole, happy, and human again...

Best wishes
This is what i have done in the past first it was go to the dentist in really bad pain, but all i would walk outta there is with vikes, now if it got that bad i would head for the ER, and since i have a brain anyureusm, i never have any problems...

hope you feel better soon

[cg5]

get ready for the worst sleeps of your life.. man i dont really get withdrawls seriously bad.. i just stopped after my 3 week 400mg OC a day habit...only thing is that i cannot sleep if i tried my hardest...other than that nothing much... mayo youl be feeling better soon.. i dont understand why dont u just go grab some shheeet?

[Mayo]

Hey you opiophiles.
Just a note to my online kin.

Got my H and pods last Monday (a week ago), after 4 days of w/d.
Fushed the H - SORRY!(as I was sweating bullets), and made some PT to taper.
8 pods brought me to normal and then some (a real suprise), been tapering ever since.

Brewed 20, reduced it to a putty, then diluted it to 1 pod per ml..
It hasn't been easy, but I don't crave pod tea at all, so thats a real plus.
(and it scares the shit out of me, so I sometimes taper much too fast and get bad w/d)

Man, for a few years I could control my H use to keep this G*d damn mixed state
shit away, but no more. No BP meds ever worked for me unfortunately, this was my last option.

Life stresses increased bigtime recently, (moved, new job) and my H use got out of hand.

This was my fourth w/d, and it just gets worse every time.
I'm a total pussy, hate being real sick. But I don't want to mess with 'done or bupe
for tapering. Pod tea seems like a better option.

I'll be around later, especially when I can think of H without having to slap
my face as hard as I can to divert my attention (fuck it, it works great for me).
Its been 11 days, and if I don't stop it fast, I'll still start to sweat just
thinking of a shot. It really sucks.
But, to quote The Crystal Method, thats the name of the game.

Funny, my fellow lab rats have inquired as to the hand print on my face several times.
No, I say, its just the outline of my new mask (we work in cleanroom conditions).

Well, peace to you all, and Take Care of Yourselves!


Mayo
workin to save everyones life in fuckin Rochester, MN