I f**ked up really bad for the first time.

[zen]

All I remember was taking 3mg's of xanax.

I don't remember the extra 14mg's handed to me. Nor do I remember taking any of them. I might aswell have been slipped the daterape drug.

Heres what I do know:

Thursday night, 1 day after my first clean urinalysis at the methadone clinic, I decided to get just a few xanny bars for a two day binge. I deserved it. I also took it as a sign, that the dealer was right down the road at my friends house!

I hopped in my brand new car, the one I bought after years of saving my money, and scored 9mg's. Well I took 3mg, stashed the rest somewhere in my car for safekeeping, and then had a few beers at the bar.

The next morning I went to the clinic and dosed, and got a flat tire going 60mph on the freeway, and my car crashed into the cement median, totally wrecking it. Thankfully no one was hit, and I was not hurt at all.

Some nice citizen picked me up, and dropped me off at my home 30 miles away. I told him "sorry I fell asleep on ya bro", and just walk away when he pulls up to my house. I didnt think to offer him cash, thank him, or anything.

Then my parents rush me....
"The police were just here"...
..."for what?" I said...
.."you got into four seperate accidents this morning and drove off. The police are looking for you right now."
..."thats impossible, I just got a flat tire on the freeway and I didnt hit anyone." I say...
"...This didnt happen on the freeway...." And they proceeded to tell me what little they knew.


Apparently I hit and ran on four different cars. I dont know if anyone is killed or hurt, or even if it was me who hit them... I was totally baffled....My parents take me to the police station where a single police officer approaches me. He chats with me for five minutes, in the station enterence, and simply asks me to fill out a form. "So what happened?" he asked.
"I dont remember hitting anyone, at all, I have no memory of this what-so-ever."
Keep in mind these accidents happened just 2 or 3 hours ago. Its still morning time.
He says "okay, just fill out the form."
When finnished he hands me two yellow tickets and says, "your court date is in a month".
...."Am I going to jail, am I going to be arrested?"... I ask.
The cops says very calmly "No your not arrested or going to jail, you probably wont go to jail at all, dont worry." And he leaves us to go home. No breathalizer, sobriety tests, nothing. I am free to leave the station after five or ten minutes.

Well I wake up the next morning and ask what day it is. And slowly I piece together what happened.
I called my friend who was out drinking with me that night....
"You lost your four xanny bars so I got our friend to give you four more. Then we drove to my place and you fall asleep in your car."
I can't find the any xanny bars, anywhere...Apparently I ate the first four that I stashed in my car, and the extra four are also missing. I must have ate them without knowing...All 8-1/2 bars. All 17mg's of xanax, something I no could kill me with my benzo tollerance alone, not to mention the drinking, methadone, etc.

Later that morning I get to the methadone clinic and ask the nurse behind the glass dosing window...
"what time was I here yesterday?"
"at 7:35 in the morning" she replies....

The entire morning was a black out. The drive to town was a black out. As the days follow I learn that one of the people I "Hit and Ran" on, IS THE MOTHER F**KING CHIEF OF POLICE... Who was off duty at the time. All I know is that my mother told me "You hit the chief of police of this state, and he says his neck is sore."

I cant handle any more information so I have beem hidding away for the last few days. I dont know what to do.... I know that I am having topay an extra $3-4k for my car. And another $2k for a good lawyer....But I dont work. You see I am 25 and decided to give up my carrer to watch my dying grandmother at home, because my parents cant afford to hire a full time nurse. There are no federal or State options that apply to our status, that can help with grandma. So they need me to help. I dont have much cash these days because I dont get paid, I bassically get rent and food in exchange to care for her. I know what I gave up, but its family that I need to look after. But it wasnt easy, as I started this big change in my life a year ago, and to deal with the stress of being around my elderly grandma, who looks like she is rotting before my eyes, I started methadone. I am on 125mgs a day, and it was a concious decision aswell. Yes opiates are a pretty extreme remedy for anxitey, pain, and depression, but opiates (opioids), mainly methadone, have helped me to live happy and healthy. For once I was finnaly mentally stable enough to purchase a car and think of moving on in life, while still caring for grandma, but now I really messed up.

