Opiyum
06-19-2008, 01:57 AM
So I have been planing on discontinuing my use of suboxone (and all other opiates) this summer for some time now. Now here I am, it's summer, and I'm not terribly excited about life. July isn't going to work because of a move and I have a big welding test mid july that I am preparing for. So it's looking to me like it's going to be august.
So I have begun lowering my dose of subs and have doing my best not to use at all in between appointments with some success. I am now at 1mg in the morning and 1mg at night and think that's about as far as I'm going to go.
My plan, thus far, is to ween down to as little as possible on the subs and come august I will stop using them all together. At which point I'm going to go on a one to two week binge of mostly oxy but most likely some Heroin because of cost. Once that runs out Im going to just kick like I used to in the old days. I kicked bupe once and didn't much like it. I can deal with three or four intense days of WD's if it means Im not in mild WD's for a month and Im hoping to avoid that by doing this. The only thing I haven't decided on is whether I am going to check into a rehab for the detox or if I'm going to just do it myself at my house.
If I were to go to rehab I would only stay for the detox itself and then possibly a week doing the group thing. After that I would try to go a little vacation or camping trip and hope that after that week I would be ready to go back to work when it becomes available come the beggining of september.
This is normally how I operate, with all the planning ahead that is, and I hope I can follow it for the most part. I'm not worried about not being able to stop the binge after it starts. I simply won't be able to afford to keep going and am not in a mind set in which I will shoot myself out of house and home. I think I'm past that at least for the time being. I very commited to a year or two of little to absolutely no opiate use.
So I wonder what if anything people think of this plan and whether avoiding the bupe detox will work with a two week binge with a full agonist?
So I have begun lowering my dose of subs and have doing my best not to use at all in between appointments with some success. I am now at 1mg in the morning and 1mg at night and think that's about as far as I'm going to go.
My plan, thus far, is to ween down to as little as possible on the subs and come august I will stop using them all together. At which point I'm going to go on a one to two week binge of mostly oxy but most likely some Heroin because of cost. Once that runs out Im going to just kick like I used to in the old days. I kicked bupe once and didn't much like it. I can deal with three or four intense days of WD's if it means Im not in mild WD's for a month and Im hoping to avoid that by doing this. The only thing I haven't decided on is whether I am going to check into a rehab for the detox or if I'm going to just do it myself at my house.
If I were to go to rehab I would only stay for the detox itself and then possibly a week doing the group thing. After that I would try to go a little vacation or camping trip and hope that after that week I would be ready to go back to work when it becomes available come the beggining of september.
This is normally how I operate, with all the planning ahead that is, and I hope I can follow it for the most part. I'm not worried about not being able to stop the binge after it starts. I simply won't be able to afford to keep going and am not in a mind set in which I will shoot myself out of house and home. I think I'm past that at least for the time being. I very commited to a year or two of little to absolutely no opiate use.
So I wonder what if anything people think of this plan and whether avoiding the bupe detox will work with a two week binge with a full agonist?