kinda makes you think

[SHELLEY]

my roommate and best friend
died of a heroin overdose last night
on our bed
i was the one who found him

scared the ever-loving shit out of me
could've been me

...he's never even shot up before

don't know why i posted this
guess i just wanted to share
i was 100% drug-free for 4 hellish days
hell hell hell fiery flaming hell
now my tolerance is way down
and i think i like it this way

[GoddessofRATs]

Oh Shelly, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. I'm really not sure what else to say but if you need to talk just PM me, i should be here for a bit longer.

HUGS
Goddessofrats

[RxQueen]

so sorry to hear this shelley. i never know anything to say that takes any of the pain out of times like these. but at least you're among friends here, and we understand what you're going through right now. hell, it's only 3 months since the last OD death in my real-life world. it never gets any easier...

try to be gentle with yourself and keep that tolerance down. (it makes me worry when someone has to deal with a loss like this when they have a lower tolerance than they're used to!) my thoughts are with you, and i hope that the pain passes quickly and lets you find some peace. take care sweetie!

[pharmboy]

I too am sorry to hear about that but maybe you should
leave Florida now and go to a friendlier state and check
into a hospital and get your liver checked out. If I recall
you are turning yellow? No?

[AZJunkie]

Sorry lady.....I been there. Finding them is somethig you never quite "get over"

[Woowoo]

Shelley I'm so sorry. I know what it's like--heroin took my best friend from me. Years later I still grieve.

I'm getting off the shite before it gets me too. Seems like it's just a matter of time. This ain't no fuckin' game we're playing, this is life and death.

Check back with me in 5 days, I'm going clean. I ain't kiddin'. I'm sick of this shit, sick of knowing that death is around the corner, sick of needing to shoot dope in my arms four times a day. I don't choose dope. I choose life.

[Opilover]

Shelly I'm very sorry about you losing your friends,my brother recently lost a good friend due to H OD,,he got out of jail after 6 months and b4 that he was on a 3 ballon a day habit and when he got out he didn't think about his tolerance dropping and he did it again and they found him in his apt.My deepest regards are with you sis...

[southernbelle]

I'm so sorry to hear this, Shelley.

[CIIORNOTHING]

Im glad you posted it Shelley. What better place to get support from people who care about you, and we do care about you.

Im so sorry for your loss. If his death in someway helps you get things straightened out in your own life, then maybe it wont be for nothing huh?

Im sorry for your loss.

[Nate]

You have my deepest condolences!

Be Strong, Take Care!

[Ragdoll]

Jesus fucking christ! I am seriously sorry. A life is an important thing. Sad, sad, sad.

[sidman]

Well Seeing that I lost my girlfreind to Smack last January, and the girl freind I had before Her is selling herself for it ( She's also close to Death ) and that almost all of my past "freind's" who used it are Dead,
I can absolutely relate to what you may be feeling.
I overdosed a few times and came really close to Death myself.
The scary thing is I never saw it coming!
I don't think my girl or my "freind's" saw it coming either.
Death is just a sad sad side effect that I wish Heroin never had,but it does.
If it didn't cause me so much Strife, I would probably be shootin' a bag right now (or two)
I don't know anything other than to say ," get off the Smack, Shelley!"
But who am I? Definately not one to judge,that's for sure........
Hope you will be alright,
Thats all.

[ProdigalSon]

So so sorry Shelly, from the bottom of my heart. You and your friend and everyone he has touched are in my thoughts and prayers

[drug]

stand strong...
i'm so sorry.

[Chipper]

I often forget that Heroin can be a killer.

I often forget how easy it is to overdose.

What a tragic story.

May it never happen again.

[Synack]

Sorry to hear about the loss, it's tough... i've lost several friends over the years to completely stupid shit.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wfA3dQ5BXIo

it's a fucking sad world . Best wishes and we're around if you need an e-shoulder to cry on (speaking for atleast myself here)

[tui]

Really sorry to hear this Shelley. I hope you're okay hun.

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[odd]

That sucks, I am sorry to hear that. I found my best friend the same way 10 years ago. I still miss him everyday and have dreams about bumping into him. This is one of the reasons why I wanted to get clean (on day 5 now)

I am sorry for your loss. try and be safe with that lower tolerance ok?

[grant123]

Shelly,
we have had no previous relationship before but i will still send you my positive vibes and support to help ease what you are going through. its a brutal smack in the face that death is right around the corner in this dope game we play. prayers and best of wishes goes out to you!

[Lil_Miss_Brownstone]

I just found out that my ex BF died of a fentanyl OD a few months ago...now at least 2 of my last 5 BFs are dead from ODs and one is MIA and who knows....

glad my BF now is clean. i couldn't take another one going out like this.

i have had the biggest habit of any of my friends for a while now. I've been to jail a few times but it's been 3 yrs since I OD'd. I sometimes feel like the universe is mocking me by leaving me alive to witness all of my friends die or go to prison for decades. Like I'm the one with a death wish and instead everyone around me dies.

[rachamim18]

It is a difficult thing for sure but you must remember, and some might give me heat over this but I must always be honest, heroin did not kill your friend. Prohibition and ignorance (not your friend's per se) did. Heroin is an inanimate substance, like a rock or a Ford truck. Both rocks and trucks kill more people than heroin ever did and yet we do not condemn either trucks or rocks or prohibit them because as inanimate objects they have no qualities, it is only their usage that has such.

With education and patience death never needs to accompany any facet of opiate/opioid usage. If one chooses, they can purify their illicit heroin, filter it via micron filter and use new needles, usually provided free of charge .

I do hope you find peace over the issue, I too have seen many die from heroin,among other things. It is never easy I think but you should, if you are at all able, think objectively as possible.

[WebDevil]

sorry to hear about that. i've had a friend overdose and die before. not in front of me, and i never saw him dead tho. ive had to revive a girl once who literally turned purple and was looking very close to death. the guy whose house it was said drag her outside and call the ambulance. i told him to fuck off and i called the ambulance and gave the address too. but before they got there i managed to shake her by the shoulders so hard her head nearly fell off and she came back to life. she was very apolagetic, and she didnt remeber what the fuck happened. and she only shot half a ten pound bag. pretty frightened the shit out of me. i would never ever shoot someone else for them. if they want to shoot, they can do it theirself or learn from someone else. just remember how powerful H is. when i first started using i could put the smallest bit in a spliff and after 4 good puffs i would be sick, and fucked for hours.
anyway. so sorry about that.:(