Oh well.

[kyuss]

Benzos and alcohol-
the cause and cure
of many of life's problems.
Glad you survived.

[GOLD N DIEMONDS]

WOW, I am at a loss for words. Just wanted to say I am glad you nor anyone else was hurt. I'm guessing your wonderful karma (or something) was watching over you. Please take good care of yourself, you have a lot of wonderful years ahead of you.

[dirtdog]

Jesus
Just be glad youre safe, okay and no one is seriously hurt.

[drugsaregood]

Damn zen, sorry to hear about your little xanny adventure. Glad you're alright and so everyone else involved. Honestly though, it doesn't suprise me at all. Xanax is evil. Opiates are bliss. As for the cop and his sore neck, I'm sure he's lying about it...Either way, sorry about your situation and hopefully no lawsuits proceed\your insurance covers accidents like that? :confused:

[pharmboy]

Damb dude I must say you dont do anything half assed.
Glad your OK too. I guess I dont have to tell you to stay
away from the Xanax. Your a benzohalic. Stick with opis
,much less amnesia. From what you say your not TOTALY
fucked, but your car is. I think you lucked out this time.
Good luck at court.. get a lawyer.

[limitless_euphoria]

I have to agree that benzos and alcohol are a DANGEROUS mix. People have ended up in a coma over that shit. Mixing benzos and booze has gotten me tossed out of bars, embarassed the next day when I get that phone call... "I did what... got cought in barbed wire, while trying to do what to a sheep???"

The problem with having a blackout is that whomever was there has the leverage to fuck with you and you have to take their account. I also cannot tell you how many times I've misplaced my stash of various goods. If I were you I'd just be very, very careful about mixing the two in the future. If anything, have a trustworthy bud hold onto your shit until you're sober enough to handle the xannies. Just some friendly advice from someone who has "been there, done that, got the t-shirt" with the whole booze and benzo blackout bull shit.

[reddragon3668]

Wow, dude, I feel for ya.. but as others have said here, its good that noone was seriously hurt or killed. Or better yet, its amazing you survived. I had a similar thing happen with Ambien and alcohol.... went out side to drink a few beers after taking an ambein... woke up in jail... not a pleasant experience... there is a reason they say don't drink with that shit. I had to learn the hard way too. Good luck.. it will all work out, I'm sure. Keep your head up and don't abandon your plans.... like the late charles chaplin said: "nothing in this wicked world is permanent, even our troubles"

[Mcdom]

Sorry about your accidents. That is one rough set of fallout. Hope it all works out for you.

Just a note - if you are taking care of your grandma - you might want to check with your local agency on aging - every state should have one. The state has waiver programs that can pay the people who are taking care of someone who is housebound. It's worth a check. You might be able to get a little money for doing this. And doing it is a really good thing in my book - paid or not.
Take care.

[zen]

There is no way that I am going to say that I took a scheduled substance, especially xanax. I was doing something about certain over the counter drugs that might prodce certian side effects thqat might cause extreme sedation......
...When I remebered about Coricidin. Well it contains DXM, which Wikipedia says:

"
Dextromethorphan (DXM or DM) is an antitussive (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Antitussive) (cough-suppressant) drug found in many over-the-counter (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Over-the-counter) cold and cough medicines. Dextromethorphan has also found other uses in medicine, ranging from pain relief to psychological applications. Pure dextromethorphan occurs as a powder made up of white crystals, but it is generally administered via syrups, tablets, or lozenges (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lozenge) manufactured under several different brand names and generic (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Generic) labels.
When taken at doses higher than are medically recommended, dextromethorphan is classified as a dissociative (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dissociative) hallucinogenic (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hallucinogen) drug. It can produce effects similar to those of the controlled substances PCP (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Phencyclidine) and ketamine (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ketamine), which afford it a high potential for abuse"


What do you guys think? Esoecially that I am taking methadone at 125mgs. This is my first ever offense....I really dont want to go to jail, and I havent got a lawyer yet, I have less than 3 weeks, and need to get on the ball...

