H in Indiana/Midwest?

[mike]

I hear every so often shit comes down from Chicago, either powder bags that are taxed to hell at either 15-20 a pop or black tar that ranges from good to straight up garbage from what I hear.

It just makes more sense to make the 1500+ mile round trip to go to NJ to pick up the real raw for $250 a brick.


What's going on in the midwest? Louisville, Cincinnati, Indianapolis (I know they have a needle exchange but the phone number doesnt work, they also have a methadone clinic as well as one in Gary indiana (too far))

Can't wait to get out of this shithole in 4 months. I can't stand the pain from this inoperable (without a feeding tube "hey you got 9 months to live asshole" oesophageal cancer (so fucking rare too :( ) or whats looking like more health problems. Fuck even just a good neurologist or a Dr. or PM clinic to go to would be great. Morphine, oxies, dillies, etc. are impossible to come by and expensive as fuck even when hey are around. I just wish they had a methadone clinic within an hour and a half of me).

Any thoughts or suggestions? Besides the obligatory "ask a hooker or bum" answer. Anyone with actual street experience in these cities? I've had experiences in the worst areas of Chicago, Paterson NJ, Lockhead, Skid Row, Newark, etc. etc. so I'm not too scared.

[jimmyfingers]

whats good mike
i used to live up in newark and jersey city.
it sounds like you pretty much know what to do if your going to jersery.
you could just drive around somebody will flag you down if your white, and try to go right before it gets dark.
i dont blame you for wanting to make that drive, shit i live in the atl now and sometimes consider driving up there for a couple of bricks. its good shit and pretty cheap. let me know if you got any questions or if you need more particulars

[mike]

whats good mike
i used to live up in newark and jersey city.
it sounds like you pretty much know what to do if your going to jersery.
you could just drive around somebody will flag you down if your white, and try to go right before it gets dark.
i dont blame you for wanting to make that drive, shit i live in the atl now and sometimes consider driving up there for a couple of bricks. its good shit and pretty cheap. let me know if you got any questions or if you need more particulars


no particulars needed, probably not good for the site anyway, i got a guy for the last 3 years, most professional ive ever seen. always a top quality product, professionally packaged , sample bags and a 1-2-3 transaction at a car window handing an envelope of money for a box of bricks) since there's absolutely nothing around here but $25 roxi 30's and $60-80 oc 80s im miserable. my $5 dilaudid 8mg and mscontin 100mg is locked up until next month, i'm dying.

this cancer is killing me, im ready to go to the hospital and i got a neurologist appointment to try and get some fent patches for legit use, my body is so fucked up im going to be dead by july the doctors are saying. so im trying to not hurt so bad until then, gonna travel and shoot up all i want. hopefully ill live, im a fighter.

about ready to shoot some suboxone just dont want the blocking effect to last too long, i just last shot an oc 80 about 12-13 hours ago and i shoot at least 150mg roxi a day, but only had 1 80 today, do you think i'd be good to do a 2mg shot and not go into precipitated withdrawal? I'm not feeling sick, just bored; but I'll be dying again in like 2 hours, please all pray for me, cancer of the oesophageas is no too much fun,

[jimmyfingers]

man im sorry to hear about your cancer.

im sure your in a lot of pain

why dont you just find a good pm doc

they would definalty hook you up

[jdub]

man im sorry to hear about your cancer.

im sure your in a lot of pain

why dont you just find a good pm doc

they would definalty hook you up

Agreed. About the only good thing that comes from cancer is bad-add pain killer scripts

[Dances with Smack]

Hey Mike...

What a fucked situation. :(

I'm sure you hear "sorry" all the time...what's it mean after the millionth, right?

You must be in the middle of bumfuck farm country...even then there'd be shitloads of old folks around that would sell their 'scripts for more reasonable prices...you would think?

With all you have going on with ya, you're not seeing any doc where you are? NOT having a PM doc around to refer to does not excuse him/her from helping you out. Your case is inoperable/terminal, so NO one should be concerned about making a legal junkie outta you.

Whatever you decide to do, whether it's pester your doc or making a road trip to Jersey, I wish you more "better" days than not.

Take care.

[jdub]

Agreed. About the only good thing that comes from cancer is bad-add pain killer scripts

I meant bad-ass. Sorry that post was before my coffee.

[StealSmoke]

sorry to hear about your cancer bro, hope everythign works out for the better. I had cancer when I was like 13, it was not real major though a year of chemo and a little bit of radiation and I was good wiht an 80% chance of it not returning, so I know that shit can be a bitch, that was the worst year of my life.

but I don't know if you should do heroin, or atleast not habitually, because I would think that it would lower your body's natural healing processes and immune system, so maybe it would lower your chances o surviving?

I don't know, anyway, best of luck, and if you do decide to stop by chicago believe you me there's a whole lot of places you can go.

[20Dollarholla]

Your in a tight spot man, legit pain and doctors too scared of the DEA to help ya. This is the situation the war on drugs has created. If you look for a PM doctor try and find one from a different country that has moved here. In my experience these are the doctors that will write out scripts that actually help. When the DEA cracks down on these doc's they just go back to their original countries. My mom had a Russian Dr. for PM, he made the final years of her life semi-bearable by perscribing 240 1600mcg fent suckers a month, and 40mg Oxy as well.

With having such a legit and rare disease I'm sure with some searching you could find a good PM doctor, but by the time you do, you might not have much time left. If you want to travel, do it, live your life, its yours to live. Like you said go to NJ pick up as much as you think you'll need for a month (if you have the money) and make the trip every month. If you dont have much time left tou might as well be happy, high, and satisfied. Your not going to get that from a PM doctor ever, so I say go for it. Its your life, spend the rest of it how you want, no regrets man.

