I'm not clean anymore!

[Papa Verine]

OK, I lasted a whole 10 days. CT, though. It was rough!

And now it isn't so rough anymore because I'm sitting on a bunch of good heroin. The tolerance hasn't moved much... Oh fuck it. Sometimes I'm sick and I tough it out and sometimes I'm not and I enjoy myself.

I'll fucking take it!

[Levity]

OK, I lasted a whole 10 days. CT, though. It was rough!

And now it isn't so rough anymore because I'm sitting on a bunch of good heroin. The tolerance hasn't moved much... Oh fuck it. Sometimes I'm sick and I tough it out and sometimes I'm not and I enjoy myself.

I'll fucking take it!

Good man.
Good high.
Fill that rig for me while I roll this joint.

:D

[Papa Verine]

Good man.
Good high.
Fill that rig for me while I roll this joint.

:D

Yeah, I'll talk to you later...

[pizzaboy]

Hey Papa...you still did better than me my brother...ten fucking days is a lifetime.

I'm good tonight but facing a long week without. I figure WD won't be quite as bad this time...I'm still reeling from the last one. I'm going to take it easy with what I have and try and act like a man this time.

[GoddessofRATs]

Hey, no worries. 10 days Cold turkey is not easy, specially with H. I give ya credit for even making it 5 days.


GOR

[Mallinckrodt]

Yeah, Good for you man. . .After these last 5.5 yrs on methadone, just the idea of ten days to clean out my receptors. . .man that would be awesome. I've seriously got to think about weaning and taking a break too.

Seriously, good job on the ten days man, i envy you.

[Raz]

Like chi says bro " it is what it is"..Ahh fuck bro, at least you tried.....Raz

[WarmCyanide]

from a nick cave song:

"i'm a wicked little lady but i've been tryin hard lately, ahh fuck it i'm monster i admit it!!

[Venus]

Atleast you didn't go to mdone or subs, like me. You were smart and CT'd it. If I had it all to do over again....

Good try!

[OxiContinKing]

Hey dude, 10 days is something to be proud of.

Next time, maybe you can hit 20.

Then 30, maybe.

You have to crawl before you can walk, and walk before you can run.

[kyuss]

Baby steps.
Shit man,you and nick
and still hardcore in my book.
Cold turkey is a motherfucker.

[SurfRat]

Baby steps.
Shit man,you and nick
and still hardcore in my book.
Cold turkey is a motherfucker.



Agreed, yes indeed.

[upstate_007]

Congrats on making it that far man. You know the deal by this point though and what happens either path you choose. Stay safe and have fun.

[Chicago]

Damm Bro,

You did what you could.
But does it not feel SO much better after the 10days NOW.
I also agree that the tollerence does not move that much, b/c when I had went that 8days, in less then 2 days I was back at doing a half of a gram a day again.
But what I did notice is there is some good "H" going around Chi, but that is threw some of the people that I go threw.

If you did the 10 days, next time you no you can do this & go longer, like he said BABY STEPS...:);)

Baby steps.
Shit man,you and nick
and still hardcore in my book.
Cold turkey is a motherfucker.

[TOOL]

Good try.... welcome back, try to to enjoy the ride..... I still keep myself thinking about the question you posted in my newbie thread about going back to heroin from being on pain meds..... I guess we will see. Good luck.

[Papa Verine]

I went 10 days CT. I got high for a week or so, I don't remember...but now I'm clean again. This is day 3 and it's not as bad as it was the last time, that's for sure. It's a fucking roller-coaster ride. There's no telling what I'll be doing in a couple days.

I'm an addict to the bone. Sober is extremely uncomfortable to me. I have a 5 yr-old daughter who thinks I'm the greatest thing in the world. I don't want to let her down... What I want is to stay high forever, so I can feel good, function, take care of my responsibilities.... But it just doesn't work that way. I'm stuck between addiction and love for my daughter. This isn't a good place to be. If it was just me out there, and just me to worry about, I'd be a rollin' stone, I'd be tearin' it up, I can deal with consequences of my own actions. I can lay in the bed I make. I've lived under a bridge before, I've lived in a jail cell, I never complained about it.

I just can't stand to imagine my little girl with a broken heart. That I cannot handle. So I'm going to TRY to stay clean again. My life can have a happy ending or it can be a sad tragic story, and right now either looks just as possible as the other.

This is our struggle.

[TOOL]

Man I wish the best for you I really hope you can make it, I know its an everyday struggle to stay off H. even with all the pills I still think about it alot, and I havent had any in over 5 years.

[I'm-Nod-Addicted]

You're a good person, PV! Be careful, man!!