....I think I will suddenly "remember" that I drank a few beers the night before, went to my friend house who has a cat. Well I am extremely allergic to cats, as my medical records should say, since I saw some allergist doc when I was a kid and he tested me for all kinds of allergies. Well my friend gave me some "antihistimines" and I took about 4 of them, or according to the "purple coricidin box" contains 30mg per tab. Well according to Erowid.com, you need atleast 100mg for a "light" trip. **here is the reference: http://www.erowid.org/chemicals/dxm/dxm_dose.shtml "
...So I take maybe 6 of these tablets beame my sinuses are KILLING ME!! I am in allergy hell, and nothing is helping. My friend tells me "Its a good idea to sleep here tonight, becauase you had a few beers hours ago and took many of these antihistimines that can make you a little drowsey". I say "hey man good idea", and soon fall asleep in my car. Then at 6:30am I decide to get to the clinic early, and feeling better and rested I hit the road. After that, I dont remeber anything except getting to the clinic, and getting a flat tire on the freeway....


So what do you guys think???

[chopstix]

I personally think you should go get that Lawyer and let him come up with a story. Doesn't take much to get a DUI conviction.. Good luck.

[Mcdom]

It would be a good idea not to bring anyone else into the story - this friend for instance. Just gives them more ammo for questioning should they decide to investigate further.

Anyway - once you decide on your storyline - don't change it.

Changing the details often indicates someone might be lying and they might just decide to make things harder for you.

Keep your story straight. Act it out if you have to and tell it to yourself in the mirror for practice.

[Paregoric Kid]

deny you drank or took xanax they don't have any evidence you did. get a lawyer asap. maybe come up with a story that your car was stolen. good luck. benzos + alcohol is crazy shit that is for sure.

[johnysmoke]

This reminds me of my younger days. Be carefull with xanax. I have been on 8mgs a day for the past 12 years, no fun. Xanax can cause temporary amnesia in people that dont really need it or people that have very little tolerance.
No matter what happens in all this, they will probably take it easy on you because this is your 1st offence.
Please excuse me for i am dazed right now and i totally forgot what i was going to say. It will come to me in one of the waves.

[CIIORNOTHING]

I had a similar incidnet years ago. Rear ended a lady while hammered, sped off and started running, flying through side streets and neighborhoods trying to get as far away as possible when SLAMO I tbone a car in an intersection. OUr cars were entangled, but I was still putting it in reverse trying to get loose so I could run some more. At the time I was a paramedic (go figure huh) so the cops on the scene wre EXTERMELY cool to me and didnt charge me. The wrecker towed my car and I got a cab ride back to my motel (I was out of town visiting a friend when this happened).

Next day, Im thinking I got so lucky and am in the clear when two detecetives knock on my hotel room door and needless to say my luck quickly ran out. The first lady I hit went and swore out a warrant on me, and the second guy I hit did the same. I was charged with the two counts of felony fleeing the scene of an accident with property and/or personal injuries exceeding $500.

I was found guilty as hell, had to pay restistituion to both drivers for thier cars (about $11,000) plus thier bullshit bogus medical expenses, got one year in jail (suspended sentence thank god) 120 hours of community service, susepned drivers license for 6 months, a year of probation, and a $2000 fine.


All because I didnt want to stop for a fender bender after a couple of beers. Youth is wasted on the young.

[zen]

Shit i didnt know it was a felony..

[GOLD N DIEMONDS]

Well that is probably worst case scenario, Especially the way described, the INTENT to flee was definitely there. What are the tickets for? what charges?

[Jocko]

As the LA punk band the Circle Jerks so aptly say, "Deny Everything!". Well, you can't deny that you were driving, but do NOT admit to ANY substance usage at all. I'm sure your lawyer will agree with that - especially since they didn't run ANY tests whatsoever at the police station. Perhaps the fact that your grandma is sick, finances are tough, you had a new car and were stressed, you have anxiety from all this, etc. That may be the route to go, especially since this is your first offense. Good luck!

[OPticrazi]

GET THE BEST LAWYER YOU CAN, BORROW MONEY< SELL THE CAR, WHAT EVER IT TAKES, THIS A VERY SERIOUS SITUATION!
Been there! And for God Sake let the mouth piece do all your talking!

