greatest day of my life....so far...

[ein0606]

so i guess this is the best place to put this, feel free to move.

so today i thought was gonna be a horrible day because first i had to wake up at 720am (est) to go to my monday doc methadone appt. plus MY PARENTS were going to find out what the fuck was really going on. so my doc backed me up the whole time. my paretns wanted to throw me into detox while i wanted to ween off done and get back on subs. (i was on subs for a year and a half) and it was the best most productive time of my life. anyway the doc said I, ME, was right. i was shocked. anyway he dropped me from 70 to 65, but ive been taking twice that a day and running out half way thru the week since i go once a week.

so my doc says to my dad why dont u dispense the tabs to him and he said sure. i thought i was fucked. so my dad takes me to the pharmacy (CVS) i hadnt been there in like a year since a workers comp incident. so he is waiting in the car and i am thinking trying to scam to get these pills in my possesion. so as they are doing their thing being the counter i find some laxative pills (96 count) that have no markings on them. so i swipe the bottle go to the mag eisle and dump them in my hoodie pocket. so then my script is ready i go up and get ready to pay but they say no copay and i look and they put it on the workers comp shit from forever ago.

so i dart to the bathroom and carefully count out all 88 fake pills (dr is gone next week so i dont go back for two weeks) and put them in the bottle. go to car and give them to my dad. he has no clue what they look like plus if he searches online which im sure he will there is nothing for him to look up they are blank.
but he counts them to make sure i didnt take any extras in the pharm and then says ok. didnt seem to notice shit. he drops me off and i say can i have my pills for today. he gives them to me and says do you need something to wash them down with, i was gonna say no but i decided not to push it so i took 6 and a half laxatives. so maybe another shit is on the way????????????

so anyway i got all my done. can get high, dont have to worry about w/d's till next week, ANNNNNNNNNNDDDDD the kicker is i have had my third bowel movement (normal one ) in 3 days.

i hope my karma stays strong all day.....im so happy....


the things junkies do........................

[SpecialGuy69]

wow. I thought you were gonna say how happy you were you didnt have to dose at the clinic, that your dad could dispense your done, that your doc was starting to trust you a bit.

You, sir, are stupid. You are fucking up a very good thing. Just think if you hadn't pulled some dumbass switch. After a while, they might trust you enough to just let you keep the pills anyways. Now, eventually, your dad is going to find out what you pulled, and your gonna be even more fucked. Obviously you didn't think this through.

And think about next week, after you take all your dones, raise your tolerance, and get a shitty high. What then? What are you going to tell your dad, when you are sick even though he's giving you 65mg of methadone? What are you gonna do to stay well?

Dude, I know WHY you did it, I know what you were hoping for, but look, its a bad idea. Use this as an opportunity to test yourself and take the pills as prescribed. Or better yet, take LESS than prescribed! Instead of 6.5 pills a day, try to only take 4, then 3, etc. You can build up some extra pills that way!


Good luck man. I hope you dont think I'm being a dick. I'm worried about you and I dont want you to fuck up.

[NV12]

wow. I thought you were gonna say how happy you were you didnt have to dose at the clinic, that your dad could dispense your done, that your doc was starting to trust you a bit.

You, sir, are stupid. You are fucking up a very good thing. Just think if you hadn't pulled some dumbass switch. After a while, they might trust you enough to just let you keep the pills anyways. Now, eventually, your dad is going to find out what you pulled, and your gonna be even more fucked. Obviously you didn't think this through.

And think about next week, after you take all your dones, raise your tolerance, and get a shitty high. What then? What are you going to tell your dad, when you are sick even though he's giving you 65mg of methadone? What are you gonna do to stay well?

Dude, I know WHY you did it, I know what you were hoping for, but look, its a bad idea. Use this as an opportunity to test yourself and take the pills as prescribed. Or better yet, take LESS than prescribed! Instead of 6.5 pills a day, try to only take 4, then 3, etc. You can build up some extra pills that way!


Good luck man. I hope you dont think I'm being a dick. I'm worried about you and I dont want you to fuck up.

What I wanted to say, but I'm not in a position to point fingers and say you're stupid ;)

I just hope you rethink this and take advantage of your parents willingness to be involved in your treatment. Best of luck... don't push away the good things while you have them.

Be easy.

[OxyContinuously]

Dude, I am glad you got what you need, and your doctor seems like a good guy.

a couple questions though...how old are you that your dad has to keep YOUR medication and dispense it to you like a little baby?

and second, why don't u tell dad to mind his business(he's not paying for it, and it has nothing to do with him, so he should technically not be involved AT ALL)

i mean i'm not being an ass or anything, so don;t take it like that...i am just wondering why your dad is so invested in controlling your maintenance schedule and it's ridiculous that you would even have to go through the bullshit of switching the pills...Why not simply be like, "dad the medicine is mine, has my name on it, it's my script, so hands-off" (in so many words, LOL)


anyway, u got the methadone, and I imagine that's all that counts, but it irritates me when Ihear about parents being too controlling, and doing it under the guise of them actually giving a shit when in reality it's just to make your life harder, or to "teach you a lesson."


later and good luck

[Levity]

Maybe I'm a bastard but I'm kinda hoping your dad sneaks one of your pills to "try out" and ends up shiting all over the place.

[SpecialGuy69]

omg! I just read the other thread, the one where you said you took 250mg of Valium and 200mg of methadone in the past two days. All I can say is, your fucking up. Good luck when you run out of methadone a week early and go through hell, without even your valiums to help you. I warned you. IF YOU STOP RIGHT NOW AND JUST TAKE THE MINIMUM AMOUNT OF METHADONE TO STAY WELL, 10MG AT A TIME, YOU CAN FIX THIS AND BE OK. ITS UP TO YOU. FUCK UP AND BE SICK, OR BE A BIG BOY AND STAY WELL. Thats all I can tell you.

[Thanat0s]

^^^ AO, yer always right on...

[ein0606]

omg! I just read the other thread, the one where you said you took 250mg of Valium and 200mg of methadone in the past two days. All I can say is, your fucking up. Good luck when you run out of methadone a week early and go through hell, without even your valiums to help you. I warned you. IF YOU STOP RIGHT NOW AND JUST TAKE THE MINIMUM AMOUNT OF METHADONE TO STAY WELL, 10MG AT A TIME, YOU CAN FIX THIS AND BE OK. ITS UP TO YOU. FUCK UP AND BE SICK, OR BE A BIG BOY AND STAY WELL. Thats all I can tell you.

well i found out the answer to my other post....i passed out while trying to respond to AO's first post. see my doc has been giving them to me now for about a moonth and a half. before that i went to clinic and before the clinic i started sept 07 i went to him for 6 m onths the same reason. every week i get them and for the first few days i take more than i should to get a buzz after that i slow it down, skip a day here a day there, to try to make up for it. there has never been one time i went into w/d's that were ever close to severe.

i appreciate your concern and really i had no idea the valium would affect me like this.


and OXY- the reason my parent swent is because i am 23 and they have been paying my rent, and giving me me money when im dirt broke poor, and also because they make me go to family conseloing with them because my addiction has lingered on for so long so they didnt actually beleive i was on methadone, jus though i was getting high. and the dr. iis the one who recommended giving the pills to my dad.

anyway AO i had my day of fun so ask me next friday or saturday how i feel and i bet your ass i will be ok(notin a dickheaded way) i mean i have been able to control my done like.
anyway thanks.

im a junky, thats whatwe we do