mood swings?

[pippin]

OK, so I ended up in the ER because my legs and back started acting up more than usual. MUCH MORE than usual. I had taken 4 of the 7.5 norcos and still didn't get any relief. fuck being high, that's not what my goal was.. my goal was to be able to walk to the bathroom. So I called my doc and he told me to go to the ER, and after some bullshit there I got a shot of morphine (that I couldn't even feel, and still left me in pain) and 16 10/650 percocets. THe percs lasted me 2 days. The day after I had taken all the percs and they were leaving my system I flew off the emotional handle. I mean this was PMS times a million. My husband and roomate went to see Indiana Jones without me (mom wouldn't watch little tyke) which would normally just piss me off. And I mean under normal circumstances this would piss me off enough to start a major tantrum, but it was worse than that. I felt like I honestly could've killed him. I took 2 30mg morphines and felt stable for 3 hours, and then I flew off the handle again uncontrollably. I hated everyone and everything, I didn't even want to be around my own child which is really really not normal for me. I had absolutely NO CONTROL over my emotions feelings or actions. It was horrible. I've never experienced this with morphine or hydro or dilaudid. And I did have a fair amount of morphine in me, so it wasn't just pure withdrawals. Has anyone else felt this after taking oxycodone?

[JonnyMohawk]

Yep oxycodone messes with my emotions big time. The littlest things used to make me bawl when I was taking almost everyday.

For example my girlfriend at the time would get mad at me then I would start crying telling her that I try but Im not good enough for her.

Acting like that is totally not like me just for the record.

I believe a whole thread was created a while back about the emotional side effects of oxy.

I can't find it at this moment but I will keep looking.

[pippin]

thanks johnnnymohawk I found a few of the posts but they're more about the withdrawals and the depression that being out of oxy causes. That wasn't the case here... it was just weird. I'm still quite off today I must say, took an extra cymbalta and am making tea... hopefully this will pass.

[paroxetina]

I'm not sure I'd call it a mood swing, but I'm definitely quite irritable when I'm on hydro or oxy. It doesn't really happen to me on dilaudid or fent. For me, the irritation happens after I've been high for a few hours but it's not tied to withdrawal.

[clinton]

whenever I took hydro or oxy for extended periods of time I would get the same irritability... I'm not a an angry person but for some reason these drugs made me irrationally moody and angry...I thought it was just me
I don't get this with pods...
this is an interesting topic, I'm interested in what people have to say, I'm also more interested in an answer... Does anyone know why?

[pippin]

it's never happened with me with hydro, pods or morphine. And I do have to admit I have one helluva temper (100% italian ancestry ;), and mostly sicilian at that :eek:) so it's not like I got mad at something that I wouldn't have been mad at to begin with, but I was 10 times angrier than I would have been under normal circumstances. Not only that but I started feeling like I did in the months after my son was born when I had HORRIBLE post partum depression and wanted to hurt myself. Thank god I haven't felt that way in months, but at that point I realized it wasn't me controlling myself. So far I've taken an extra cymbalta and IVed 60mg of morphine through out the day (low supply) and have some pod tea simmering to try and keep things from boiling over on me. I hate feeling this way.

To top it all off little tyke is cutting molars and I had to have my mom come and get him because I just couldn't do it today. I rarely lose it with him, and I found myself on the floor bawling in hysterics with him (I'm sure at a different time, this'd be a funny image to me) I dunno.. I'm definately gonna take it easy.

Also I just remembered that day before yesterday is when I started taking the 60mg cymbalta's from the 30mg ones. (doc's orders) so maybe the cymbalta is playing a part in all of this. I dunno.. I hate feeling like this tho.

[God_Albino]

oxy and fentanyl used to turn me into the biggest fucking dick, id just tear into everyone around me, i'm not an angry fella by any means, even speed/coke binges never did that.

my mood's only affected now when i'm kicking, i cry like a lil bitch at commercials or shit on tv

[Synack]

uh, welcome to pain?