[OPticrazi]

GET THE BEST LAWYER YOU CAN, BORROW MONEY< SELL THE CAR, WHAT EVER IT TAKES, THIS A VERY SERIOUS SITUATION!
Been there! And for God Sake let the mouth piece do all your talking!

Thank god your all right as far as LIVING goes!

[9177]

Admit to nothing.
Better get the best lawyer you can, YESTERDAY.

[In The Wind]

Zen,
I think you've been given a chance to re-evaluate some of the choices you've made. From reading your posts I think that inside you understand this.

I suggest that you say a thank you that you or nobody else was hurt and that you change the direction that you're headed in because you've had a glimpse of where it goes.

Get into the local junior college and get your education. leave this drug crap behind..

[OPticrazi]

Well spoken Wind!..................This kid needs to get her shit together and fast.....Peace out

[zen]

I got a lawyer lined up over the weekend. He is supposed to be a very good lawyer and will probably cost thousands. I will call him on monday and see what is going on. Yeah I have been avoiding this for over two weeks now. The court date is on the 23rd of October, so in exactly one month as of today.
I cant believe how screwed up things are now...
...Just got offered a job from my friend. Answering phones for $1,800 a month, 40hr/week. All under the table. This is my one and only chance in over 18 months to finnaly move out, and liv on my own!! Especially because my friend who will employ me kows abot my drug addiciton, methadone treatment, etc. Hell he is the one who handed me the damn pills twice that night.
Its a decent job,and it will allow me to finnaly rent my own house. However, until I talk to my lawyer, I dont even know if I can take the job...Everyone seems to agree that I should stay at home "watching grandma", that way the entire family will be affected by the judges decision, and perhaps it will be better for me in court... My medic-aid free insurance from the state covers my $300 a month metnadone treatment, and all of my MANY medical bills. Worried as hell my money situation and insurance will come under question. Bad enough my new car is totalled, my spotless abstract was clean, I cant afford the insurance to own a car now...
...Im just trying to hold it together and not use so I can get my first damn take home.... Let alone start a real job again, and move out own my own for the first time...

Sometimes I think the world is telling me to go back to traveling the third world for a few years, like I really want to do...


Ill keep you all informed..Aloha.

[OPticrazi]

:D Hang in there, People are always at their best when things are at there worst! Believe me I have seen it. Just keep your Karma clean, and forget about the material shit, that you can always get that stuff back, they are just objects! Your FREEDOM IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING FOR NOW!
FOCUS on what the mouth piece says, for GODS sake don't bullshit the guy or gal as the case may be.
I'll be pull'in for ya kid ........Hang in there! OPTIcrazi, but far from insane..........Peace Dasnip

[CIIORNOTHING]

I got a lawyer lined up over the weekend. He is supposed to be a very good lawyer and will probably cost thousands. I will call him on monday and see what is going on. Yeah I have been avoiding this for over two weeks now. The court date is on the 23rd of October, so in exactly one month as of today.
I cant believe how screwed up things are now...
...Just got offered a job from my friend. Answering phones for $1,800 a month, 40hr/week. All under the table. This is my one and only chance in over 18 months to finnaly move out, and liv on my own!! Especially because my friend who will employ me kows abot my drug addiciton, methadone treatment, etc. Hell he is the one who handed me the damn pills twice that night.
Its a decent job,and it will allow me to finnaly rent my own house. However, until I talk to my lawyer, I dont even know if I can take the job...Everyone seems to agree that I should stay at home "watching grandma", that way the entire family will be affected by the judges decision, and perhaps it will be better for me in court... My medic-aid free insurance from the state covers my $300 a month metnadone treatment, and all of my MANY medical bills. Worried as hell my money situation and insurance will come under question. Bad enough my new car is totalled, my spotless abstract was clean, I cant afford the insurance to own a car now...
...Im just trying to hold it together and not use so I can get my first damn take home.... Let alone start a real job again, and move out own my own for the first time...

Sometimes I think the world is telling me to go back to traveling the third world for a few years, like I really want to do...


Ill keep you all informed..Aloha.