Good luck, and happy hunting.

[jdub]

Your in a tight spot man, legit pain and doctors too scared of the DEA to help ya. This is the situation the war on drugs has created. If you look for a PM doctor try and find one from a different country that has moved here. In my experience these are the doctors that will write out scripts that actually help. When the DEA cracks down on these doc's they just go back to their original countries. My mom had a Russian Dr. for PM, he made the final years of her life semi-bearable by perscribing 240 1600mcg fent suckers a month, and 40mg Oxy as well.

With having such a legit and rare disease I'm sure with some searching you could find a good PM doctor, but by the time you do, you might not have much time left. If you want to travel, do it, live your life, its yours to live. Like you said go to NJ pick up as much as you think you'll need for a month (if you have the money) and make the trip every month. If you dont have much time left tou might as well be happy, high, and satisfied. Your not going to get that from a PM doctor ever, so I say go for it. Its your life, spend the rest of it how you want, no regrets man.

Good luck, and happy hunting.

I agree to a point. You should definitely try to get relief from a Dr. first. I think w/ your condition it won't be too hard. You will at least get something. My best friends dad recently passed away from lung cancer. He was presribed liquid morphine, liquid OC's, fent patches and suckers, dilaudid, morph, and OC pills. I honestly am surprised the doctor that diagnosed your condition didn't prescribe anything. Maybe you should call him and ask.

If you need additional relief and want to hit the streets, try and make sure if you are busted, you won't spend an inordinate amount of time in jail.

So make sure you don't have unrelated warrants in your name, make sure you have a way to make bail, try and cop in a more lenient city/state. Your time is limited. No reason to spend those precious moments in a cell.

[20Dollarholla]

I cant see him doing time if he got pinched, it would cost the state too much $$ for his treatment, besides if he only has a few months left it wouldnt even make it past arraignment before he passed away, and for a possession, even in bulk I dont see why he wouldnt get an OR bond to be released if he got pinched.

I wouldnt give a fuck about the laws if my time was limited. I wouldnt do anything that they could hold me without bail, like kill someone, but as for dope, like I said it wouldnt ever make it to trial.

So Mike it seems like you have accepted your fate, and realized there is nothin you can do about it, but keep your dignity throughout it. If things are already squared away and everything is settled as far as the major decisions you dont want your family having to make after your gone, live it up. You deserve it.

Not one of us can imagine whats going through his head, so I cant accurately give any valuable advice except for him to do what he wants, and if getting high and keeping the pain away is it then more power to him.

[AlteK]

That is a really shitty situation Mike. I know if I had a terminal illness/ailment, I would be getting high every day multiple times. You probably are in a lot of pain, so it would definetly help out. There is no way I am going out of this world sober. I will be withdrawing in my casket at my funeral. I would make that trip to NJ to get the good stuff. You already know. I hope you do everything you want with life and be safe. Stay high. :o

[mike]

Thank you all for the kind words. I thankfully have found a doctor who is compassionately and legally treating my needs. The pain is still very much real and the idea that I guess I only have a few months left is really starting to set in. I'm fortunate enough to be surrounded by loved ones who support me and while I have always enjoyed opiates, they now only serve to exist as a means to kill the pain for a few hours so I can get some relief and take my mind off the fact that I'm literally wasting away. Just real hard to go and get up and go to the grocery store, the bank, etc. when every moment of my life is lived with the thought of death lurking in the back of my mind. It's now consuming all my thoughts which is making the pain even more unbearable. Fuck. :(

Don't mean to depress anyone; apologies in advance. The only thing that hurts more than how I currently feel waking up in the morning is going to bed at night knowing that yet another day has passed thus bringing me closer to what's inevitable for all of us; it just really sucks when it's happening and you know it. Hopefully I'll have a couple of months longer than "summertime" estimates I'm currently receiving. Bless you all.

[jimmyfingers]

Mike,
Im glad you found a doctor that will write you the proper medications.
We are all going to die though, none of us know when our time is up,
I hope that you got a lot of good stuff.
I see a pm doc myself, but my problem is running out of my meds way to early

Make sure you try to conserve, so you don't run out in a week like I do
I would still take that trip to Jersey as well man

Good luck to you! I hope you are feeling better and not in too much pain, and not too down on yourself
I'm praying for you

Much love,
Jimmy Fingers

[1 Eyed Whyleeguy]

[quote=StealSmoke;246476]sorry to hear about your cancer bro, hope everythign works out

but I don't know if you should do heroin, or atleast not habitually, because I would think that it would lower your body's natural healing processes and immune system, so maybe it would lower your chances o surviving?

I've been on a staggering amount of pain meds thru 2 spinal fusions, at one point I was on 450 mics of fentanyl (thats 4-100s and a 50 at the same time) they covered most of my upper thigh, this with up to 8, 10/325 Norcos (Vicodin on steriods) for breakthrough. Then I lost Insurance coverage and had to switch to "sythetic heroin" AKA "methadone" and IR Morphine by the mouthfull. If you can't get enough dope from your doc, do whatcha gotta do. As far as heroin being bad for your system that's nonsense. What's bad for your system is the lifstyle that all too many junkies fall into (present company excluded I hope). The actual drug heroin is a fantastic analgesic and remarkably clean to boot. If it weren't schedule 4 it would likely be a common choice for advanced cancer patients. Just keep taking care of your needs as best you can. Get the nutrition and rest your body needs and stay on top of any other meds required by your condition. Be sure not to blow all your cash on dope though, gotta save a few bucks for "other" recreational outlets. The flesh is weak y'know. ;)