just when you think youre done kicking...

[jonny-5]

so im comming to the end of day 3, no heroin, on subs, so im feeling 90 percent normal. or so i thought.
so how come im watching the first 10 minutes of the movie "without a paddle," and its making me cry like a little bitch?

god i hate "feeling" things.

this prolly should have been in the piss and moan but fuckit.

im sure others can relate to this.

[reddragon3668]

Man, I feel for you. I know exactly what your talking about too. When I was coming off of methadone, I found out just how much the 'done kept my emotions in check. I would frickin' just start crying for nothing... I mean, the damn wind would blow the wrong way and I would cry. It made me think about shit I hadn't thought of in years. It was horrible.

I do hope it gets better soon. Try and hang in there!

[jonny-5]

ya thanx man i think it has a lot to do with the fact of what the movie is about, 4 childhood best friends who are now 30 and one of them died, i guess it just kind of hit a soft spot cause i value my friends more than anything, and esp. the ones who are no longer around. itll get better.

[jdub]

After I got outta rehab, I used to cry when I watched MTV Made. Don't tell anyone.

[trainwrecker]

Dude, when I was on the methadone out in Seattle my emotions where kept in such a tight jar by that shit. I would have dreams nearly everynight where I would just wail like a baby. I mean crying with every bit of rage/sadness/whatever that I hadn't really felt in so many years. It was disturbing, nearly everytime I went to sleep I would have thoes dreams.

Now that I'm on subbox it is pretty well regulated. It numbs me just enough so real emotion still has a place and I don't need to experience them only in dreams...

Good luck man, I'm glad to hear you are doing this.

[zenpunk]

oh yeah...been there, to me that was worse than the kick.

[motts]

Ya dude I can totally relate. It's crazy when your REALLY coming off a nice binge, and you have not felt anything for a couple months. Watching the most subtle things makes me cry like a baby, craziness.

You will make it through man, keep your day up and congrats on the 3 days, we all know how tough this cycle of addiction / recreation is man.

[D-BoyJake]

so im comming to the end of day 3, no heroin, on subs, so im feeling 90 percent normal. or so i thought.
so how come im watching the first 10 minutes of the movie "without a paddle," and its making me cry like a little bitch?

god i hate "feeling" things.

this prolly should have been in the piss and moan but fuckit.

im sure others can relate to this.

Hell dude, I'd cry at the start of that movie even if I was high. I love Seth Green, but Matthew Lillard and Dax Shepard? Painful enough to watch them by themselves. Put them together and it hurts enough to cry.

I think I've felt that way towards Lillard since SLC Punk! (can't forget the !)! pissed me off.

[Black_Pony]

Oh fuck, man! I hate that.

I have to get up and go smoke a cigarette just to compose myself, sometimes. Any song or movie scene that evokes the slighest emotional response, good or bad, and I can feel tears welling up.

Annoying as fuck.

[donethat]

almost anything fucks me up emotionally. i could fucking leave this town for good and forget anyone behind just to be alone safe and actually happy. i need it and nothing else works. i also have no source of income so anythign i get is gold. life is a piece of shit and not many people care for junkies and dont understand the bullshit they have to go through. i have friends who dont even have a clue what is going to happen to them and its gonna hurt more. see what i mean. writing this amkes me bawl tears knowing im not going to be anything but a hobo layin in the city with my arms stickign out begging people to suck their toes for a slam. a lot of people have it easy where as nobody will hire me what so ever. tired everywhere ya know? i know you know how we all feel and its hard jumping through the loop of fire. anything to stay alive man you have to do everything you can. peace swims

[Nate]

I am with ya right now bro, just finished a nice dillie run and its time to get clean again. Every binge reminds me how much happier I am on the dope, and when its time to get sober, every emotion comes at you like a ton of bricks, not to mention every tiny muscle ache or pain.

I also get so hung up that I having nothing, and I miss that feeling of a nice shot. I can definetly say that starting to shoot definetly makes the fiend ALOT worse, cause the shit is so much sweeter in a rig.

Feeling ok at the moment, found some tramadol, surprised at how much it is helping, plus im smoking lots of weed, but I am so down too bro :(