In my state, what determined wthether it was a felony or not was dependent on how much property damgage was done (financially) and whether or not there was personal iinjury amounting to X amount (cant remember the figures. It just depends onhow much damage you did whether its a felony or misd.

Best of luck to you...

[EleusisII]

Holy fucking crap!
I took too many sleeping pills once, and woke up with a car I didn't remember renting....
A good lawyer is always a great idea. Have you thought about date-rape? Unless your lawyer can come up with some bullshit, I'd definetly write it off on attempted daterape or something. You went to a bar, got slipped some xanax, and whoops!

[zen]

Well I went to go talk to my new lawyer. He has been practicing law for over 30 years, and has been a judge for 6 or 7.... At $250 an hour, I hope the court session doesn't take too long. The session went well, and he was very reassuring that I wont end up in jail. My friend is working with my siutation and will allow me to work only 3 days a week for now, so I can continue to watch grandma "full time" aswell. As long as my mother will contest in court that I am helping full time, the court doesn't need to know about my new, all cash, under the table job.
I like the suggestion about the date rape drug. As far as I remember, I could have been slipped that drug anyway. I did tell the lawyer about my methadone treatment, and proceeded to throw in a DXM senario, that I could have taken some Coricidin D pills for my allergies, which can produce PCP like effects while potenating Methadone....

[EleusisII]

Well, I figure if they test you, they'll find it... So better to say: "Holy Crap! I must've been slipped a mickey, your honor!" than "I fucked up, judge. Cursed recreational Xanax-use!"

And hey: Normally functioning people that aren't high or fucked up, just DON'T pull that kind of crap, ya know? With all the media attention about daterapes, you might just be able to pull it through. Especially if the judge is a homophobe :D

[robotears]

Shit man... Thats tough! I'm almost crying for you just listening to that story. Thats what xanax will do though. You gotta just stay home in bed when you eat that shit and drink. Hope everything works out for you.

[zen]

Whats up everyone.
Two days ago I got up early to dose and went to court. My lawyer arrived a few minutes early to review the matter at hand. I counted over 60 people waiting to be tried, everyones name listed on the wall, including my name #16. However, out of all the people and few lawyers there, my lawyer got the only front desk available, and got me into the very front of the line (#1), as well as chatting with the prosecutor and setting a good deal BEFORE the court session started! I was warned that the judge will ask if I consumed any alcohol or medication 24 hours before my testimony, and scolded that I should NOT dose in the morning! Yeah right...
Every statement to come from my mouth was followed by "your honor", and I don't think I missed a single one. The judge, I was told, was one of the nicer ones, and "we could have had a much meaner judge" from what my lawyer said. When it came time for the sentencing, I was ordered to pay $270 to the state, and restitution, meaning I have to pay to the victims what my no fault did not cover. No community service, no jail time, or probation. I wasn't even charged a criminal, in fact this is just going onto my drivers abstract, not my REAL record! I guess I got lucky. Funny thing I did take a few doses of xanax since, that was coincidentally handed to me by people who knew about "that fu*ked up morning" when I crashed my new car....
Things could have been much worse, and im glad the stress is over. In the end i did loose about $5,000 from my car's body damage, motor repair, and having to pay lawyer fees and penalties, etc.
In the end, I am grateful.

Edit:
I was reading through the entire thread, and came across CIIORNOTHING's old post:

"I was found guilty as hell, had to pay restistituion to both drivers for thier cars (about $11,000) plus thier bullshit bogus medical expenses, got one year in jail (suspended sentence thank god) 120 hours of community service, susepned drivers license for 6 months, a year of probation, and a $2000 fine. "

....Fu*k! I cant believe that happened! I cant believe that I got off so easily, and you got shafted. Maybe because this is my first offense, and not yours? Damn... sucks that happened man... After reading your post I feel so bad for you, but feel so happy at the same time, knowing that could have been me! I couldn't imagine having 120 hours of community service when i am working so hard now, 6 days a week from 5:30am-10:00pm including the methadone treatment and not having a car... Even 10 days in jail, which was a "real possibility" as my lawyer said, would have killed me...I *increased* to 135mg's during the long, anxiety ridden wait for my court date...