[Saint]

uh, welcome to pain?

Constant pain is what makes me irritable and even outrageously unreasonable a times.
Isn't the pain the cause of your depression and moodswings? Maybe you are undermedicated..?

[pippin]

synack and saint I am extremely positive that I am highly undermedicated. and I think you guys might actually be right smack dab on the nose... living in constant pain for over a year and half now has just eaten away at me. I try not to take it out on the people around me, and I usually don't let my pain effect my emotions, but I think it finally is.

Saint, I have battled with depression and disorders through most of my life. But I have never had it effect me in the way that it is now. So in that sense, yes you are extremely correct.

I was looking for an outside source that'd make me behave the way I did.. but at this point I think it's a combination of all the above factors. Thank you so much to the people who have replied and helped me come to some sort of answer.

[Saint]

synack and saint I am extremely positive that I am highly undermedicated. and I think you guys might actually be right smack dab on the nose... living in constant pain for over a year and half now has just eaten away at me. I try not to take it out on the people around me, and I usually don't let my pain effect my emotions, but I think it finally is.

Saint, I have battled with depression and disorders through most of my life. But I have never had it effect me in the way that it is now. So in that sense, yes you are extremely correct.

I was looking for an outside source that'd make me behave the way I did.. but at this point I think it's a combination of all the above factors. Thank you so much to the people who have replied and helped me come to some sort of answer.

You're welcome Pippin. I know for one that I am a different person when my pain is either gone or manageable. I hope you'll feel better soon and/or get better meds. After all we can only take so much..

[Raz]

I think you is under medicated...Pain can make you do some miserable/crazy things...
When i had the bolts hanging outta my leg and was in some serious pain it used to make me so miserable....So much so that i used to have to smoke some smack to just take away my pain....
Pain sucks, talk to your Dr....

[pippin]

I know I need to talk to him. But I get so shy, this doc has known me since I was a year old, and I respect him alot. I don't want to disapoint him or make him think I'm taking advantage of him, like when I called his office after hours and was transfered to his cell the day he told me to go to the ER. But I have an appointment on thursday and we'll see how it goes from there.

My son has gained 3 lbs in the past 2 weeks and I'm having a harder and harder time holding him.. I'm thinking that that has alot to do with my emotions also. It's shitty to be a mom who can't pick up her own baby. I will tell the doc all of this on thurday, and you can all beat me if I don't. ;) becareful tho.. cause I might like it, lol

[Young Professor]

Yep.....It's a combination of the pain and the Oxy. The pain screws with your hormone levels and the reason why Oxy is so abused is that it has powerful effects on people. Fast in and fast out. It can elevate the hell out of someone, but drop them like a rock too. Comin down off of Oxy can make you short tempered and anxious. It's best to follow it up with something else to drown it out.

Sorry to hear about your pain. From what I hear these days about ERs, your lucky you got any meds. I guess because you were straight up with them and said your Doc sent you there....Being your an established PM person.

Good luck at your next appt.

YP

[WarmCyanide]

instead of starting a new thread i'll just bump this one. Oxy. Oxy. Oxy. high right now but it's an angry high. irritable. i just lit one of my friends up wtf? just waiting for kpin to kick in but i'm just frightened i cant do this shit anymore. but it's got more teeth than hydro. piss moan bitch rage fuck shit damn!

[xxTwistedElegancexx]

Opiates have turned me into a miserable bitch. I have a high level or irrability when I'm on them and even when I'm not. I'm not physically addicted to opiates (Was for about a year) But I find with the stronger the meds the more irritable I can become. I had surgery about a month ago and since I have a high tolerance for opiates they were pumpin me left and right wit shit. I was such a cunt that I'm suprised my mom and dad's girlfriend didn't just leave me there. I was SO angry and was takin it out on anybody for any little thing. I was ready to kill someone if they even looked at me wrong. It just effects some people differently.