why the fuck do we do this??

[antony]

I know this is a stupid question especially from someone who loves the shit. But swims got exactly the number of zero contacts except his doc. so when swims out, swims fucked; like he is today, the day before and the day before that. now i know the wds are over soon, but after that, swim gets fucking evil thoughts of picking off a pharm or something stupid like that. swim won't ever do that, but counts down the seconds of next dr. appt in two weeks and it starts all over again. but now swim is condsidering stopping all together. but this is martini when he gets home from work, his cup of coffee in the morning and afternoon tea.

I've haven't been a big drinker, nor do i like smoking pot, uppers are fucking garbage, so what is swim to do???:(

[shaunclo]

I know this is a stupid question especially from someone who loves the shit. But swims got exactly the number of zero contacts except his doc. so when swims out, swims fucked; like he is today, the day before and the day before that. now i know the wds are over soon, but after that, swim gets fucking evil thoughts of picking off a pharm or something stupid like that. swim won't ever do that, but counts down the seconds of next dr. appt in two weeks and it starts all over again. but now swim is condsidering stopping all together. but this is martini when he gets home from work, his cup of coffee in the morning and afternoon tea.

I've haven't been a big drinker, nor do i like smoking pot, uppers are fucking garbage, so what is swim to do???:(

Welcome to the lovely world of doing opies, then running out, then doing opies, then running out, then doing opies, then running out.

Fuckin fun isnt it!!!

I dont care how good of a connect you have, or how plentiful it seems to be, there is going to be a day when something happens and you have to w/d because of it. I dont know one person who hasnt been stuck in this vicous cycle. Its just the way it is, you have to pay to play.........

[poppy]

Welcome to the lovely world of doing opies, then running out, then doing opies, then running out, then doing opies, then running out.

Fuckin fun isnt it!!!

I dont care how good of a connect you have, or how plentiful it seems to be, there is going to be a day when something happens and you have to w/d because of it. I dont know one person who hasnt been stuck in this vicous cycle. Its just the way it is, you have to pay to play.........

Shaunclo tells it like it is

[dissident]

yup, no matter how many times you go through wd you swear you'll never go there again.

the only thing a junky knows better than the feeling when you're fixed is the feeling of withdrawl...:magicshit

[poppy]

yup, no matter how many times you go through wd you swear you'll never go there again.

the only thing a junky knows better than the feeling when you're fixed is the feeling of withdrawl...:magicshit
Sad but oh so true!!

[antony]

i guess what im getting at cuz ive been going through this for 3-4 years now too, but why does opiates have such a bad stigma around it?
ive been to a pharm where ive had meds filled and asked the pharmacist if i had any refills, or i saved ten or 20 for my rainy days. "no mr. Joe Shmo" and the jag off turns his back on me and continues on with out asking if i needed anything else, just a fucking loser with a loser addiction and i should suffer my pain, because like everyone else that likes a different poison then scotch, gin, or vodka...just a low life junky that should fuckin rot


sorry, but these wds have been the worst in a few fuckin months, and i can't figure why they vary so much, when intake/dosage decreases, but length of having med increases.

sorry again as you can see very frusturated:mad:

[candyshop]

cuz we got no choice

[antigonemuse]

Pool Shark

Lying in my plastic bed,
Thinking how thinking how things wern’t so cool me.
My baby likes to shoot pool,
I like lying naked in my bedroom, tying off that dinosaur tonight,
It used to be so cool.
Now I’ve got that needle, I can shake, but I can’t bleed.
Take it away, but I want more and more.
One day I’m gonna loose the war.

***Bradley Knowles RIP

_________

I most often wonder why... After the withdrawels subside, and my mind has grown clear... When getting up in the morning is a simpler task... Then... ITS REFILL TIME

[antony]

I most often wonder why... After the withdrawels subside, and my mind has grown clear... When getting up in the morning is a simpler task... Then... ITS REFILL TIME

yea, feel much better today, had a small cup of seed tea last night and slept some more...now its wednesday, and can go back next friday and start all over again!!, man i hate being such a winey hippocrite:mad:

[jab]

Look at it this way.. Taking a break gives your tollerance some time so subside (a tiny bit) and makes getting high again all that much more fun. If you never had to feel like crap you wouldn't realize how truly good you can feel. Strange logic, I know, but it seems to hold true. The absolute best hit is one after you've been sick for long enough to really appreciate how sick you can be. Then that hit is like magic and makes you remember why you go through it all.

I guess it was allready summed up though.. "you gotta pay to play"

Good luck! I hope you feel better soon.

[antony]

^^^youre definatley right, and the best thing about being dopesick is getting your "life" saved by somemore shit...but like today, not really dopesick, but i really love coming home from the pharmicists with a couple pills making my belly tingle, and spending a nice cloudy day in front of my computer, eating cigarrettes and talking to my new friends at opiophile!!

[shaunclo]

Look at it this way.. Taking a break gives your tollerance some time so subside (a tiny bit) and makes getting high again all that much more fun. If you never had to feel like crap you wouldn't realize how truly good you can feel. Strange logic, I know, but it seems to hold true. The absolute best hit is one after you've been sick for long enough to really appreciate how sick you can be. Then that hit is like magic and makes you remember why you go through it all

I cant remember how many times i have said that!!! Its so true, when I would stay high for days, without ever having to feel the slightest w/d's, than I started getting bored, yes I said it!!! I would get bored with being high. So what I would do is wait a while till the sickness started to hit, then get high. Mannnnnn was that high so much more rewarding than any other time. Whenever I called my guy, and he was like, "I dont know what to tell you, its gonna be dry for a while." MY HEART WOULD DROP AND I WOULD LITERALLY DROP TO MY KNEES WITH DISBELIEF!!!!! But in a couple of days, I would be riding that dragon again, almost thankful that I had to go a couple of days without, because that first hit again made it all worth it.

[doctor diesel]

yea, feel much better today, had a small cup of seed tea last night and slept some more...now its wednesday, and can go back next friday and start all over again!!, man i hate being such a winey hippocrite:mad:

I was going to say, why don't you keep a box of poppy pods on top of the wardrobe for just these eventualities, then you need not suffer. But if you can make seeds work for you, then... even cheaper!

Doc Diesel

[antony]

i think the worst thing we forget while were on is when the pain is there...we know if it wasn't for whatever were takin we'd be in pain...but this morning at about 3:30 till 7 i was tossing and i could feel each vertebrae moving...it was awful. its just when we're on long enough that we forget the little fuckin pains in the ass (for a lack of a better description.).